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“The things we do to avoid difficult things are often worse than the difficult thing.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“I notice, once again, that company that’s not the right fit for you is so much lonelier than being happily alone.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“This is what I never knew about loss – it’s also about what you gain. You carry a weight that you never had before. It’s never behind you. It’s alongside you.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“There’s something exceptional about friendships with friends you’ve known since you were young. They know all the versions of you. They know how you were built. They have a map for you. There’s a shorthand between you, and a love that is as strong as any blood tie.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“I’m sure you can see why I think I’m worth more than someone who spent sixteen years making up his mind about whether I was worth the hassle.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“My conclusion is this: there’s no rule that says the unavailable person you waste your life being in love with has to be the greatest human you ever met. It doesn’t make the loss of him any less painful.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“Seeing someone you know well in a totally different context is always disorientating and vaguely impressive. You realise you have them on loan from the other lives they lead.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“This is how it feels in the split second you suddenly become aware that you’re falling in love with someone. The click of a jigsaw’s last piece, the rainfall of coins in a jackpot slot machine, the right song striking up and your being swept away by its opening bars. That conviction of making complete sense of the universe, in one moment. Of course. You’re where I should be. You’re here.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“I ponder how many mistakes in life are born of a simple fear of being rude.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“I think the truth is: opportunities in life are like doors flashing open and slamming closed, for good. You won’t necessarily notice when they’re open, or get any warning they’re going to close. If you don’t bolt through them when you can, then that is that.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“those who lose loved ones young become risk-takers. They’re not reckless, they just see the stakes differently to the rest of us. More clearly.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“Beware the Nicest Guy in the Room, who doesn’t think his failures are the same as everyone else’s.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“There’s shock and then there’s grief, and there’s the simple tiring unending chore of life afterward. These are all different things, I’ve learned.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“You didn’t want me enough, when choosing me became harder.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“Sad is happy for deep people,” I say,”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“Ninety-nine percent of the world’s lovers are not with their first choice. That’s what makes the jukebox play.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“Life’s veered sharply away from the script. We’re traveling a branch of an alternative future we were never meant to be on.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“Why are things, abandoned things, so hard to bear? They didn’t have that quality before. And compared to the living thing you’ve lost, they’re without value.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“The panic that her voice, the way she spoke, her attitude, all that was unique and specific to her, would pass into history. I wanted her to be here, and for her contributions and opinions to still be with us. That she is past tense, feels so impossible, when she was so vividly alive.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“Someone once said to me birth was the most ordinary and extraordinary thing you’ll ever experience, simultaneously, and death is the same. The fact of yours sits there, implacably, being so banal and so mind-blowingly strange at the same time. It will always be like this, I have come to realize. The ache is permanent, it must be accommodated. It’s part of my body now. I”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“I loved thinking you were in love with me, I encouraged it, and I never asked myself if it hurt you. I purposely blurred the lines between friendship and fancying and us being in love, because it felt good,”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“It was really interesting to me, unravelling why we behave the way we do.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“No wonder we play 'the what’s for you, won’t pass you' mind games with ourselves, when the brutal senselessness is so hard to swallow.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“It’s funny we use social media to spy on each other really, given everyone’s telling some degree of lie on there,” Justin says. “There was a photo of a hotel on Trivago doing the rounds because they’d cropped out the nuclear power station behind it. But don’t we all, in a sense, crop out our nuclear power stations?”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“That's not a particularly useful measure of your enemies, motive. If there's one thing I've learned, it's that harm done with explicit conscious intention of doing another person harm accounts for about two percent of all harm inflicted. That descriptor pretty much only applies to dictators in banana republics, serial killers, and PE teachers.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“Beauty isn’t an arrangement of features, even features as perfect as Finlay Hart’s, it’s a feeling. This is how it feels in the split second you suddenly become aware that you’re falling in love with someone.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“I will never have a friend like her again. Not only because of our affinity, the sheer timescales. You can't make new old friends. Doors in your life, open and closing.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“When you pass on something that has good things about it, but isn’t good enough, you’re gambling that something one day will feel better, aren’t you? Stick, or twist.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Last Night

“It will always be this way, I've come to realize. You are never behind me, Susie. You are never something that happened. You are always alongside me.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“You usually say old people are a comfort to each other, but that’s what Suzie and I were. I can see that so clearly. The secret formula, each other’s comfort and joy. The eternity of the silence overwhelms me. The line between us buzzes with monotonous static. A line never to be busy again. The only word I can think of that comes close to how I feel is desolate.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night