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“Eventually, 'Dad is dead' turned into 'I will die', which was my introduction to the fear. The fear of gone. The fear of nothing at all, of what happens to me, of I am the main character and the story will crumble if I'm not there to see it through.”
― Savannah Brown, The Truth About Keeping Secrets

“Seeing the body was supposed to be cathartic, but the man in the lipstick wasn’t my dad.”
― Savannah Brown, The Truth About Keeping Secrets

“I wasn’t convinced anyone felt the exact same way I did. That’s the rub about being human, I guess. You have all these tools to express yourself, art and music and poetry and stuff, but no one will ever truly know how you feel unless you somehow manage to create a projection of your brain and play it on to the wall. Even then it might not be as vivid. Even then it might not be as close.”
― Savannah Brown, The Truth About Keeping Secrets

“Fuck domino effects. Fuck everything happens for a reason. Fuck it, fuck it, absolutely fuck all of it to hell.”
― Savannah Brown, The Truth About Keeping Secrets

“It’s just, like, when it was good, it was good. There’d be, God, like months at a time where things would be fine. Perfect. He’d be loving and gentle but then it’d all go to shit again and I had to deal with it. And the best way I can explain it is … that you forget what normal is.”
― Savannah Brown, The Truth About Keeping Secrets

“I'd shut myself out for so long that I had forgotten how wonderful it felt to be included, to be seen, to be heard.”
― Savannah Brown, The Truth About Keeping Secrets

“My brother, my little brother, he's soooo perfect, but he's- he doesn't like food, like, literally doesn't like food, or, I don't know, he loves it. He loves it so much that it has to be perfect all the time, you know? And then one day he got so fed up with himself, he was like, he was so annoyed, he hated how much he loved food, yeah, so he thought it would be better if there wasn't any food. But that's so silly! Because you've got to eat food or you'll die, won't you?”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“Firstly, I resent the fangirl idea that Draco Malfoy is some kind of beautifully tortured soul who is searching for redemption and understanding. He's essentially a massive racist. Secondly, the idea that bullying means that you fancy someone is basically the foundation of domestic abuse.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“My name is Victoria Spring. I think you should know that I make up a lot of stuff in my head and then get sad about it. I like to sleep and I like to blog. I am going to die someday.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“02:12:23:26. Two days, twelve hours, twenty-three minutes, twenty-six seconds until Thursday turns into Friday. Solitaire antics today have been focused around the number 2: hundreds of posters, on Post-its on every surface, written on all whiteboards, popping up on the computers. From here I can see that the number 2 is painted in red directly onto the snow of the field. It looks a bit like blood.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“And there's sort of a moment where everyone's sitting and thinking, you know? Like that feeling when you finish watching a film. You turn off the TV, the screen is black, but the pictures are replaying in your head and you think what if that's my life? What if that's going to happen to me? Why don't I get that happy ending? Why am I complaining about my problems?”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“I don’t think my mum likes me very much. That doesn’t matter, because I don’t really like her either.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“we're all waiting for something to change. Patience can kill you”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“I don't want people to try and understand why I'm the way I am, because I should be the first person to understand that. And I don't understand yet." - p. 266”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“There’s a time and a place for being normal. For most people, normal is a default. But for some, like you and me, normal is something we have to bring out, like putting on a suit for a posh dinner.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“As I open the door, he murmurs: “Nothing’s going to change until you decide you want it to change.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“When you watch a film, you’re sort of an outsider looking in. With a book—you’re right there. You are inside. You are the main character.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“Happiness,” he says, “is the price of profound thought.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“Sometimes I wish I were a normal human being. But I can't. I'm not. No matter how hard I try.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“I'm a little bit in love with everyone I meet.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“If you can't accept things you don't understand, then you'll spend your life questioning everything. Then you'll have to live out your life in your own head.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“The large majority of teenagers who attend Higgs are soulless, conformist idiots. I have successfully integrated myself into a small group of girls who I consider to be “good people,” but sometimes I still feel that I might be the only person with a consciousness, like a video game protagonist, and everyone else are computer-generated extras who have only a select few actions, such as “initiate meaningless conversation” and “hug.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“I swear to God I’m a freak. I mean it. One day I’m going to forget how to wake up.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“It’s important to make lots of discoveries every day.” He stands back up. “That’s what makes one day different from the next.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“I just like individual songs. I find one song that I really love, and then I listen to it about twenty billion times until I hate it and have ruined it for myself.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“I don't want people to be worried about me. There's nothing to worry about. I don't want people to try and under why I'm the way I am, because I should be the first person to understand that. And I don't understand yet. I don't want people to interfere. I don't want people in my head, picking out this and that, permanently picking up the broken pieces of me.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“You know, if you want to be happier, you have to try. You have to put in the effort. Your problem is that you don’t try.” I do try. I have tried. I have tried for sixteen years.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“If this is the best time of my life, I might as well end it immediately.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“I don't know why you won't even look me in the eye. I don't understand anything you're doing or saying, and it's killing me, because I already don't undestand a single thing about me or Michael or Becky or my brother or anything on this shitty planet.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire

“Nice people are vulnerable because they don’t know how to be mean.”
― Alice Oseman, Solitaire