“There goes your pretty face,” hisses Peter. “Oh, wait. You don’t have
one.”
I recover my balance and walk toward Al. He nods at me. I try to smile
encouragingly, but I can’t manage it. I stand in front of the board, and my
head doesn’t even reach the center of the target, but it doesn’t matter. I look at
Four’s knives: one in his right hand, two in his left hand.
My throat is dry. I try to swallow, and then look at Four. He is never sloppy.
He won’t hit me. I’ll be fine.
I tip my chin up. I will not flinch. If I flinch, I prove to Eric that this is not
as easy as I said it was; I prove that I’m a coward.
“If you flinch,” Four says, slowly, carefully, “Al takes your place.
Understand?”
I nod.
Four’s eyes are still on mine when he lifts his hand, pulls his elbow back,
and throws the knife. It is just a flash in the air, and then I hear a thud. The
knife is buried in the board, half a foot away from my cheek. I close my eyes.
Thank God.
“You about done, Stiff?” asks Four.
I remember Al’s wide eyes and his quiet sobs at night and shake my head.
“No.”
“Eyes open, then.” He taps the spot between his eyebrows.
I stare at him, pressing my hands to my sides so no one can see them shake.
He passes a knife from his left hand to his right hand, and I see nothing but
his eyes as the second knife hits the target above my head. This one is closer
than the last one—I feel it hovering over my skull.
“Come on, Stiff,” he says. “Let someone else stand there and take it.”
Why is he trying to goad me into giving up? Does he want me to fail?
“Shut up, Four!”
I hold my breath as he turns the last knife in his hand. I see a glint in his
eyes as he pulls his arm back and lets the knife fly. It comes straight at me,
spinning, blade over handle. My body goes rigid. This time, when it hits the
board, my ear stings, and blood tickles my skin. I touch my ear. He nicked it.
And judging by the look he gives me, he did it on purpose.
“I would love to stay and see if the rest of you are as daring as she is,” says
Eric, his voice smooth, “but I think that’s enough for today.”
He squeezes my shoulder. His fingers feel dry and cold, and the look he
gives me claims me, like he’s taking ownership of what I did. I don’t return
Eric’s smile. What I did had nothing to do with him.
“I should keep my eye on you,” he adds.”
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Veronica Roth,
Divergent