Just the Way YOU are! discussion

Are you cutting yourself? Why?
There are other options guys please lets talk about it.

This may be a tough topic. If you want it to be private please send me a message and we can talk about it.

Though my bio gives an upbeat look I have lived my life in a shadowy world of a cracked mirror image. I developed addictions early on and stayed deep in those to cope from a fear that I did not understand. My addictions were addressed through a 12step program and God showed me in so many ways that I could trust Him implicitly and when I had reached 25yrs free of addictions the winds of change blew through my life and confusion, fear, paranoia, night terrors, rocking,and catatonic states ensued. The diagnosis given I refused to accept. Though in time agreed to look further into it and nearly ten years after the diagnosis and sitting through appointments that did not address the real issue, I had a severe setback and then finally found a Therapist that understood what I had and exactly how to approach it and work through it. Prior to seeing her I had acquired a self help book re the condition and with a base of the 12 step program under me was ready for the next step through that road of destiny that lay before me. I still have this condition which has been with me since an infant.

Today, I do not fear what is within the houses of my mind nor view such as my enemy. Presently I am working with a ghostwriter to pen my story to give hope to others who have and are living with this condition or no someone who has or is. Today I fully accept who I am and am willing to grow as the Lord sees fit. Who I am lies within the name I use which is glenna(my name) or multiplicity, hall(my last name)

Wow congratulations that is truly amazing! Good for you!

I started cutting when I was 8 y.o. and burning when I was 12 y.o. The last time I cut was about a year ago and the last time I burned was about a month ago. I promised myself I wouldn't do either anymore and I like to think that I'm recovering now.

Good for you. I try to run whenever I feel sad it helps you should try its a great time to think and it's healthy.

Thanks. That's a good way to blow off steam! I started running a little while ago so I think I'll try to stick with that like you. Sounds like a good, healthy alternative.

It's great good luck!

Thank you!

no, but I've got a lot of mental scars from some of the things I've been through

yeah it is tough...sorry thats really all i can say right now if you want to talk deeper into it you can message me!

Ya, I do, I just don't want the group to know some of the things that made the mental scars, but you can know.

I was abused. When my parents found out about it, they were shocked.

Yeah, I don't tend to talk about it much anymore. :P

oh my godness im so sorry that happen if you want to talk privatley please message me or you can post a comment here you don't have to share but if you want to. i could try my best to help

Yeah, it happened a long time ago though, but the pain doesn't exactly leave you. Last year whenever anybody asked I would talk openly about it, but now…I guess I ran out of words to say about it. I can tell you about it through pm if you want to know about it, Sydney.

only if you want to share i dont want to make you uncomfortable

Actually it's not because I feel uncomfortable about it. I just don't know what to say about it anymore. I just tell people whenever they ask, "Oh, yeah, I was abused. It wasn't till I spoke up to my parents about it that the person harming me stopped." I just…don't know how to express it anymore, I guess.

ok well you don't have to share because the past is the past and its better to focus on the future.

Yeah, that's true. That's pretty much what I think about it. But the thing is I'm scared about the future and I sometimes feel like the present moment sucks and at other times feel like I want the present moment to last forever. I'm starting to wonder what I even want anymore.

life does get confusing...

i uswd to cut and i sometimes want to cut again when things are going bad

dont cut i used to run or do something that works my body without hurting it find an alternative that wont hurt you

also i dated a guy for a whole school year and he abused me alot..... he'd punch me at least 3 times a day and trip me at least 1 a day.....

That's bad, but things like that happen sometimes, Like I said before, about me having mental scars, I already talked about them with one of the mods, through message, but if something like that happens to you Erica, just try to forget about it. Those who mind don't matter, those who matter don't mind.

thanks

Good advice :) Erica be careful who you date I wouldn't ever want anyone else to hurt you like that always remember that you have the power to tell them to stop and then just break up with the guy and always tell an adult if it gets bad

That's for sharing lia that's great advice

thank you Sydney

That's definitely great advice, Lia!

I heard about this from a friend on GR and I thought it might be helpful to share it, for anybody who self harms.

The Butterfly project:
THE RULES:
1. when you feel like you want to cut, take a marker or pen and draw a butterfly wherever the self-harm occurs.
2. name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better.
3. NO scrubbing the butterfly off.
4. if you cut before the butterfly is gone, it dies. if you don't cut, it lives.
5. if you have more than one, cutting kills them all.
6. another person may draw them on you. these butterflies are extra special. take good care of them.
7. even if you don’t cut, feel free to draw a butterfly anyways, to show your support.

The website: butterfly-project.tumblr.com

I heard about it. It's a nice thing to do by what I hear. :)

Me too. :)

im gunna start doing the butterfly project...thanks for posting about it!!!

You're welcome, I hope it helps!

That's sweet Lia!!

Although I'm almost always extremely happy, talkative, smiling, singing, laughing and doing things any happy teenage girl would do, I'm not so happy on the inside. I started cutting in January, and it hasn't stopped. I actually haven't cut in a week or so, but I'm constantly thinking about it and- I know this sounds horrible, but- I get mad at myself when I don't cut. Because it's become something of an accomplishment for me, now.. and its almost like I've turned my back on God, even though I know He can help me. It makes me so mad at myself....

I want a butterfly!

Have you tried turning to God in prayer?

@Alex, you could draw one :) I think I'm going to.

@Mercy, Same as Lia
@Lia, lol it looks fine

I'll just change my profile photo!

Aww, I want to have a butterfly! Um…how about I draw a butterfly pic and hang it on my wall? Because I know for sure my Mom would be weirded out by me drawing a butterfly on my arm and I don't want to change my profile pic.

I wills draw a butterfly to support any of you who want me to.

That sounds awesome Im in!

I used to do the butterfly project. It worked for a while but then it just kind of failed...
I think the most important thing to make it work is that you have butterflies on your wrist that stand for people who REALLY mean a lot to you and you to them and you know that. Otherwise you'll just end up saying "They don't care anyway" and "It doesn't really matter".
And just in case it helps any of you I can draw a butterfly for you. Anyway, I hope it works!

It sadly doesn't help everyone but for the few it helps ill do it!

Here is my butterfly.



Kinda lame...but it's a butterfly :)

It's cute :)

Thanks :)

Haha, I got compliments from people today saying they liked my "tattoo" XD