Nothing Beyond. discussion

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Luician unlocked the front door of his home and glanced back at Lea. "It's not much I guess but it's home." He half smiled as he stepped inside and turned on the lights. The home was cozy, filled with books and artistic paraphernalia. He waited for he to step inside before he closed the door.

Lea looked around with something akin to wonder. She went to one of the book cases that was filled with many books. She didn't turn around as she felt Lucian move closer to her, "Wow," she whispered as she let her fingers touch the spines.

He watched her anxiously, hoping she liked his home in some way. "Yeah...I read alot. Like I said, I don't get out much."

She smiled to herself, she feels so much right now that she feared for it for a moment. "Me too," she whispered since her voice was betraying how affected she was by being in his home.

He bit his lip. "Uh...would you like to go into the Living room? There's more books in there, lots of movies too if you wanted to look at them.

She let her hand fall down to her side and she turned to face him, "Sure..." She trailed off as she looked up at him.

He smiled nervously and held out a hand for her to take. "I'll show you where it is, of that's okay."

She slipped her hand with his without any word. At the moment she wanted to kiss him but she knows that she was going too fast so she settled for twining her fingers with his tightly.

He smiled slightly and led her down the hall and into the living room, it was a large space with a TV, couches, bookshelves and a fireplace."

She glanced around the living room with interest. It was built like a bachelor's pad but much homier than the ones she had seen of Hunter's and Jax'. "Nice place," she complimented.

He flushed and smiled slightly. "I'm glad you think so. You're one of the few to see it really..." He looked around as well, he loved it here. It was his sanctuary.

Lea nodded thoughtfully and she wished that she had a home like his. Back home in Oklahoma, it was pretty cold and bare and looking at the room right now around her made her want to belong for once. She sighed deeply.

"Do you want something to drink? Coffee, tea...juice?" He asked softly as he looked down at her

"Water would be great," she said as she looked up with a small smile.

He smiled and nodded. "Sure, I'll get you some."

She just nodded and when he turned back and left her to her own devices she couldn't help but sigh at how Lucian's life was so different from what she expected it to be.

He went into the kitchen and got her a glass of cold water from the dispenser on his fridge, bringing it back and giving it to her. "There you go."

Accepting the glass with not to steady hand she said, "Thanks." She took a sip and when some of the water spilled on her shirt she quickly apologized, wiping the circles away with quick pats of her hand.

"No need to apologize, I'll get you a towel to dry it properly," he said kindly as he disappeared down fe hall for a moment before returning with a small towel.

She looked at the water spots on the pristine white couch. Those spots was her and the couch was like all the people she have in her life. She was an outcast and even though she had Jax as a friend she still felt lonely. She felt a tear slid down her cheek and she wiped it quickly but not before she heard his steps a few feet towards her.

He handed her the towel with a gentle smile. "Don't worry about it, it happens to me all the time.

She couldn't trust her voice to betray the great emotion she was feeling so she nodded to him as she took the towel from his hands.

He watched her for a moment before sitting down on the edge of the couch. "Don't worry too much about getting the water out, it'll dry."

She nodded again this time. "It's not about the water, Luc." She whispered to him as she finally looked at him in the eye.

"What's wrong?" He asked her softly with a slight frown.

Lea shook her head and answered, "You won't understand."

"Please, try me. I'm a good listener. Really." He said softly, concerned.

Lea knows that Lucian was concerned for her but for some reason she wanted to lash out at his naive concept of life, "When I say you won't understand that means I don't trust you to not spread it by the day is over," she said in a bitter voice as her hands clenched on her lap.

He was silent for a moment before speaking again. "I have no one to spread anything to. I'm not exactly a....social person Lea. Look around, I hardly leave my home but I did today and I met you. That's the best thing to happen to me in a very long time. I'm not going to force you to tell me anything because that wouldn't be fair but it concerns me that you're so upset and if you ever do feel I may understand then ill be here." He told her softly.

Lea couldn't believe what she was hearing from a stranger. No one had ever admitted it that way but she needed to stay strong since she didn't want to get hurt yet again by a guy, friend or not. Steeling herself for what she is going to say, "I don't need you or anyone else for that matter," she whispered but she knows her words were only a bluff.

He nodded slightly. "If that's how you feel I am no one to decide for you, I won't get angry with you Lea, I'm not that sort of a person." He told her honestly, his time spent alone had shaped him into a completely person.

She was confused and at the same time angry that he was acting this way. He should have thrown her out of his house by now just like the others had done to her. "Are you martyr? Is that it?" She snarled the word 'martyr' like a curse.

"No, I'm not a Martyr, and I don't know why you'd think I was. Do you think it's punishment for me to spend time with you? Because it is really the opposite."

"It should be, you know," she whispered as the fight left her. It was no use he was not going anywhere and she wasn't sure if she should be relieve or not.

He reached over and touched her hand gently. "It's not and anyone who thinks it is isnt worth the breath it would take to tell them to get lost."

She flinched when his hand touch hers but she didn't move an inch since his warmth was welcome balm to her. She has no words for what he just said because she was so moved by it that all she can think of was being happy that she had met Lucian.

He stroked the back of her hand as he tried to comfort her. "Would you like to watch a movie of something?"

She nodded and smiled up at him. It was a wonderful thing that he somehow understood her from everyone else she had in her life, "I like horror."

He grinned. "Oh that's perfect." He got up and opened a cupboard, revealing a whole collection of Horror movies. "Take your pick."

She stood up and as she saw the movies in question her eyes widened. It was so many, she thought happily. She randomly took a movie from the sets and her hand came up with Drag Me to Hell. "This one," Lea said to Lucian with a small smile.

Lucian smiled and nodded, taking the DVD from her and putting it in the player, switching the TV on. "Want me cook some popcorn?"

"Nope," she said as she went back to the couch. Lea didn't like of the popcorn in her mouth and the smell was only the beginning of it.

"I have chocolate if you'd prefer that?" He asked as he moved away from the TV as the DVD loaded.

"I'm fine. I just want to watch the movie," she told him with a small grin.

He smiled slightly and nodded, sitting down properly. "Okay, sorry."

"Don't worry about it," she whispered as she slipped her hand with his. Giving it a light squeeze, "Let's start the movie."

He smiled slightly and squeezed her hand back, pressing okay on the movie and looking over at it.

She looked at their hands for a long time before dragging her attention back to the movie. This was all new and she hope it will last this time.