Suicide, a no go discussion

Why in the world would it happen to me twice? Am i seriously that bad? What made them do it?


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I was bullied 2 times. Once in 6th grade, by one of my classmates. His name is Armaan Soltani. He's in my grade. Also he does football. Enough about now though. Back then, in 6th grade, I don't know what the heck he was thinking but he bullied me. And he still hasn't said sorry. The only way I'm ever going to forget about it is if he says sorry.


The second time was in 9th grade. This time it was by one of my schoolmates, a sophomore. His name is Brenden Cote. He also does football. He's like 6'0 feet tall. 158 lbs. Something like that, anyways, don't need to be talking about that. My point is he bullied me, but then after the whole thing went over and was done with.......we waited months, ignoring one another, and then during Challenge day on Oct 29th, he actually decided to apologize. I actually accepted his apology. He's kool, though much different than I thought he'd be. I don't like telling people this, but I did think about suicide the first time I was bullied. I tried to make it seem like I was okay, but I thought about the worst things, cutting myself, suicide, bullying the other person back, ect.

Veranda Guillen (Oli) wrote: "Why in the world would it happen to me twice? Am i seriously that bad? What made them do it?


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I was bullied 2 times. Once in 6th grade, by one of my classmates. His name i..."

Hey, don't think of yourself as 'that bad' I'm sure you're not. It happens to other people as well not because they're bad but just because you might be different and the bully might not like that. I've been bullied more than twice and getting revenge on them isn't really the best thing you could do because it would only makes things worse. I'm glad that Brenden apologised for what he had done. Have you told an adult or someone else that you were bullied? Self harming doesn't help. I've done that and have been doing so for 5 years, it becomes an addiction and that isn't good. Looking at your scars don't help because they remind you of the reasons as to why you even began to cut yourself. Suicide is won't bring any good. You have so much to look forward to and but suicide you'll achieve none of that. People around you that care for you will miss you deeply I am sure and they would all wonder why you did. Please do not commit suicide. You said that Armaan still hasn't apologised for what he did and you will only forget it when he says sorry. Not very many bullies actually apologise to you, try forgiving him because forgiving him would put you at rest. Never get revenge, it only really makes things worse. Ignore bullies. That's the best way to go.

Hope this helps! Tell me how it goes please.