The Forgotten discussion

How long have you been clean? Keep staying strong.

I've been clean about one.

7 months in a little over a month.

About a month.
It's a forced clean, though.

When is it not? O.o?

No, I mean it isn't my choice, so I'm not strong or whatever. I'm just literally constantly monitored and not let near any sharps. -_-

Ooooooooh. And that's why the idea is to not get caught.

Yep, the initial plan was not to get caught, but unfortunately things don't really go my way all the time.

Oh same here. Clearly. With like everything. Expect this, so that's a plus I suppose. It'd be a one way ticket to the grave if I'd gotten caught.

One way ticket, given to you by whom?

Myself XD There was no way I was going to get caught and everything would be okay.

You think your parents would be mad?

Without a doubt.

Mad at you? For self-harming?
I used to think the same thing, that I would somehow get in trouble for it. But when my mother found out, she was mad at herself for putting me in a position that would drive me to do that. I guess it was her wake-up call that, hey, there's something seriously fucked up inside of me.

My mom gets mad at me when i cut.

Wait, seriously?

Last time she saw my cuts she just yelled at me and threatened to move my room upstairs.

And i was crying and she didn't care :')

Wow. That's just... Wow. I'm sorry you have to deal with that, Mei.

Thanks, Ayah ^^

Yea my parents wouldn't feel bad. They'd be mad. I'd just be a bad role model or something. They'd probably pull the "hypocrite Christian" card.

Yikes. >.<

Mhm, hence don't get caught.

Getting caught is no fun, no matter how 'understanding' your parents are. Don't get caught.

Yea probably.

Getting caught sucks ass

Ayah {My insides all turned to ash} wrote: "About a month.
It's a forced clean, though."

Lmao that was a fail
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ayah D:

what happened?

mei ; ᴛʜᴇ ɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴀʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴅ wrote: "Getting caught sucks ass"

From what went down with you, I'd say so yea.

Ayah {My insides all turned to ash} wrote: "Ayah {My insides all turned to ash} wrote: "About a month.
It's a forced clean, though."

Lmao that was a fail
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Aw

mei ; ᴛʜᴇ ɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴀʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴅ wrote: "what happened?"

Idek family

My mom was furious when she caught me...

I'm sorry Ayah. You can talk to me if things get rough.

I've been clean for approximately 4 or 5 hours now..

Aw :/

Yeah :( I'm disappointed.

I'm clean from choking for approximately five months.
Threw away my chain and everything.
And i'm trying to kick alcohol but I slip up a lot.

it's progress <3

mei ; ᴛʜᴇ ɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴀʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴅ wrote: "it's progress <3"

Thanks Mei. <3

mei ; ᴛʜᴇ ɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴀʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴅ wrote: "I'm sorry Ayah. You can talk to me if things get rough."

Thank you, Meiyu.