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That wasn't horrible that was a really good post! I mean I read that like three times straight.

The beach was calming for sure but it made her feel like sh didn't have to worry about her own worries, and just worry about being in the moment. Maybe that's why she always, came here ever since freshmen year. Then again he introduced it to her. It just made her question this whole relationship she had, going on with Leon. It was like a small fire but growing and growing inside her mind that, made her anxiety be worse in the moment then ever. But that's probably why she took drugs. Too soothe her worry. Too soothe every little worry or pain. Audrey was sitting on the sand next to Leon resting, her head casually against his shoulder. "Yes. Don't be hating as usual Leon. Come on I'm bringing my secret stash of alochol. Besides we both know how much you love a shot of gin, scotch, and vodka which felt potent at the beginning."The thought made her cringe a little. It was so dry but it felt good when it did burn her throat. Audrey didn't know why but she would later find out perhaps.

aha same here. I'm surprised I even made it that long. I give myself a pat on the back just for this simple task

Glancing up to see his chuckle made her smile somewhat. There's the old leon I remember and still love. I wonder though at times. She shook the thought out and just focused on what he said."Is that a awful comeback I hear?"She giggled softly feeling his nudge before she rested her head back on his shoulder once more. Audrey looked up slightly seeing him contemplating about the party, and Luke as well. She couldn't have blamed him seeing as Luke was, only a attention seeker. But then again both her and Leon hated people so that, was a plus in common and so was the fact they both hated attention seekers to be blunt. "Just too drop off a stash? Always looking at it from the dealers perspective. But I get it for free from with you. Just have to pay differently."Audrey gave a wink."I could get Jax if you want me to make him pay up for you? Otherwise drug him a lot?"Giving a innocent yet evil grin. Glancing up at the lighter with a roll of her eyes before making eye contact with him,"That's fine as long as we take all of his alochol first? Deal?"

Audrey got up alongside him and just stood there thinking about what he said. Trying to get her to AA meeting was impossible. He tried once when it got worse sophomore year; including her drug problem. But a addiction like that for her seemed like it would be with her, through thick and think. She even told herself she would go to these so called "meetings" but it never happened. Yes she had a alcohol infatuation including the same with weed. But her rebellious and curious side came out long before high school. Eighth grade per say. Maybe she did this because she wanted to get away from her parents always bickering 24/7 or how they, wanted her to do well like her brother Ryder. Then again Ryder was overall a...A+ student with being in Hockey and Lacrosse. Such a suck up is what she usually thought best of him. "You tried taking me there ever since freshmen year Leon. We both know I would never go back and try to be sober. Even if I tried you know I'm a fucking emotional addict. I told myself I'd try being clean from weed last year and I didn't last."She gave a quiet sigh raking her hand through her hair. Tonight was going so well with going to the party with Leon later but the mere mention of AA, meetings or the thought of her brother made it worse. Audrey was always so hard on herself and somewhat dramatic, then again that was a total lie in its own right. Glancing at the beer of can she cringed."That can? Ew. No of course I wouldn't. I go more for scotch, gin, all that wonderful stuff."She started to pick her vans up walking in the bare sand beside him.

What would happen if they, just became true friends without even considering, being involved with drugs? Would she still be this same addicted type of person? It was just thoughts like those, that ran through her mind. Would having one last smoke do her any good? Or would she say herself, "It's only one last smoke. Only one last drink." Audrey just scoffed at the mere words. Only one last smoke and only one last drink, made her go back to her old ways. Typical Audrey. She glanced slightly up at at the joint he had his, lips around which made her bite her lip trying, not to think of it. Putting on her shoes she tried to shrug the feeling of needing it away. Audrey licked her lips taking a sharp intake of air, Come on Auds you can do this! It's just one joint he has. Just don't go to the party. Just don't. Prove Leon wrong just by going back to his place. Just maybe her prep talk would make, her not think of the side effects, she was having lately. She told Jax she would come to the party but it felt like a lie. The shakes were showing. Her body was so addicted already it was pathetic. "How about we don't go to Luke's party okay? We just head back to his place. No party and no temptation. Besides this time I'm actually following through. Maybe a little help from you."She said softly.

"You don't have to tell me twice too know what you're thinking. Being our shared past. Our ups and downs. It's obvious Leon that we have a past for hating others and the shit they give to others, our what-if moments, and well more but that's besides the point. This time I actually truly downright mean it. Even if you a drug dealer and introduced all this to me."She spoke softly playing with her hair as a nervous habit. Always being so since they were in eighth grade. She and he both knew she hated long drawn out speeches or sob stories. It was pathetic but yet here she was being a total drama queen. Just like the rest of them. "Just for once actually hear me out. Don't be so stubborn where crying, and not showing emotion is for weaklings. Fine don't feel guilty. Don't feel any of that shit if that's what it takes but goddammit Leon just stand there and help. Not being a stranger in it's own. "Audrey spoke almost half-softly this time and the other half being defiant...walking over to him and glancing up at him,"Seriously though what are you trying to hide? What secret or secrets can you not tell me? Don't be so cold and hide it all in. But then again that's typical Leon."She whispered shaking her head.

I think I just got teary-eyed there. Been so long since I had so many feels for a rp post.

Maybe he was right. Then again maybe he was wrong. Her mouth always got the better of her whether she liked too admit it or not. Giving a quiet sigh with a hand through, her hair she wondered why they were truly friends. Felt more like acquitances then typical friends. But he did give her the first feel of thrill...being a taste of alcohol or smoking. They were both a lost cause. Of course she wouldn't admit that ever. Just the way he spoke and held himself together, truly meant he didn't want to have, anything to do with her at all. But he was struggling to also say, "Audrey I love you. Truly I do. Whether I like to admit it or not." She just looked at him slightly before, taking the helmet and strapping it onto her head before, reluctantly getting onto the harley, and having to wrap her arms around his waist. Audrey knew he hated this part; the part where she had to hold on but either hold on or die in the process of falling off. Biting her lip to keep her mouth was, probably the best thing in the moment.