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{A JOURNALISH THING BY AURRIE}


Can you hear me?
Can you hear my love for words,
a fountain when I speak?
Can you hear the self- imagined
greatness that I seek?
Did your ears pick up on
the midnights spent awake?
A pressure on on my brain,
thought flickering, indigo,
determined to create?
Tell me there's a melody in my smile
when my fingers run along a page's ink,
I know you see me reading,
but you cannot see me think
I find darkness fascinating,
Still I grasp onto the light,
Violet, streaks in the atmosphere
Sighing color into the night.
Are my purple whispers loud enough
to tell you what I love
I cannot sing, but can you hear
the song I'm thinking of?

OMG THAT WAS AMAAAAZING!!!! I write songs not poetry but u inspired a new song

STEVE, I LOVE YOUR JOURNAL SO MUCH!!!!!!

AURIE!!!!! That poem is amazing!

She needs a nickname better than Steve and she also needs to post in the introductions thread so I can give her a Maple welcome >:3

Hi again everyone! :p right now I'm sitting surrounded by eyeball shaped gum wrappers and listening to some Paramore (I'm currently salty because NEW ALBUM NOW). I go back to school next week, is anyone else in their last few days of summer?

I really need to expand my social horizons in the physical world. Being a introvert does not mean you should be a loner. And I can't keep telling myself that I'm too busy with my small personal universe to make friends.

Also, is there anyone here who watches Steven Universe, the most spectacular cartoon show one could obsess over? There is a new episode tonight, and also if you like the show please let me add you as a friend!!

I need some type of writing/reading goal to increase my speed and productivity, because I've got to admit I''ve been slacking a bit. Maybe it should be at least one poem and 50 pages a day? But what if I get stressed and start having to force myself? With books, I can either read inhumanely fast or take weeks to finish a book that I should have been able to finish in one or two days, had I been really focused.

Well, if you made it to the end of this post, thanks so much for reading it! If you have any suggestions for stuff to do in this thread, advice or comments, please feel free :3

❄️Ƙανу Ƒυℓℓвυѕтєя❄️~You'll never know the murderer sitting next to you You'll think, "How'd I get here, sitting next to you?~ wrote: "AURIE!!!!! That poem is amazing!"

Nicolina wrote: "OMG THAT WAS AMAAAAZING!!!! I write songs not poetry but u inspired a new song"

{Mapledream} I hate normal with a burning passion wrote: "STEVE, I LOVE YOUR JOURNAL SO MUCH!!!!!!"

YAAAY thanks guys for reading it! It means a lot to me and you all made my day :D

The last unicorn... <3 have you seen the movie that gif is from. Er mer gersh!! I LOVED it.

Aurelius wrote: "❄️Ƙανу Ƒυℓℓвυѕтєя❄️~You'll never know the murderer sitting next to you You'll think, "How'd I get here, sitting next to you?~ wrote: "AURIE!!!!! That poem is amazing!"

Nicolina wrote: "OMG THAT WA..."

AURIEEEEE

Anarchy wrote: "Seen all of it. Just finished it a few days ago. I love finding out how Ruby and Sapphire met!"

YAY another fan! And IKR The Answer was one of my favorite episodes!

❄️Ƙανу Ƒυℓℓвυѕтєя❄️~You'll never know the murderer sitting next to you You'll think, "How'd I get here, sitting next to you?~ wrote: "Aurelius wrote: "❄️Ƙανу Ƒυℓℓвυѕтєя❄️~You'll never know the murderer sitting next to you You'll think, "How'd I get here, sitting next to you?~ wrote: "AURIE!!!!! That poem is amazing!"

Nicolina wr..."

KAVYYYY BESTER THAN BESTEST BESTIE!!!! <3

Anarchy wrote: "I'm also in love with the episode where Garnet is singing and fighting. I love that song!"

Me too! That one's called Jailbreak, and I also really love all episodes with Connie in them. Connie's my favorite character because she's the most like me out of everyone in the show, she's also a book nerd AND a swordfighter like WHAAT??!

IKR instant friendship <3

Aurelius wrote: "❄️Ƙανу Ƒυℓℓвυѕтєя❄️~You'll never know the murderer sitting next to you You'll think, "How'd I get here, sitting next to you?~ wrote: "Aurelius wrote: "❄️Ƙανу Ƒυℓℓвυѕтєя❄️~You'll never know the murd..."

YESSSSS!

Oh my goodness, your poem is amazing!! You have serious talent, Aurrie :)

Here's a new song I wrote:
Do you remember,
when we'd make out in the backseat of your car
I told you to get your hands off me before things go to far
(You said, "whatever")
Told my best friend that you loved her
Stole her heart and then you left her

I never told her how,
I caught you making out behind the bleachers
With my chemistry teacher
(There was a lot of, um, chemistry?)
And then a day later you were mine again
Mine again

(Chorus)
Nearly bled to death in Tucson
'Cause I walked into your gramdma's house with shoes on
Looked around the world for you
(Jk it was just the USA)
When you left without a clue

And now I'm dreaming awake
Wasting away
When will you come home?
We made some stupid mistakes
But I know you feel the same
It's only a matter of time now

That's all my noggin has in store for y'all today.... To b continued

*the parentheses mean that u SAY the words not sing them

That's so good!!!

Bethany wrote: "That's so good!!!"

Thnx so much Beth! It's basically abt how they dance around their love for each other by flaunting relationships with other people...

Nicolina wrote: "Here's a new song I wrote:
Do you remember,
when we'd make out in the backseat of your car
I told you to get your hands off me before things go to far
(You said, "whatever")
Told my best friend th..."

WHOA! so good! do you play an instrument?? sing??

Petitcroissant wrote: "Oh my goodness, your poem is amazing!! You have serious talent, Aurrie :)"

Aww thanks :3

This is a poem from my paper journal:

GLASS SUBMARINE

In the depths of a prison
It's a glass submarine
Our field is the ocean
Murky black is our green
Our time's running out
But it's flooding in too
If there's an eternity
I'll spend it with you.
When air is only luxury
There's madness and greed
Get your hands off my throat
Because you're making me bleed
We're not searching for anything
But we don't know a home
So let's wait out the darkness
In this undersea dome.

GingerQueen~ Almost~Voldemorts~Twin wrote: "Nicolina wrote: "Here's a new song I wrote:
Do you remember,
when we'd make out in the backseat of your car
I told you to get your hands off me before things go to far
(You said, "whatever")
Told ..."

No I do not play an instrument but i played guitar for exactly one year...also I like to sing but my sisters tell me my voice sucks. I sing anyway ;)

And OMG aurrie that poem...if I had 67 thumbs id giv u 68 thumbs up

Nicolina wrote: "GingerQueen~ Almost~Voldemorts~Twin wrote: "Nicolina wrote: "Here's a new song I wrote:
Do you remember,
when we'd make out in the backseat of your car
I told you to get your hands off me before t..."

68?! Omg thanks you <3

If any of you guys would like to join my group Garden Society I'd be really happy, check it out if you're intrested in more crazy fun :)

Hi, guys! It's been a busy week with b2s and all, but I would never really abandon my squad so I'm back here with another poem <3

I dedicate this one to all the people who think too much (myself included). I'm kinda proud of this one so I want to enter it into a contest I've been thinking of joining. :D Well here it is:

RAINBOW STORM

Dip your head in freezing water
Let the numbness claim your skull
Wash the ashes from your thoughts
Join the kingdom of the dull

Thinkers are the haunted -cool, ice-
Night owls risk morning's sanity,
-bliss- scholars cripple their own souls
Stuck in their meaningless vanity.

Not you, though -freezing, stabbing-
The -gnawing- truth begins to form
Reflective crystals inside your mind
Colors bouncing freely, rainbow storm

Euphoria comes with loss of thought
Pain, a tiny side effect -biting, blasting-
You reach a peak and drown in dark
Close your eyes and cold everlasting.

✨✨✨

Hope you guys like it and wish me luck on the contest :) Also did anyone else listen to Bastille's new album?! Pure flame, it was so amazing! Lol see you soon <3

SO RETATABLE AND PERFECT!!!!!!!!

THANKS MAPLE!! That actually means the world and the stars around it to me, because I really look up to you because you're always so creative and funny and!! Also is my nickname still Steve? Because I'd like to be called Aurrie or Noodle if thats cool

hey noodle!
actually thats what my family calls one of my sisters.... I'm nots sure why tho...

Hi!! Should I call you Ginger?
I got that nickname from a some inside joke a while back that I don't really remember anymore XD also I'm kind of wimpy with noodly arms and legs. Also noodles are cool lol

*wipes the dust off this thread*
*coughs and chokes*

WELL HELLOOO THERE!
I can't believe I forgot this existed! I'm going to start using it again for little poems and bants and lame jokes again, sounds nice right? :3

I'm going to try to write at least one poem every day for the next month as a writing excersise, here's one I just finished:

Pale Rainbows

Light bounces off you so naturally
Casting pale rainbows on my skin
I used to battle for my secrets
As if you'd ever let me win.

But if you are like a mirror
Showing my reflection whole
Then how come I can see through you
Through the cracks within your soul?

Grief leaks through the tiny fractures
Dripping black onto my face
Behind that mirror you are melting
Suffering in empty space.

Tears slipping from those glass eyes
Reflect small pictures of myself
But I never could have caused you
As much pain as someone else

Believe me when I say we connect
But it's my job to observe not protect
If I break that mirror the shards will sting
So I won't be shattering anything...

Aurrie you should do some for the poetry group

OMG YES why didn't I think of that XD

Too bad the rainbow contest was just closed :(

Aurelius wrote: "OMG YES why didn't I think of that XD"

THEN MAKE YOUR OWN THREAD AND I WILL READ ALL YOUR POEMS

Hey I want to make a thread in the Garden Society group for my poems. Should I put it in the Library folder if that's alright?

Yeah that's actually a great idea :D

Ok thanks Aurrie!

A Cool LIFE Update:

whoops there's nothing to update because I don't have one LOL *BADUM TSSSS*

But srsly this weekend was so crusty because I spent literally hours straight doing this unreasonably long project about geography and maps or something, and my head hurts a bit and I just started thinking about my dead hamsters randomly and I want a cup of tea and and I broke my headphones (why is everything in my cramped little universe suddenly breaking, its like the only thing that's still intact is my soul, and even that's a stretch- HAH HAH GET IT CUZ I'M DEAD INSIDE)

But that's just me being melodramatic, in the grand scheme of things, like in the specific technicalities of existence, I am okay in the most literal sense... tommorow there is school and more saltiness and awkwardness but there will probably also be happy parts that are going to become those little memories that randomly flash across your mind and make you smile...

LIL MESSAGE FOR TODAY:

It's ok if your soul isn't entirely intact, because chances are everything around you is a little broken as well. Often beautiful doesn't mean functional- that's why we're not machines.

I just thought of that but ugh I'm having nighttime thoughts again XD So much journalish rambling AAAAHHH well see you later! <3

Hi (lol I'm saying hello to the void)

Goodreads is the last place I should be right now, because I have 2 exams TOMMOROW that I still have to study for, but I haven't been on GR for almost a week and I want it to be documented somewhere here that I still exist, even if no one really has the time to read all this spaced out drivel XD

Also I finally went to the library two days ago and I'm ready to start being an actual bookworm again rather than someone who just really likes books but doesnt actively read

Idk what else to say so I guess goodbye for now!! :3

HEY!!!
Guess what? In gym class today I was actually required to dance for 30 freaking minutes straight, which I know doesn't sound that bad but when you're forced to do it in a crowd of sweaty ppl all wearing matching clothes and you have no coordination... ugh! and not only was I exhausted, I also almost dislocated my neck from cringing :'(

Nothing else that interesting happened to me today, unless you want to read a paragraph of me writing about reading and writing... I could totally do that if you want XD

"You say you want to chase the moon like fire
Well, together we can fake our own deaths here
Just wanna be alone and watch as you all just disappear..."

-Floral and Fading, Peirce the Veil

Um see you around I guess ^-^

I guess you can call this a rant? A cry for help?
Maybe just a low, tired hum for help.

If anyone wants to talk and get to know each other better and become friends I'm here....

See I tend to do this thing where I always feel distant from everyone even though I know that any sort of relationship, including frendship, takes time and has to start with someone reaching out.... I just sit here and wonder why I feel so lonely instead of pushing to talk to people....

And I also have this problem where every time I see a something I like that I'm not a part of (in social situations) I get really sad and can't stop thinking about it and the loneliness just gets worse... I feel so bad complaining and I probably seem so whiny and babbly right now talking to myself...

I'm usually more positive and I actually had a pretty decent day.... I attempted editing, I drank tea, watched youtube, finished reading a graphic novel (Nimona), thought about how I'm in a constant pit of procrastination wasting my time doing nothing... made some good puns, the usual! ^-^

Why did I write so much jeez ._. Oh well... see you later if you're reading this for some reason which is really cool of you

When all of your flaws and all of my flaws are laid out one by one, a wonderful part of the mess that we made;
we pick ourselves undone.
-Bastille, Flaws

Pick your posion
Drink toxic waste
Scald your throat
Enjoy the taste

Swallow that pain
But maybe instead
Listen to the pleas
In the back of your head

Consume your death
But first be sure
For dying doesn't
Have a cure...

Sometimes I attempt to start a poem and end up with trash whoops XD

Dasha ~Made of bad materials, yet well put together~ wrote: "Aurelius wrote: "
Pick your posion
Drink toxic waste
Scald your throat
Enjoy the taste

Swallow that pain
But maybe instead
Listen to the pleas
In the back of your head

Consume your death
But fi..."

Thanks so much for liking it and for making me imagine someone whispering it to me right before I go to sleep :3

I keep finding myself back here XD

Is that even a good thing? But then again- is anything even a good thing? Maybe "good" just means "not spoiled milk" but it's not necessarily fulfilling and it's invisible to the rest of the world, and it may not be chunky and smelly but

good

is still a really empty word if you think about it.

"Aurrie, you're doing the thing again-"
Whoops sorry LOL

Anyways it's hard to be active here all the times (don't worry, summer's doming soon) so if anyone wants to message me and talk and be friends and experience human interaction (ikr who's that) I'm here, as always.

Hm. always

I wonder how many more empty words I can find. Does anyone want to count with me? :)

whoops almost forgot this was a thing lol
hi :)