A World Without Sun discussion

One bed. This is where guys come to breed with you.

Rae crossed her arms as she sat in the center of the bed, eyes narrowed. She was not happy about this. She had managed to avoid the system with her sister, Shea, but she had finally slipped up. And now she had to sit here and wait for a guy to bang her, or they would hurt Shea. She was determinedly in her normal clothing- tshirt, today it was Metallica, and black skinny jeans. Rae wasn't afraid of anything, usually, but being 'bred' for the first time terrified her. Not that she'd reveal that. But for her sister, Rae would do anything. So now she waited for a guy who was supposed to be here any minute now.

Kyle looked at the door nervously, his dad told him he had to do this or he couldn't go to university. He took a deep breath and knocked on the door before walking in. He waved awkwardly, "hi."

Rae's head snapped up and she glared at the guy who came in, hating him instantly. Some of her hate was driven by her fury, as usual, but fear played a big part. Rae was a girl who had never even had her first kiss, and now she was supposed to let this stranger bang her. She didn't speak, simply uncrossed her arms to drum her nails on her leg. She had no clue what to do, so she simply sat and waited for him.

He watched her, the tension in the room was thick, "I'm Kyle."

Hating how he acted as though they would be friends, Rae glared at this Kyle. "Rae." She snapped, her voice snarling. She used anger to bury her fear underneath, and it was not good for Kyle.

Kyle nodded and looked around, "you knew here?" He tried to make conversation. He wanted to stall as long as possible.

Rae bared her teeth uselessly. "Let's just get this over with so I can sleep." She growled. She shoved down her panic as she glared at him, knowing fear wouldnt help anything anyway. The fact that he had guessed her newness so early did not help her nerves.

He flinched, "I-I'm sorry. Did I hurt your feelings?"

Rae hopped off the bed and stood at the foot, staring at him. "Just get it over with." She repeated, her voice soft and much less angry as her fear surfaced a bit-- atleast enouh to cancel out her rage.

Kyle looked her face over, "I've never..." He'd never even talked to a girl before know, how was he suppose to do this!?

"Well join the club." Rae snapped, both sarcastically and with returning anger. She crossed her arms as she glared at him, waiting for him to make the first move. He was the guy.

Kyle gulped down his nervousness and stepped forward. He dipped his head down and kissed her gently.

Rae's whole body stiffened, and she stood perfectly still as he kissed her. He seemed to have experience with that, atleast. Rae, on the other hand, had never even gone that far. She tilted her head back slightly so she was looking up at him, but closed her eyes.

Her lips were soft, it surprised him a little. They had looked soft. He cupped her right cheek in his hand, and slowly started moving his lips.

Rae still didn't react. She didn't know what she was supposed to do here anyway, so for something to do, she simply uncrossed her arms and lowered them to her sides. It was only then she realized her fists were clenched hard enough her palms hurt from her nails stabbing them. With conscious effort she unfisted her hands, and allowed her eyes to close.

He pulled out of the kiss and blushed bright red, "happy?"

Rae blinked open her eyes as he pulled away and spoke, and she sighed slightly. "Well. We're one step closer to you leaving and me sleeping." she said in a business-like tone.

"I can leave now if you want," he stated. He didn't want to be in a place where he wasn't wanted. He got enough of that at home.

"What, and have my supervisor come down on my head like a stack of bricks and do what you're supposed to and me unable to do anything?" Rae snorted and shook her head, perching on the end of the bed. "Just stay." she sighed, sounding resigned.

He nodded, "I can go sit on the other side of the room until time is up.. If you want."

Rae bit her lip, an unusual show of vulnerability. Her first instinct was to jump at the offer, but she thought for a moment. Finally she shook her head reluctantly. "Not all guys are going to be so accommodating. And I really don't want the first to be one of the jack*sses."

Kyle watched her, "how do you know I'm not a jack*ss?"

Rae laughed briefly. "Trust me. A girl has instincts." she smirked up at him slightly, looking amused. "I mean, sure sometimes we'll slip up. But you? There's no way you're a jack*ss." she chuckled slightly. She was hating him less and less. But she was hating herself more and more.

He nodded and sat next to her. He took a deep breath, "should we just get this over with, then?" His voice was shaky and he felt sick with nervousness.

Rae tilted her head slightly as she turned to face him. "I think that'd be good for both of us, huh?" she chuckled humorlessly. She closed her eyes, resting her hands on her lap.

Kyle rubbed her back, "we can start slow," he insisted. He didn't want this going to fast for ether of them. He kissed her cheek.

"I could live with that." Rae chuckled mirthlessly. She opened her bright blue eyes and studied his face for a long moment, searching for something. After the long moment, she gave a brief nod, as if to herself, and closed her eyes again.

He watched her, his brown eyes grazing over her every inch. He leaned in and kissed her softly.

As before, the girl tensed as he kissed her and didn't respond. But after a brief mental berating, she hesitantly kissed him back, her nails digging into her palms.

He looked down at her hands as his lips sat on hers. He pulled away and took her hand, "Rae, you need to relax. I'm not going to hurt," he assured her, "I'm not going to make you do something you don't want to."

Rae flinched, yanking her hand back and folding both hands in her lap. "Maybe you're not. But in a place like this? Someone will eventually." ahe pointed out. She sighed and shook her head briefly after a long pause. "So relaxing is probably not gonna happen. As I've said- let's just do this and get it over with."

He frowned, he thought his first time would be better then this. He sighed heavily, he was scared. He looked away from her and shook his head, his black shaggy hair flowing as he moved.

Rae reached back and pulled her long black hair out of her ponytail, tossing the hair band onto the night stand. She stared at him for a moment, crossing her arms. Then she said something she never had before: "Please." it was a bit difficult for her to get the word out, but it was definitely sincere.

He looked at her and sighed, "promise not to hate me after?"

Rae bit her lip, but nodded. She knew by now, with the way he had acted, he wasn't looking forward to this anymore than her. She couldn't hate him for that.

He nodded and took a deep breath. He leaned in and kissed her again. He placed his hand on hers and gave it a light squeeze.

Rae closed her eyes as she felt his lips on hers, tensing yet again. But she squeezed his hand back lightly and forced herself to relax. She kissed him back, and her tense muscles loosened just a fraction.

Kyle moved slowly, leaving opening for her to pull away or say no. He deepened the kiss and slowly lied her down, his stomach twisting.

Heart pounding a mile a minute, Rae tensed farther as he laid her on her back, but she didn't fight like she wanted to. She knew much worse would happen eventually, with worse people, so she was silently grateful she had someone nice for her first. She sensed the opening he was giving her, but she didn't make any move to take it.

He inhaled deeply and slipped his tongue into hr mouth.

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Rae lunged for her clothes almost instantly. She didn't bother with the normal 'cool' tshirt and jeans this time though. She grabbed a sweatshirt and yanked it over her head, then a pair of sweatpants. She shuddered slightly as she lay back down on the bed, glancing over at Kyle.

Kyle didn't look at her, he felt sick. It wasn't because of her though. He was disgusted with himself. He had given in and done what his father wanted, "I'm sorry.."

Rae shrugged indifferently, closing her eyes. "Not your fault." She said quietly. "It would've happened for both of us eventually. Besides, I kind of made you." She laughed weakly.

He looked at her and caressed her cheek, feeling her soft skin, "I'm still sorry though."

Rae sighed. "Stop feeling sorry for yourself." She said firmly, crossing her arms over her chest as she stared up at the ceiling.

He nodded and rolled onto his side, not facing her.

Rolling her eyes slightly, Rae sighed. "Oh for gods sake!" she snapped. She had no pity. "Stop acting like you went through such a hardship. Sure, you may not have wanted to do it either. But for me it hurt like hell, so just stop." she growled, getting to her feet and crossin the room to a small bookshelf.

He flinched and looked at her frowning, "I didn't mean to upset you.. Or hurt you."

Turning to face him, Rae sighed as she crossed her arms. "I know, I know." she sighed, raking her long black hair from her face. "But it's kind of unavoidable no matter how hard you try. No pun intended."