A World Without Sun discussion

One bed. This is where guys come to breed with you.

(Do I post first?)

Shay wasn't just nervous. She was terrified. She hadn't been a Breeder for more than ten minutes and she was already sitting in her room, crosslegged on the bed as she waited for her first ever guy. She was dreading this. This was a girl who had never even been kissed, and now she had to let a complete stranger bang her.

Brent walked up to the outside of this poor girls door, time to do, maybe you can save this girl from being here to long. He opened up the door, she wasn't leaving any time soon. She must be 17 or something. He breathed in deeply and shrugged. "Ok, umm well.. I'm Brent. And I umm.. Don't have a clue what I'm supposed to do."

Shay glanced up sharply, biting her lip. "Shay." She said softly, looking downat her lap. She didn't have any more idea then h did. They had basically just shoved her in the room and told her to let the guys who came in do whatever they wanted. She nervously twisted a strand of her white blonde hair around her finger, hardly looking up at him. She had always been a shy person. But she despised this.

He tried not to read her thoughts, but couldn't help it
(night)

Shay thoughts were a mess. She missed her sister. She didn't want to do this. She was afraid of Brent, like she was of all guys but multiplied. She was doing her best not to break down crying. She glanced up at him for less then a second before staring at her hands again, waiting for him to make the first move.

"Umm...Well hello Shay, umm... it doesn't say we can't talk before we umm.... did it, I guess." He could tell she was afraid of him, why wouldn't sho be?

Glancing up at him again, Shay paled at the mention of what was to come. She shrugged slightly. "I'm not going to stop you." She said in her quiet voice. She shifted back farther on the bed. She already had enough room, but this was a clear, silent invitation. She looked over at the nightstand, away from him.

He nodded and sat down next to her, man he hated this. "I'm sorry." He whispered and pulled her heed towards him and kissed her.

*head

Shay froze up completely as she felt his lips on hers. She had no clue what to do now. She had always imagined her first kiss would be after her date had dropped her off at home, and he'd kiss her goodnight. She didn't want it to be on a bed with some stranger who was going to bang her right after. She blinked away the tears filling her eyes, her nails digging into a leg only covered with shorts. She didn't even blink at the tiny sting of pain.

He heard her thoughts and felt bad, she had no idea what to do and he was supposed to get her present, he felt sick. But didn't move, just pulled her closer to him. He pulled back, but kept his arms around her. Not sure what to say he just sighed. "I'm sorry that I have to ruin your life."

She shrugged and bit her lip. "Its already been ruined. Don't worry about that." She laughed humorlessly, looking down again. She still feared this Brent, but in an optimistic attempt she told herself that it definitely could have been a worse guy. Atleast he seemed to honestly feel bad about it.

*pregnant

"Well, I doubt this makes it any better. I guess I'm supposed to keep doing this." He pulled her lips to his again and pulled her even closer, feeling sick about what he had to do, and the energy made him want to do it.

She flinched as he pulled her closer until she was practically sitting in his lap. Closing her eyes, she tried her best not to think about it. But it was hard to not think with him kissing her. She opened her eyes again, parting her lips slightly. She had wanted to say something and hadn't really thought it through.

He pulled back away from her, still feeling sick. "I don't think I can do this without knowing you. " but I have to, if I want to leave this place.

Shay took instant advantage of him moving to slide away. She left him at the foot of the bed while she herself went to the head. "What do you want to know?" She asked him in her quiet voice, sounding suspicious.

"Who you are, people aren't meant to just do this by being told to. Why should I just come in here bang you up and leave? I'd I do bang you up, it should be because I love you."

Shay shrugged. "I'm shay. I'm 17." She offered to start. "I have one sister named rae." She glanced at the door with a slight sigh, wishing her older sibling was here to help her. "I have the same questions." She snorted slightly. "You make it sound like I want to be here." She sighed, looking down. "Wasn't exactly a volunteer thing."

"I know, well I'm Brenton and I probably have a sibling in here somewhere, first born." He shrugged.

"Rae's somewhere in this place." Shay chewed her lip, blinking hard. She glanced over at him and in an attempt to postpone The Event a little more, the shy girl tried to make conversation for once. "How old are you?"

"18, I've been here two years and tried to avoid this, but they need me to or whatever."

Shay laughed weakly, looking down at her hands. "I've been here for maybe a day." She admitted, chuckling mirthlessly.

"Ohhh... Dam it. Why did they tell me this room?" He hit himself and could sense she wasn't feeling any better about this.

Shay shrugged slightly and looked down, biting her lip. "Not like I have a choice." She pointed out. "You don't really either." She sighed slightly. She crossed her legs tighter under herself, sniffing a bit.

"Yeah I guess..." He shrugged and ran his fingers through his hair.

After a long moment of silence, Shay shook back her white-blonde hair. "Can.... can we just get it over with?" She asked plaintively, sounding scared and even younger than usual.

"Yeah,sure." He leaned closer to her, pulled her against him and kissed her. Running his hands through her hair and down her back,pulling her as close as possible,

(Pm?)

Shay closed her eyes and sucked in a deep breath through her nose. You can do this. She hesitantly kissed him back, her hands resting on his shoulders as she tilted her head to face him.

December wrote: "(Pm?)"

(Why not? :P)