it's personal discussion

Hello everyone and welcome to my life! I don't care if people comment on here for stuff I say.

So yesterday was a kind of boring day for me, but almost everyday has been until I found out about GoodReads this month. I am home schooled which really sucks. I hate it, i have no friends now and i don't have a gf or bf.

I like my life to certain terms. Shoot I live with my mom and step-dad. My dad only calls when I am in trouble or it's a special occasion, and yet I still love him.

Have you convinced your parents for state school?

I was in it, but they took me out cause i got in too much trouble there, which is bs

If they removed you they may have had a good reason for it. Who can you blame for that?

Them! I hate home school and they know it!

Is it really their fault? They might have a genuine reason. If people are causing trouble it affects others around them.

Apparently i was the trouble.

See were the opposites. I hate public schooling and want to be homeschooled. Wanna trade?

Yes please. lol

I think you need a professional help. What do you think?

got a professional helper for me?

Do you know what I mean by professional help?

yeah go to a professional who deals with this

You miss your friend. You are quite attached to your friend intimately. It seems like you are compacted and isolated from the outside world because you are home-schooled. It does seem like you have felt problems when you and your father have split up. It seems like you contact him which shows you still love him and you miss him. You might have doubts with your step-father. Are you wary of him? Also you have been removed from your school because according to you they apparently you were a trouble. But the schools have a right to send you off if you were a trouble. Are you aware of your moral actions?

The school didn't take me out my mom did. Also, me and my step-dad are good, mom? not so much. And yes I am attached to my friend intimately.

I can see. Has your mother put you in home-schooling before you met your stepfather or after?

You need to try hard resisting from intimate feeling for that friend of yours who you have left behind. There are more fishes in the sea.

My step-dad got in my life i think before i was in 1st grade. :(

Not for me unless someone wants to date me through this place :(( my life sucks

plus its not like im gonna be like "hey who wants to date me through GoodReads, huh. im free everyone!" im not gonna do that.

Were you in home-schooled during 1st grade?

I don't think you are trying hard enough to let go for intimate feeling.

Was this the reason why your mother put you in home-schooled? I think it was a rational decision because it would have gone a lot worse than how you feel now.

I think your desire might possibly freedom and your fear is boredom and loneliness.

No this is my first year of home school.
Well i think of her almost every other day.
No.
And I do have a fear of loneliness. I mean who wants to be lonely?

You need to stop yourself from thinking of this person. Well I can say you that some people prefer solitary.

Remember that you have friends here in Goodreads that can help you if you feel lonely. I think you don't have to suffocate yourself with loneliness forever. Reading books help with loneliness and let your mind set free. You should not think so much. Walk for a fresh air if you like. Have you had a chance to get to know your neighbours?

I don't really have any neighbors. And I need a friend and a lover, i might get friends. :(

Also try adjusting to the Home-schooled thing. Do you have someone who tutors you?

no

Well how do you do home-schooling if no one tutors you?

It's a website I have to go to and do school on it.

Is this your school website? Who has requested that you had to go to that website?

No, I just found this site. And my mom's sister suggested it.

You should ask your parents if you can get involved in activities. Tell them that you want to get into a Youth Group. Youth Groups is helpful in every way. You get to make friends. There should be one in your area. Why not tell them sooner or later. It won't hurt to ask. Youth Groups not only help your Social Needs but also you might get something that might be beneficial for you education.

Yeah right, they will never let me do something like that.

Have you even asked?

You have to be assertive and tell them that you are not taking no for an answer.

Hah, oh man you soooo need to meet my parents. Wow, im sorry but they arent like what you might think.

You haven't met mine. Just do ask them. Are they not in the same house you currently live in?

Yeah, but i actually have asked them if i could do something similar to that, i forgot what it was, but like always they said no.

According to US. You guys have got 4-H. Try researching the organisation. I think you might get something useful.

Sign up to 4-H. And explore the website. Try to get comfortable of it.

Sorry, but im good. thank for trying though, but i just wanna get friends here.

Plus im already not supposed to be on this site.

I don't think you are even trying. Don't say that you are because you are not. Sign up to 4-H now. Don't reject this opportunity because it is all online. You need to give it a try.

TJ wrote: "Plus im already not supposed to be on this site."

Well you think you might get away just being in this site. If you think you are able to be in this sight without being caught. It is no different in taking a risk by just simply signing up to 4-H.

You sound like my dad, i like that. But like i said i shouldn't even be on this site. Also, i wasn't going to say I was. There's no point in lying to someone who is trying to help you, but I just can't be helped.

Well you are in this site. I guess you are already doing something that you aren't supposed to do. It is rational that you sign up to 4-H. Ask your parent again about summer camps. And listen to their feedback.

As a friend I am helping you and I won't stop helping even you ask me not too.

Thanks Rumell, that means a lot.

Also there is no point choosing not to be helped for the problems you tell us. Because there is no point of it and it is just wasting time and energy both for you and others.

Well the only help i really need is to have friends to talk to.

That is exactly why I am telling you to join 4 H.

But why, i have people here.