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i made this because i wanted people to be able to talk and tell each other stuff ( whether it be funny or serious) and we'll listen and WILL NOT BE AN A$$HOLE to anyone

ive had a crush on the same guy since grade 8.... im now in grade 11 :(

hey guys i wrote this a few months ago and thought i may aswell share it. hopefully it will let people know what its like to be bullied.

My hands were clammy as I tried to pull away from her cold grip. She had my stained collar crumpled in her hand, causing my shirt to choke me as she pulled be backwards. My heart skipped a beat. Not again. Before I knew it she had slammed her manicured fist into the side of my head. I stumbled down the cold concrete stairs I was standing on, disorientated, and into the brick wall near the bottom. My mind was clouded and my freckled hands shaking as I stared back at her sneer my heart contracting as she turned and walked away. I stumbled towards my few friend as I cradled my arm, not quite healed from my last encounter with her. Why hadn't they stepped in? why hadn't they helped me?
I now know its because they weren't my true friends.

Close on twelve months later…

I admit I shouldn't have called her that but she doesn't have to react like this. Geeez. If your wondering, no this isn't the same girl. But when she approached me with her band of followers, my heart started skipping beats and my hands were shaking. No. no,no,no no not again! This is too much like last time! Please, heaven on earth please!!!! I'm frozen in place. Once she leaves I crumble down the wall and a few stray tears leave my eyes.
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yes this is a personel experience and yes it may be slightly over exagerated in some areas but please dont give negative feedback. i just wanted someone to know what its like

That's really good, Beecee! Whoa! :o

So... my confession is that I get obsessive and possessive over some things/people.
For instance there was my crush (later to be my boyfriend, then to turn to my ex) and I was super obsessed, so was like stalking him on Facebook and stuff. Liking all* his stuff. Talking to him, posting things in the hops he'd get it was for him.
But yeah. Also Benedict Cumberbatch, but I guess I can't be ashamed about that as I am, after all, a complete FanGirl.
So yeah. Don't hate me, guys! (;

*When I say all, I don't mean literally all, just quite a bit... some might have been from a while ago. Maybe say *cough*two years*cough* Totally wasn't me!

Laura wrote: "So... my confession is that I get obsessive and possessive over some things/people.
For instance there was my crush (later to be my boyfriend, then to turn to my ex) and I was super obsessed, so ..."

Haha I do the same! :D

Hala wrote: "Laura wrote: "So... my confession is that I get obsessive and possessive over some things/people.
For instance there was my crush (later to be my boyfriend, then to turn to my ex) and I was super..."

Haha! Thank goodness! I thought I was the only one. XD

my confession is that if you offer me anything to do with tigerss, timtams or white chocolate i would eat it all before you even finish the sentance!!!

Beecee ;) wrote: "my confession is that if you offer me anything to do with tigerss, timtams or white chocolate i would eat it all before you even finish the sentance!!!"

Timtams?

yes timtams if anyone does not kno what these choclate covered mini heavan are then i suggest you research them as they are TRUCKING FANTIBULIS!!!!!! im not even joking aye they are amazing!

Beecee ;) wrote: "my confession is that if you offer me anything to do with tigerss, timtams or white chocolate i would eat it all before you even finish the sentance!!!"

You eat tigers? :O

no! i love tigers i meant that i would steal it..... i need to start thinking before i type

Beecee ;) wrote: "no! i love tigers i meant that i would steal it..... i need to start thinking before i type"

Haha lol! I do it all the time. The number of people I've offended 'cause I haven't thought it out properly. -_-

bahahahahahahaha too true i mean you obvisouly didnt think before typing that jake was yours

Yes it is. and it will be over once you, Queen Payt, declare jake mine!

YOU created him so technically this is all your fault!!! ;) <3

Hm-hmph ooooooohhhhhhh i just had an idea!!!!!!!!

your comment gave me an idea!!

MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAH*cough cough eghh* HAHAHAHAHAHHA

Beecee ;) wrote: "bahahahahahahaha too true i mean you obvisouly didnt think before typing that jake was yours"

Oooh! BURN! no, I didn't think before 'saying' he was mine. He just is. We don't need to say it, he just IS.

Beecee ;) wrote: "YOU created him so technically this is all your fault!!! ;) <3"

TOTALLY!

Payton wrote: "Well, I say whoever created him is unnecessary in pairing him up with someone who will 'own' him. Especially since he's... Well, ya know.... Starts with a d and ends in ead.... ;)"

STHU! He is not! We already agreed you were reviving him for ME *cough*Beecee*cough* in exchange for not threatening you - which I haven't done.

BAHAHAHAHAHa you guys are insane!!

Beecee ;) wrote: "BAHAHAHAHAHa you guys are insane!!"

And you JUST noticed?! :P

true true! anywho! how was everyones weekend? i for one now have another lil nephew!!!! and i worked.... -,- guess which was more exciting

Awesome, congrats Beecee!
I did homework. And urm...homework. And slept a li'l. And - guess what! Did more homework. -_-
And now I got more, for both Spanish and History due tomorrow. Urgh!
You get WAY too much homework in year nine.

I have a confession. I am a total GEEK! Not a nerd, a geek! But hey, I'm proud of that fact. You can't get through life being a cheerleader. You might get those sports scholarships, but if you don't have the knowledge to back it, what's the point of college anyway?! :D

Beecee ;) wrote: "true true! anywho! how was everyones weekend? i for one now have another lil nephew!!!! and i worked.... -,- guess which was more exciting"

Pretty good. I went to this service at the cemetery adding new names to this shrine for men and women who have gotten some kind of award for service to the US. So I spent the day worshiping the navy, army, marine corps, merchant marines, air core, air force, coast guard, everyone. My great grandfather just passed away last year around Christmas time and he was in WWII and he was buried at that cemetery so we went and said hello to his grave.

Payton wrote: "That's so cool! Well... Er well sad but cool and stuff! I wish my family did cool things!"

Well, it was to honor all of the soldier's who either have or are serving. It wasn't super fun, but I was glad to be able to be there for the support. :)

Alexis wrote: "Payton wrote: "That's so cool! Well... Er well sad but cool and stuff! I wish my family did cool things!"

Well, it was to honor all of the soldier's who either have or are serving. It wasn't super..."

I mean to support them. That didn't sound right.

Payton wrote: "Hahahaha I got what you ment! ;)"

:) What did you do over the weekend? Anything fun?

ill take a look if you like payt

I already looked at it, and AWESOME!

Yeah! It's really good! I can't wait to hear more!

okay so no ones posted on this in a while and i thought hey why not!?

i suffer from depression (its not too bad lately) and self- harm. i am posting this because (no i dont want attention) i want us to be open with each other and its currently affecting me and i figured i owe youse an explanation if i start possting .... weird comments. so if any of you need a chat im here ive already helped two of my friends through gh hard times and im willing to help more.

Bee Wayland-Carstairs ;) wrote: "okay so no ones posted on this in a while and i thought hey why not!?

i suffer from depression (its not too bad lately) and self- harm. i am posting this because (no i dont want attention) i want ..."

*shnuggle hug* You can message me, yeah? Screw the time difference - or my phone is checked a lot more often now, if you want.
Love ya, Bee.
Stay strong, gorgeous. xxx

thanks guys you have no idea how much this means to me! you guys are amazing!*tries not to cry in class, ends up looking like theres a lash in my eye*

Bee Wayland-Carstairs ;) wrote: "okay so no ones posted on this in a while and i thought hey why not!?

i suffer from depression (its not too bad lately) and self- harm. i am posting this because (no i dont want attention) i want ..."

You're not alone, I'm going through the same, so if you want you can always message me (I'm on like 24/7). Keep going and stay strong. We're here for ya :)

Okkkkkkaaaaaaayyyyy here goes nuffin! this way more nerve racking than i thought itd be but ehh
I'm bi. as in bisexual although i lean more towards guys i don't care what gender they are if i fall in love i fall in love. but yeah please dont judge!!!!!!

thanks payt!!! you always back everyone up lol you deserve a medal!!

thats admirable! i myself am an athiest who believes there is something bigger than us just not one single entity

kinda not necessarily a god like figure , more of a larger form , i mean we could just be a kids science experiment for all we know and with how big space is.. it just freaks me out

maybe, maybe not, i believe that the earth goes round and the sun keepos shining, there are unexplained mysteries and miricles then there is completely explained miricles and mysteries that science has found, i just know that we are here and no other higher power makes itself known.
p.s i know im confusing

haha whew someone understands my ramblings!!! its a miriacle

hahahahahahaha

That's great Bee - and of course we're not gonna judge! I just think it's cool that you love for who they are. :)
Also, I love that you trust us enough to tell us. (:

Right, guys.
Forr any of you going through a tough time, with depression or anything, or een just a place to be yourself, you should join this group.
https://www.goodreads.com/group/show/...
I joined about 3 months ago, and I swear to God, it has helped so much.
There's stuff going on with me, too, and I hope you'll all forgive me that I'm not telling you all yet, but yeah. Someday I'll probably tell you. But, my journal has helped me more than anything, and I would strongly recommend for any of you - Torrin, Beecee, especially - that it might help.
But sure. Hope it helps. And you're not gonna kill me for suggesting it.

thanks laura! its great that you care enough to help us out :) and you can tell us whenever your ready

Bee Wayland-Carstairs ;) wrote: "thanks laura! its great that you care enough to help us out :) and you can tell us whenever your ready"

Haha, 'course! You're all my little family. Love yas! :P
And thanks :)

your mcwelcome!