it's personal discussion

Hi, welcome to my journal. I have mental health problems, and I’m a teenager, so there’s a lot going on in my head, and talking about it helps, but I don’t like talking to people about it, so this will be a way to clear my head.

commenting is allowed!

So I’m dating this girl for the 2nd time now. I really love her. For the time we were apart, it wasn’t good for my mental health at all. I got scarily bad again. Now that we’re back together, it’s getting better.

Hehe she brought me flowers (daffodils) this week. She’s so cute. Also, our school closes for the corona virus and as we went to the buses she kissed me (not on the lips, but it’s still the first time it’s happened).

Also yesterday my friend (S) hugged me and my other friend said “That’s not very corona friendly” and the first thing S thought to do was kiss me, so she leaned in but then said ‘Wait I can’t do that you have a girlfriend.”

I’m in school bowling but they cancelled it (started yesterday) because schools closed, and they all called us in to one of the coaches classrooms to tell us. My schools not very good, there are lots of terrible people that hate eachother, but with sports there’s something different. My coach teaches us that our sports teammates are our family, and every single person on every sports team that he coaches lives that out to our fullest. We are such closely knit, and we have to deal with a lot of junk that other schools don’t, we already have them beat in everything. That’s because we love eachother and nothing can even get close to compare to love. Anyways, during the time when they told us, people started crying (including the coach) I don’t usually cry in front of people, but if others start crying, my wall crumbles and a few tears fall. I’m gonna miss this school next year, even though I kinda hate it.

The same thing happened at my school. I'm not in any sports, but I do a lot with band and my state competition was canceled, too. Pretty crazy, huh?

Yeah it’s pretty weird, not going to school for 6 weeks. How long did yours shut down for?

Dang, mine shut down for 3 weeks and then we have spring break. That's crazy that your's is out for 6 whole weeks.

Yeah I don’t know why they shut down for so long

Mine is only shutting down for 2 weeks.

That’s what a lot of schools are doing, but mine was like nope

Dang XD

Completely redid my room yesterday! First time in my life my bed hasn’t been against the wall, and I know this doesn’t sound important, but it really scares me

well i found this journal again haha

so just ignore the comments above this...

anyways, i have a boyfriend now, and marching band camp starts next week! im excited but also nervous because neither one of my friends in band are going to be there. one of them isnt doing it at all, and another one of my friends will only be there at the end of camp because hes going on vacation.

band camp is actually super fun :)