Dead Hotel discussion

Yes, it’s normal. Sure, not everyone gets them but I do. So..yea call me crazy I don’t care,

Intrusive thoughts: “Intrusive thoughts are unwanted thoughts that can pop into our heads without warning, at any time. They're often repetitive – with the same kind of thought cropping up again and again – and they can be disturbing or even distressing.“

Welp, if you wanna share your intrusive thoughts, here’s your chance.

I don't wanna be alive anymore. That thought is just constantly in my head right now

Mmm, I understand.

Is there a specific reason why?

Being bullied

Oh.

You can't ask your parents to move you to a different school?
Maybe you can talk to the principal or student counselor about it?

I know it's probably a hard decision for you just because you don't want to make matters worse.

Won't transfer and school doesn't do crap. I also don't wanna be known as a snitch so my ass won't be beat

So... you rather get bullied than just be known as a snitch to a few people in your school, who shouldn't mean shit to your life.

I know, I can't say anything because I'm not in your position. I understand. I just think, if you can do something about it, to stop it, you should. It's just my opinion anyways.

If I were with you, I'd try to fight back but I'd probably end up also taking the beating with you lol. Are the people that are bullying you older than you?

My grade. Almost bitchslapped one today that made me think like that. If they come up to me tomorrow hands are being thrown

I hope you hit them hard.

You can pretend that you're about to hit them in one place and then hit them somewhere else instead. Idk, just be prepared ig.

I was also in the psych ward with one of them. They are all in the LGBTQ makes me hate the community

Oh really?

Not everyone is bad like that...

I know but the majority I have met has been like that.

Mmm, welp, I'm not like that, that's for sure haha...

I hope you find better people in your life.

I am trying tbh but you seem amazing

:) You seem like a great person too.

But, for your bullies...I hope you kick their ass so you can teach them a lesson.

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Me like 24/7 feel ya. Who's the person I will hold that person down

whosjax wrote: "ever just want to rip someone’s eyes out w a spoon and fork cuz rn i want to"

🤔no
I get second hand pain.

(view spoiler)[ Idk why but today I was think abt all the ways I could die and I was thinking about which one would hurt more. I’d say being smushed or getting pierced with something would be the top(From the ones I thought of) *shurgs* (hide spoiler)]

damn dark I like it

do you ever see someone you hate and you wanna ruin the mentally until the off themselves

Mm… not exactly. I’m to soft shelled to think that.

They must of hurt you real bad :/

Death :/

:/

Sorry you have to deal with that.

meh its natural

Oh ya I get those a lot

Do you ever wanna just kill yourself because your in so much pain and nothing touches it anymore and you wanna be out of your misery. No just me got it

*chills run down my spine

used to

*plops down on the floor
You wanna talk about it?

sure ig

I have severe pain in my whole body and sometimes mentally. I was in severe fucking pain today and now my knee is swollen. I am too scared to walk due to my knees locking with this before.

Btw I cant barely walk on that leg without extreme pain

Also I can barely even move it without wanna cry in pain

You can’t go to the doctors or something? If you can’t, you should take some medicine to help ease the pain. How’d you hurt yourself?
(Btw: Srry for the late response)

I didn't hurt myself its something genetic. The doctors won't answer my mom back and the hospitals won't do shit. I hate taking pain meds but I will at times

(your okay dw)

Oh, that sucks. I hope you feel better.

Can’t you get crutches or something just so you’re not putting pressure on it?

*sighs* smh, yea, doctors don’t help much.

I can't because of my wrist but I am okay

Oh… :|

How to stop being numb 101

or just me???

my partner is the sweetest guy on freaking earth. And I really like him. But I have these numb spells and randomly cant feel shit like for no one and i dont think its healthy for the relationship... Am i Toxic.

Jasmine... wrote: "my partner is the sweetest guy on freaking earth. And I really like him. But I have these numb spells and randomly cant feel shit like for no one and i dont think its healthy for the relationship....."

NO UR NOT TOXIC!
its just u cant feel anything at certain times its not being toxic and plus u cant help the numb spells so no its not toxic

Jasmine... wrote: "my partner is the sweetest guy on freaking earth. And I really like him. But I have these numb spells and randomly cant feel shit like for no one and i dont think its healthy for the relationship....."

Like Moon said. You’re not toxic. You’re probably just going through some thing’s, that’s maybe the reason why you’re using the spells?. You can’t blame yourself.

Jasmine... wrote: "my partner is the sweetest guy on freaking earth. And I really like him. But I have these numb spells and randomly cant feel shit like for no one and i dont think its healthy for the relationship....."

Far from toxic. I am more so toxic in those because I cut people off

thanks

I sometimes get hungry… or maybe it’s dehydration

I want to eat everything, not food wise just, everything, I sometimes just wanna bite into a bunch of plants and see how it’d taste or even eat some paper. *shrugs* random stuff

Mine is how big of a knife will I need to stab through someones heart. How sharp of a pencil do I need to get it in there brain from their eyeball

I think depression really changes you honestly. Like, I mean, I think I’m over depression, I’m pretty sure I am. At least, I convinced myself I am.

Anyways, it changes you, like randomly I think about like the many way I could possibly kill myself, and I haven’t and I just think it’s so funny bc they were always right in-front of my face.

I just never really truly wanted to kill myself. This is more of a vent huh?