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I’m moving in a couple weeks, and I really don’t want to. It’s only 20 mins away from where we are now, but I love this house. And I’m stressed about a test I have to take for a high school I just got into

I understand. I moved through a lot of houses and it sucked, but it made me meet amazing people, so looking back, I'm glad I moved.

My life is miserable I recently lost my dad ,grandma ,and aunt and I feel like I'm dealing with my grief alone sometimes.

I'm so sorry for your loss, It is impossible to understand the feeling of losing a relative. I lost my mother a few years ago, a feeling that cannot be explained. It's hard but in the end they would want us to be happy. If you ever feel like you want to talk about it with someone feel free to send me a message.♡

people get mad when i clap back when they are the ones to be insensitive first ,like that not how things work if you say something rude out of nowhere ima me ruder because that was uncalled for

1. Boys harassing me at school, knowing it'll make me uncomfortable and get a reaction out of me
2. I pour my heart and soul out into musical theatre and sometimes I just want someone who's watching to tell me they appreciate me
3. I lowkey hate people currently

Kheara wrote: "people get mad when i clap back when they are the ones to be insensitive first ,like that not how things work if you say something rude out of nowhere ima me ruder because that was uncalled for"

100% agree! I am absolutely honest and will not stand down when someone is insensitive. you're not the only one trying to defend yourself <3

Living overseas for a while now is tough sometimes. I've lost contact with old friends, my family doesn't talk to me as much anymore and It's difficult to make friends. It is lonely at times, but I'm grateful for the experience.

Ok so we live in a house that needs renovation. The house has good bones, but there's a lot of upkeep associated with it (termites, foundation problems, etc). Whenever my family brings up these problems, my dad, a 'handyman', says, 'I'll fix it'. He's said this about a hundred times to a hundred different projects, but he's never home due to work. It's now to the point where we can't use the front porch because it's filled with rotten wood and he's taken so long on the bathrooms that we have four people trying to share a little closet bathroom upstairs. It's exhausting as it is infuriating.

Like, at this point, I don't care if we have a hundred contractors raid the house in a day, I just want a house that doesn't have trash from previous projects.

ugh I would hate that 😭😭 i'm truly sorry

Ryann wrote: "Living overseas for a while now is tough sometimes. I've lost contact with old friends, my family doesn't talk to me as much anymore and It's difficult to make friends. It is lonely at times, but I..."

I know how that feels, but don't worry you will make new friends soon

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Can relate. people actually suck and ruin your life sometimes. I'm always here to chat if you need.

◦•●◉✿Alina✿◉●•◦ wrote: "I am going through so much. 2 dats before my friend broke our friendship, I had done soo much for her, made so many sacrifices for her always been there for her and countless other things and I was..."

i can relate tbh.. i have this friend who i have known for 10 EFFING YEARS and ever since covid ended, idk..we've had this drift btwn us.. i feel it but i can't talk to her abt it. like she literally stopped using skype, which we used to talk on. i get ig so that i can talk to her but then WE HARDLY TALK!! i planned to go for so many movies w/ her and she doesn't see the msg at all. sleepovers? i tried. she said- omgg didnt ask my mom yet! she said that for THE WHOLE WEEK till 19th april was over and she didnt even acknowledge

everyone knows the two of us as this inseperable duo.. like she's practically a family friend.. but idk every time i think i should stop pining like this, she does smth like get me a rlly good bday gift, and i end up forgiving her. i give up.

had a friend last year who I didn't realize was crazy toxic. Threw out death threats and told me she'd tell my secrets for no reason at all. It's like we were inseperable, and the next day she wanted to actually kill me. I was so scared I couldn't go out in public without having a panic attack or throwing up from fear. I could hardly tell anyone, because the secrets I had couldn't be shared, and it seemed like everyone I told sided with her, as she was super manipulative and scary.

She had all this power that made you feel invincible just being around her. I didn't realize how intoxicating it was and how many people she was hurting. I guess I found out when I turned into the victim. One of the worst parts was my closest friends kept betraying me to side with this girl who I was so deathly afraid of I was considering suicide. It was the worst time of my life. Living in absolute fear that I was going to lose my life to my old best friend was petrifying.

It's been a year. I'm okay now. Definitely not the same. I can't hear her name without throwing up or getting a stomachache. She lives in the same spot still, but transferred to a military school. I've been hearing she's coming back and I don't know what to do. i'm glad yall are strangers because it feels good to tell people who aren't entangled in it.

@Berkley sorry for cussing, but what the actual fuck? i am SO SORRY that happened to you. i've received death threats before and it is definitely NOT a fun thing. you should cut off every single person in your life (if you can) who sided with her, because it doesn't matter if she is manipulating a real friend would be with you no matter what. i think you might have felt trapped because you couldn't tell a lot of ppl what was going on because your secrets couldn't be shared. i'm actually incredibly sorry that you had to go through this because NOBODY deserves to go through that kind of stuff let alone your own best friend legit giving you death threats.

sooo time to rant.

i lost my best friend last september. i've had a lot of 'best friends' but she was the only true person i'd do anything for. i was VERY attached to her and would get like panicy and upset if i didn't talk to her ALL THE TIME. like i was literally freaking out if she wouldn't have texted me back in 2 hrs. i absolutely loved her with everything i had and it was like as long as i had her i didn't need any other friends because she was my everything. i had an unhealthy obsession/attachment with her. i would take it out on her when she didn't answer my texts. one time she didn't answer me for 2 days and i was texting her so much and we got into a fight before that and i would apologize a hundred times even if it was her fault. i always believed everything was my fault because i've always been told that. we got into a bunch of fights in summer of last year, because she was suddenly distant and when i asked her if she even wanted to be my friend or best friend she would either say idk or sure. idk she was the person i needed more than anyone so it was hell when she was slowly leaving and sometimes its still so hard. im also introverted because i have social anxiety and i was extremely jealous when she made new friends because ig a part of me thought she would drop me because she would realize how messed up i was or i wasnt good enough for her.

me and her were both in bad states when we became friends and one day she told me she was happy and i didn't believe her due to things she has told me in the past.

one day i got into a fight with an other friend and i told her abt it and i was like i dont feel good enough i always try and be happy and i never can. anyways a bit later in a gc with me her and a mutual friend she kinda made fun of me and was like dude your literally sad all the time and was like laughing about it. i was kinda like dude just because your happy doesn't mean you can make fun of my sadness when i literally told you i hate ppl doing that.

i obviously didn't say that cause i didnt wanna upset her. in september of last year is when the big thing happened. she never really told me what i did besides i got the memo i was a bad friend and she said she was better off without me. she stopped answering my texts. i was in a very deep dark place for a long time because she was the only person i thought i would ever need and she was slowly leaving me until she did.

i hated myself for a long time and i was like well guess i'm just not good enough. im obviously better now but sometimes i think how i havent talked to her since october and i freak out.

i confided in her and told her stuff i haven't ever told anyone. she told me stuff too and even tho we aren't friends i havent told any of her secrets because i want her to trust me and i feel like thats stupid cause we don't even talk.

i feel like she was my other half and i lost the one person i couldn't live without and sometimes it's still really hard when ppl constantly tell you you don't deserve to be trusted, to have friends, and i'll never have a bf and its worse when you know its true.

@Lily- you definitely had a very unhealthy attachment to her where it seems like it was like a relationship rather than a friendship. This whole thing just seemed like a lot on her behalf. I have been in the same situation where the other person would do what you did.

First of all you ARE good enough, you are absolutely perfect!! I think people just put their all into friendships more than others and it can be drinking for both parties involved. I think it is a good thing that you guys are no longer friend at this very moment. It seems that you have grown very very very attached to this girl where it has become very unhealthy. Especially if you’re freaking out she hasn’t messaged you back right away. My boyfriend gets upset when I don’t respond back to him right away and will freak out! It’s very unhealthy!!

Some people are meant to be friends and some aren’t. Some just need that break and then they will become friends again as if nothing has happened! People need breaks from others, it’s completely normal! Just continue doing you and who knows, maybe you guys will become friends again! When you do, just remember that it’s okay if someone doesn’t respond to you RIGHT away! (:

@lilly - Honestly feel an attachment to you, girl. I feel like I can relate, because people fucking suck (sorry for the swearing). Nobody should have to go through that. It hurts like hell. I love you girl

I lost all of my friends except my best friend but she might move I am sick and tired of people using me for their work or homework or just asking me to do their work just because I'm the smart kid I am joining high school in less than 3 months and I'm going to summer school I have cheer Avid Ap Human Geo and Volleyball to worry about and I'm only 14 the only good thing in my life is my family and books.

Hey so this is something I’ve been dealing with for a long time. And you guys get the pleasure of hearing it first.

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I have very homophobic and misogynist parents. And this morning my mom said that all the women who’d rather be with a bear rather than a man in the woods are stupid, completely missing the point that women would feel safer with a bear because they see all the horrors men can commit to women. It’s just so aggravating to live underneath a household that is so ignorant and hurtful, especially to someone who is a part of the LGBTQ community.

im tired of being body shamed. I was born on the heavier side, because of the way my body is shaped. i get called fat everyday by my sister. she will just randomly come up to me and tell me im *insert fat person here* or tell me im going be like *insert fat person here* if i keep eating. and in school there’s some super disrespectful guys who call me fat for no reason. I never did anything to them but they always body shame me. they people i love tell me im fine (bc I am im honest skinny compared to a lot of people i know)and that im not fat but it’s hard to believe them when people tell me otherwise. I know it shouldn’t bother me but it does, im tired of being fat shamed bc im curvy. that doesn’t make me fat 😭

From another curvy girl, I totally understand. I make myself sweat buckets everyday by wearing pants and sweatshirts to cover up and also my brother makes a lot of fat jokes to me as well. I’ve tried fasting, sucking in, and over-exercising, you name it and it never worked. But after looking at other curvy women and seeing how there’s a lot of people out there that love curves, it gave me a lot of confidence (I’m even starting to wear shorts now!). The thing is, being skinny and being curvy are both beautiful and it’s be a disservice to humanity if we saw beauty in one and not the other. Embracing yourself is not a crime, so you shouldn’t let people make you believe it to be.

thank you😭

Ofc! If you ever need to talk, my mailbox is always open!

Koelkat wrote: "Hey so this is something I’ve been dealing with for a long time. And you guys get the pleasure of hearing it first.

*ahem*

I have very homophobic and misogynist parents. And this morning my mom..."

That makes me so mad! I'm so sorry you have to deal with that. It's super frustrating when people constantly bash on the LGBTQ community! It's so insensitive! People love who they love and feel comfortable with what they feel comfortable with. That should be okay! I'm so sorry @Koelkat, and I'm always free to chat. <3

Do they know you're part of the community? I'd love to chat, bae

Thank you so much for understanding! I’d love to chat! I’m from a very small town in the Deep South so I always love finding my people (which is also why I haven’t told my parents yet).

OML real!

Really need to vent... I love my job but now they want me to be basically a recruiter, I've started this job as an assistant, than admin, then admin with HR responsibilities, now they want me to do HR with recruiting responsibilities but pay doesn't want to change. I love my hours, the team, employees and even have great benefits but the pay sucks and I definitely don't want to be a recruiter. Beyond frustrated.

Koelkat wrote: "Hey so this is something I’ve been dealing with for a long time. And you guys get the pleasure of hearing it first.

*ahem*

I have very homophobic and misogynist parents. And this morning my mom..." I'm sorry you have to deal with that, that is sad. I don't get the whole being close minded thing. I am not a perfect parent but I'm glad my daughters feel comfortable when they talk to me. I always say my kids have taught me as much about life as I have taught them. When my oldest decided that she wasn't Christian or any religious, whatever you want to call it I only asked her why and still supported her. And when people talked crap saying I was a bad parent because I should of grounded her and made her believe I responded with you can't make anyone believe if anything that just pushes them away. As parents I've learned you should guide not rule with an iron fist, I mean sure have some kind of balance but having an open mind should be a given as a parent. sorry i just rambled but I hope that makes sense.

Thank you so much for replying Red! Being in a very isolating situation, it's good to know that I'm not alone. It's very strange because my mom doesn't believe in strict parenting, but she's not afraid to insult people who have differences in beliefs and opinions. I am not religious as well but if I ever told her that I'd probably be treated like other children: scolded and punished. -sigh- its a thin tiperope to walk!

Koelkat wrote: "Thank you so much for replying Red! Being in a very isolating situation, it's good to know that I'm not alone. It's very strange because my mom doesn't believe in strict parenting, but she's not af..."

I get it. sorry that you have to deal with that.

I need to rant!!!

My crush is soo blind... I get him his binder, springboard, and phone during 2nd period... and he does not even notice, although he does say thx.... but does not even care.. he has been looking my direction a little more lately. But I have had a crush on him for over 2 yrs!!!! Like he does not ever take a hint... but I am still a hopeless romantic... this Junior named Conner was talking to me... he asked me what grade I thought he was in, so I guessed and I said, Junior, Senor, Sophomore, then he said none of them and that he was a ''freshman'' I'm like plz... I know that u r not... u r so tall around 6ft... but IDK... I was thinking that he might have been flirting with me? But I am soo bad at love... so now I am extra confused... and with Homecoming in 2 weeks... my brother's friends want to go with me... and I don't even know them... and with the whole AP thing I want him to ask me but I am almost certain that he wont... but IDK if Conner will ask me... AND CAN SOMEONE PLZ MAKE SENSE OF THE ENTIRE THING AND TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON!!!!!!!! PLZ TELL ME!!!! And hope that this will unfold with AP...

Thx for listening

As23 wrote: "I need to rant!!!

My crush is soo blind... I get him his binder, springboard, and phone during 2nd period... and he does not even notice, although he does say thx.... but does not even care.. he h..."

Oh yeah, hints... boys don't get them at all (no offense). I am a pretty introverted and shy person, but also a really romantic one. Over time, I’ve learned to be much more direct with my hints (which essentially aren't hints at this point, lol). In fact, I've even made the first move a few times. Sure, I've faced some rejections, but I've also had some successes. I only did that with my ultimate crushes, you know, because I got tired of living with those eternal "what ifs." To me, rejection is just redirection. It's better to give it a shot than to be stuck wondering "what if?"

If I were in your shoes and had liked a boy for two years, I would just ask him if he wanted to go out with me (homecoming in this case). The worst-case scenario is he says no, but at least you would have an answer. The best case? He says yes! If you wait, maybe he'll ask you out eventually, but there's also a chance you'll end up without any answer and stuck with those "what ifs" (which, in my opinion, is worse than a no). And if he says no, you can always go out with your brother's friends. :)

Honestly, after making the first move a few times, I've realized how nerve-wracking it is for boys (or anyone, really) to make the first move—especially if he’s younger than you!

First of all, don't go with someone you don't want just because he asked you.
And about your crush if he doesn't show interest, maybe you should try to get over him and forget about him. I know it's hard but it might be worth a try

vivie♡ {semi~hiatus} wrote: "im tired of being body shamed. I was born on the heavier side, because of the way my body is shaped. i get called fat everyday by my sister. she will just randomly come up to me and tell me im *ins..."


Usually, people who make those comments are really, really, really insecure with themselves (and I insist on that)! If a person is happy with who they are and their life, they wouldn't be making these comments. I know that some girls (like your sister, in this case) body shame other girls because they are so jealous of their curves! For me, as long as you're happy with your body and you're healthy, you're all good!

Here's a story from my senior year of high school. There was a girl in my class who was super bubbly, chatty, and just fun to be around. She was curvy but more on the heavier side (she had some health issues at one point and had been in a really bad relationship). Did she have the biggest b*obs and *ss? Yes! Were some girls jealous? Also yes! But she didn't "fit" these ridiculous beauty standards where women have to be as thin as a leaf and still have massive curves (which, let's be honest, are mostly unrealistic naturally).

So, suddenly, one of the guys in our class started giving her dirty looks and making comments about her appearance. It was so weird because they used to be quite close. Each day, it was getting worse and worse. Since I was in the same group as this girl, we, of course, asked her what was going on because his behavior was so off. Then, one day, our teacher left the class, and they basically got into an "almost" fight. She told the whole class, "Oh, you didn't mind my curves when we did the deed." It turned out he was mean to her because he didn't want to admit that he liked her. There were only five girls in our class (including her and me), and we all called out the guy. The whole situation was crazy.

The main thing I want you to remember is that as long as you love your body, it doesn't matter what others think! Their comments just show how insecure they are if they need to bring other people down to boost their own confidence.

☆Shira☆ wrote: "First of all, don't go with someone you don't want just because he asked you.
And about your crush if he doesn't show interest, maybe you should try to get over him and forget about him. I know it'..."

thx.... but... I still like Ap... and he is awsome

Okay just need to rant right now (Church Version)

So My best friend and I have been friends for 5 years we met when I was 9 and she was 7 right now I am 14 and she is 12 so we met because we go to this church and our parents are in this group that like helps around the church etc. so anyways we met that way and there is this other girl back then she was very introverted barely talked to anyone but then she became close with my best friend (before some people get angry I will never force my friends into or out of a friendship there have been many situations for me where some of my toxic friends would force me out of a friendship because they have beef with the person and I will never do that to any of my friends because I have lost many friends myself because of those people and also because I have beef with that person, not my friends and that is my issues something I will never burden with my friends with that)

Anyways so yeah let's continue so they started hanging out and then she also started hanging out with me too and we were a trio but I always felt like there was a duo in the trio and sadly I wasn't in the duo I was left out I also knew (Btw this girl is 17) every time the girl came out of school she went to my best friends house since her house was across the school so she went and I could never be with them since I live I 30 minutes away from them so even if I wanted to go I couldn't because I live kinda far but anyways I never felt left out until recently where ever this girl went my best friend went and me looking like a lost puppy following them and sometimes I felt when they were talking I couldn't talk because I didn't know what they were talking about and I felt like I was chasing for their attention and my mama always tell me to never chase people EVER so I did what she said I stopped hanging out with them.

At first, they didn't notice but I started hanging out with this other girl who has been my friend for 2 years she also stopped hanging out with the girl and me but then I started to approach her and now I hang out with her more than my other friend but anyways on Wednesday my best friend went up to my friend and asked if I'm mad at her and my friend bless her soul said "I don't know if she is and if she is I don't know why" even though I did tell her why but then she told me what happened and I was like oh okay and then on Sunday I went to downtown Los Angeles and she also went because the church group went to get their suits and she was there but then her LITTLE BROTHER came to tell me she wants to talk to me look if she came up to me saying she wants to talk I would have but it was her little brother and look call me petty all you want by why send your little brother to come to tell me YOU want to talk to me.

I just didn't go to her instead I walked around buying myself things and this time I came home with a lot of money left because the last time we went she spent almost 100 dollars and never repaid me just maybe 30-50 dollars so this time I still have my money but she hasn't talked to me since and honestly I'm more happier then I was.


Would I repair the friendship? Yes, I would if we both talked I told her younger brother cause she didn't want to talk to me that if she ever wants to talk we can but I don't know if she would do it but now I am happier and sure she was my best friend and I do love her I will never do anything to hurt her and I will never tell anyone her secrets because she had trust in me I don't want her to think that just because she stops being friends with someone it's okay to let them tell their secrets I have been in the situation many times and it hurts and I never want her to experience that.

But I will tell you, guys, something I think she tried to make me jealous the last time she came to my house this was the first time she had come to my house since we hadn't talked but I was with my headphones on and watching my movie when she randomly said to her sister who was near me "You know N(My ex) has a new girlfriend" I dated her cousin for like a month but then I lost feelings so I (please don't judge me) I ghosted him anyways I guess he took the hint and got a new girlfriend I am very happy for him because that means he wasn't hung up on our relationship which is good so instead of making me jealous she made me happy also because I like this other guy and everytime I saw him I felt guilty now that guilt is gone.

So yeah this is a rant of my life right now so yeah.

OMG... I asked my crush out to HoCo and he is gone that weekend, then my # leeked out and I have to find out where this goes... so SOS

As23 wrote: "OMG... I asked my crush out to HoCo and he is gone that weekend, then my # leeked out and I have to find out where this goes... so SOS"

So proud of you for asking!! It is never easy to ask someone out but at least you got an answer :)!!

He does not feel the same about me

As23 wrote: "He does not feel the same about me"

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you're okay :/
I know it hurts now, but at least you know and can move on to other things. I'm sure you'll meet the right person someday <3

Okay so fuck my ex I don’t feel bad for him anymore (read my first post) I was on my phone when I saw someone tagged me on something and it was my ex and he posted it a hate post about me and we broke up a month ago like bro get over it and I never talked shit about him or anything so I don’t know why he posted that and we haven’t talked since so idk wth he did that like bro what did you gain? What did you enjoy from posting that? Like bro I don’t care but he literally put my insta acc on the story so I’m pissed off now

My life has just gotten harder and harder over the years after my dad passed away a lot of other people in my life passed away as well .And now I have to wait for another person to die my aunt has battled cancer and now only has a few months to live ,this will be the fourth funeral I will have to attend in 5 years.I now keep people at a distance for fear that they will also die and I can't bear to feel this pain again ,but its not working.I'm getting therapy but because I'm such a guarded person I don't rant to much.School is also making this experience much harder as well as finding out my brother has ADHD.My life just seems to be filled with such bad luck.I sometimes feel as if no one knows what I'm going through.I just feel so alone.

Hon you are not alone I promise right now it may seem like it but trust me you are not alone and you are not the only person feeling like this so many horrible things are happening the best advice I can give you is find someone you can talk to and trust

At my school, every few years, classes are mixed, and this year, they were mixed. Two of my really good friends went out in a different class than mine, and before the year started, we were really upset both because of the classes themselves but also because we are not together. Long story short, they tried to transfer to my class but were told they had to start in their class before they could transfer. Two weeks ago the year started and I was really pleasantly surprised by my class! I was able to open up to people and make new friends. It really doesn't suit me because I'm usually really closed off and can't make new friends. Then I realized it's because I'm not in the class with them, and that I don't want them to move a class... because I know that once they move, they'll expect me to be with them a lot and don't get me wrong, I love them very much but I finally managed to open up, I don't want to miss it. And when I'm with them it's a bit closed... Now I believe that one of them will understand me if I talk to them about it, but the other one will be really offended and I'm 100% sure that she won't understand me and I don't know what to do. Because on the one hand I really love them, but on the other hand I don't want to miss this opportunity, it's the first time I really enjoy coming to school...

sorry it's so long♡ Also, English is not my first language, so I might have some mistakes.

Can I just say “because we separate, like ripples on a blank shore” is my favourite song verse of all time. The verse is featured on Radioheads in rainbows, track 7 “reckoner”