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Im done with life, i got fucking yelled at by my brother for asking him a question! Im honestly done taking to people and i honestly hate them

I'm stuck outside my own home because my dads GF isn't home and my older brother forgot his key hahahaha my dad said to be ready by the time he got home! Wheeeee I just got yelled at by my older brother for asking if he left the key at my mom's in his room there or at my dads (where we are now)

i got stupid ensemble in mean girls, which means i grt to do literally nothing 😀😀 excet dance. no lines, no solos. i domt sucl and i got a good role in my last production at this place. these were my best auditions ive ever done, they really showed how much ive grown over the past year in my acting and singing. so its crazy to me that i didnt get anything. evryone else who has gotten ensemble is younger, less experienced, yada yada. we all can grow, yes, but ensemble just feels like a gut punch especially since they didnt give me anything. i love dancing and that is why i have done so many shows is for the dance aspect. but i did this one for the acting, and the singing. but i just get nothing.

plus my counterpart is just this toxic, manipulative, drama causing person, that i dont want to surround myself around. i just wish i couldve gotten something.

i dont think they are willing to see my growth at all…

*hug*
Cuddles make everything a lil bit betta

Bro jus done with life and ppl getting to move forward while it feels like i’ve been stuck in the same position for the past 4 years so yea jus tryna keep calm and not yell at my mom,dad,and siblings. Oh yeah can u tell i’m the eldest daughter 😓

same im the oldest of threee girls...

i feel like im chasing after my partner who constantly is just never online...and I'm just afraid that they are going to leave me the way that everyone else has left me and when they leave....my mind just screams 'No! Please don't go! I will do anything to keep you here" so i cling on tighter only for them to go offline and it feels like all of my fears are coming true....I want nothing more to love them than to give them my heart and for them to take care of it. But it feels like they keep breaking it over and over and over again and they don't even mean to. Why are they so afraid to love me when all i want to do is love them? Why do they keep pushing me away, when all i want is to be close to them? I wonder if maybe im doing something wrong and i blow up their phone, just trying to figure out what is it that i can do better. I long for reassurance, hoping and begging and praying that they will just give me some and let me know that they are not leaving...that they are still here...But when i am met with silence, it feels like my soul is breaking because then it feels like all of my fears are coming true. That they will leave just like all the others and i will feel my heart break all over again.

that’s really rough. i can get the same way but something i’ve learned is if they want to leave then let them go. if they ever really loved you they wouldn’t leave you. it’s hard to swallow but trust me, your way better off without people like that. without the ones who leave you because they can. a piece of advice, try to react maturely and ask if you can talk with them. if they say no or seem to not listen while you express your concerns and issues with them, leave. they aren’t worth it. people can be so so toxic and sometimes they know the ones who will cling. they’ll give less and less knowing you’ll give more and more. you’ll find the right person for you💕