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soooooo I'm the first one to talk on here but... I'm sad and scared and angry and confused and jealous and upset with myself and stressed and worried and excited and my brain cannot process any of this.

I have practically 7 people inside me including me and sometimes we don't know what to do and we all just get awkward or stupid and we just can't progress and sometimes I just fall into this darkness inside me and I just want to give up life.

Im so childish they took it as maturity & im so out of my mind they began to take it as emotionally in tune, I'm so silly that they take me seriously & im so serious they take it for silly. I dont know who i am....I dont know what i want....I feel so loose, I feel so lost, I feel so lonely, so detached....I need to get out. I need to move out of my town so badly & im so afraid of myself....I hate it in my head, but i love living here.....I have no interest in doing any of this anymore & i hate that everything changes so radically, so quickly....I feel as if i am two people & they hate each other, love each other, Disagree & fight with each other, want to marry each other....love each other

what do you do when you realize that people will hate on you if you share your opinions/beliefs/part of your identity?

its absolutely terrifying to realize how many people there are like that.

true

I'm about to be in some crap for commenting on some controversial updates. it's SO heated rn.

seriously though, I need advice.

Ella✨ wrote: "what do you do when you realize that people will hate on you if you share your opinions/beliefs/part of your identity?"

well, its different if you're just having beliefs and being as respectful towards others as you want to be respected. Im sorry if this has been happening to you

like, should I unfriend them?

Sometimes i feel like i dont belong in this world...i wish people would understand that I'm hurting and I just want someone to love me. I wish to disappear everyday, yet I'm still here. Its hard to see everyone else happy while your suffering. I just want to be happy. I just want to feel loved. I want to know what its like when your parents are proud of you. I want to know what its like to have friends and be likeable. but yet here I am. ugly, fat, gross, and every other thing you can think of. i wanna have a perfect body, perfect face, perfect everything.

i didn't realize that they were against us when I added them to a group of openly queer people. I'm cooked.

I don't want to push people away because of opinions though

does anyone have any advice??

start a new group?

I don't know if I can get all the other people to transition without telling the person (maybe people). TYSM for the recommendation though! It honestly makes such a difference to know that people care about helping me, as minor as this is.

also, am I the most ignorant, blind person ever and you've been on here the whole time? I feel so bad...

Louis Yagi is a loaf of breb -Sal & Kipp's lover- wrote: "Sometimes i feel like i dont belong in this world...i wish people would understand that I'm hurting and I just want someone to love me. I wish to disappear everyday, yet I'm still here. Its hard to..."

trust me you'll be okay. i kinda feel like that too, like everyone is so awesome and lucky and im the odd one out and everyone hates me and my parents think im useless and i suck at everything. but like we did this activity at school for SEL and you stepped in if the statement applied to you and the statement was "i feel like the different one at school" and literally everyone stepped in, even the super cool popular kids. this is coming out kinds cheesy but you'll find someone who truly understands you

Ella✨ wrote: "its absolutely terrifying to realize how many people there are like that."

it is....like i feel so safe and welcome with like my friends or my super close friend who is lit the platonic love of my life, or like at a queer event, but there's so much hate on like the media and stuff and so many prominent figures hate us....like I live in a very welcoming protective bubble world and if I ever leave that bubble I feel like I won't be ready to face the world as it actually is

Sai wrote: "Ella✨ wrote: "its absolutely terrifying to realize how many people there are like that."

it is....like i feel so safe and welcome with like my friends or my super close friend who is lit the plato..."

MAYBE THE WORLD ISN'T READY FOR US

YOU CAN'T DEAL WITH MY IDENTITY THEN YOU'RE IN FOR A SURPRISE WHEN YOU LOSE THE TRUST OF SOME OF THE BEST PEOPLE I KNOW.

YOU DON'T DESERVE PEOPLE SO LOVING AND FREE DESPITE EVERYTHING.

I'm sorry that was mean and a lot.

I don't want to be like the people that make us feel like that.

so um, this is random but I wrote a holiday thing in a notebook and wanted to share it.

It's the holiday season!🎄🥳

There is a lot of cheerfulness and merriment around this time, but there is a lot of hardship too. I feel that some of the struggles are undermined or dismissed and that is definitely not part of the Christmas spirit. For those out there feeling bad, mad, sad, confused, angry, alone, jealous, ignored, overworked, or anything else: I see you. There is hope. There is love.
Happy holidays!

Ella✨ wrote: "It's the holiday season!🎄🥳

There is a lot of cheerfulness and merriment around this time, but there is a lot of hardship too. I feel that some of the struggles are undermined or dismissed and that..."

i love it 😀❤️

really? thanks!

you're welcome :)

I feel like it's hard to acknowledge mental health when a lot of people around you act like there's nothing wrong in the world anymore. It's isolating and lonely.

Sai wrote: "Louis Yagi is a loaf of breb -Sal & Kipp's lover- wrote: "Sometimes i feel like i dont belong in this world...i wish people would understand that I'm hurting and I just want someone to love me. I w..."

Thanks..heh

usually, when people ask me how im doing, the real answer is I'm doing shitty but i cant say I'm feeling shitty because i don't even have a good reason to be doing shitty so if i say I'm doing shitty then they say "Why, whats wrong?" i have to be like "Idk, all of it?" so instead when people ask how I'm doing i usually say "Im a doing so great...."

Louis Yagi is a loaf of breb -Sal & Kipp's lover- wrote: "Sometimes i feel like i dont belong in this world...i wish people would understand that I'm hurting and I just want someone to love me. I wish to disappear everyday, yet I'm still here. Its hard to..."

I'm so sorry darling. for some reason I couldn't see this until now. You are beautiful and loved. People who make you feel like that are the ones who don't belong in this world. You are absolutely perfect. I guarantee that there is not anyone and has never been anyone fully happy. You are never gross. I hate that you feel so awful. Let me know what I can do for you.

There is no such thing as perfect. There is an idea of what people should look like or be like. Changing yourself into someone you aren't, hurting yourself because of this image, and thinking you can't be love unless you are like that are the least perfect things I can think of.

Know that you are great and I wouldn't say any of this if I didn't truly care. I don't know you personally but I don't even need to in order to tell that you as great a person as anyone else and you deserve to hear the truth.

Ella✨ wrote: "Louis Yagi is a loaf of breb -Sal & Kipp's lover- wrote: "Sometimes i feel like i dont belong in this world...i wish people would understand that I'm hurting and I just want someone to love me. I w..."

Thanks Ella....i honestly just have never really....felt like i belonged

oh love. you belong HERE

There is not a single person here that doesn't agree with that.

sometimes, I feel like such an outcast, so alone, like such a problem, that I think of suicide.

I will actually hurt anyone who thinks that you don't belong if I get the chance.

Owl belongs her definitly

Lets count all the people who have told me to kms- and the people who call me very horrible names (c*nt, etc.) and plenty more

Stormchaser wrote: "sometimes, I feel like such an outcast, so alone, like such a problem, that I think of suicide."

Please don't. I know that it's incredibly stupid of me to say that but I mean it. I literally can't communicate this in any less of a direct way. You don't deserve this. You aren't alone. I PROMISE.

Owl, you are a great person, those who say those things are a big problem, like me

sometimes it's too much, I just feel like there isn't anything else that is good in the world sometimes

Stormchaser wrote: "sometimes, I feel like such an outcast, so alone, like such a problem, that I think of suicide."

You aren't a problem. It isn't possible for one person to be the cause of any problem. I refuse to believe otherwise.

Stormchaser wrote: "sometimes it's too much, I just feel like there isn't anything else that is good in the world sometimes"

I know, and I feel that deeply. BUT THERE IS

IM BEING INTENSE BUT IF I DON'T YELL IT OUT THEN WE WILL ALL BREAK. THERE IS BEAUTY AND LOVE AND BELONGING.

so you've been in that hole that lies in the center of your heart to?

Stormchaser wrote: "so you've been in that hole that lies in the center of your heart to?"

My darling, there isn't a person who hasn't been.