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TW: implied suicidal contemplations

The more I learn about the world, the more I don't want to be in it. Everything is just an endless cycle of pain and hurt and not being able to do anything about it. I feel like the world is falling apart, and I have no idea what it will look like when I grow up. People and animals and are suffering all around and I can't do a fucking thing. I keep telling myself it will be different when I'm an adult, I'll have more power and a say in my life, but I don't know if I will. I'm bisexual a woman (well, girl) who might not be able to marry the person I want to in the future and may not even have a big say in society. The climate is a disaster and no one seems to be doing anything about it. It's become normal for teens to have mental health problems apparently and everyone seems to think it's not an issue. And so much other stuff that I can't even write out but it's all weighing on me and I'm scared of what the world is turning into and what my life will be like. I also feel so helpless because innocent lives are being ruined by stuff every single day and I can't do anything about it and people are starving and losing loved ones and dying of disease and being torn apart by war brought on by other humans. We kill and destroy other lives just to get what we want. We cause pain and destruction everywhere we go. Why. Why are we here. What's the point of staying here if the bad people are going to destroy everything and the good people are left helpless and hopeless.

And all my friends are fucking falling apart and I feel like I can't do anything and I'm just watching them collapse and I'm totally useless

I feel like that so much too. I feel like everyone's falling apart and how am I supposed to help them when i'm falling apart too?

Sage wrote: "I feel like that so much too. I feel like everyone's falling apart and how am I supposed to help them when i'm falling apart too?"

Exactly. And I saw a quote that said "Good people are like candles. They burn themselves up to give others light." When do you cross the line of helping others to harming yourself?

Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I feel like that so much too. I feel like everyone's falling apart and how am I supposed to help them when i'm falling apart too?"

Exactly. And I saw a quote that said "Good people ar..."

Yeah exactly. Sometimes I feel like that quote so much

I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleaser, I'm not a nice enough person for that, but I don't want to hurt people like that. It's better for me to have to deal with the hurt than them, right? Maybe I deserve it more. Maybe that's why I'm dealing with it. Maybe there's some reason I have to deal with this.

Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleaser, I'm not a nice enough person for that, but I don't want ..."

Exactly the same situation for me. Literally. You just put into words so much of what I'm feeling. T^T

Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleaser, I'm not a nice enough person for that, but ..."

You did too. It's nice knowing I'm not the only one out there...

Sage wrote: "Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleas..."

-hugs-

Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a..."

🫂🫂💔

Seriously, when I was a little younger, I wished I was an adult, I wished I had husband and kids, I wished I was a housewife? I don’t know! Now I’m looking back and thinking ‘what the actual f*** was I thinking?”. I heard somewhere that ‘when you wish you were a kid again, you are an adult’, I’m 12-14 years old. I wish I had that innocence again, oblivious to the world and the most confident I ever was.

It doesn’t help that I’m LGBTQ+/alterhuman either. I’m not out but if I dare express myself, people are going to be like
“Ew what’s that furry doing?”
“You little [insert slur]!”
It absolutely destroys your self esteem, just being vaguely different. I’m the smartest girl in my class judging by my test results. Despite that, no one wants me for anything unless I’m friends with you. Fun fact: I’ve got 5 Georges in my class. We call them via their last names. I’m closest with field.

TW: depression? implied suicidal thoughts & sh thoughts?

(view spoiler)[Yk those days when the depression is really bad? When you're sobbing yourself to sleep and listening to music that matches how you feel, just so you don't feel alone? When you think of everything you've gone through and you just feel so alone and so heavy and tired? When the only thing that takes the pain away is sleep that never comes? When everything you do just makes it worse, just makes people annoyed, just makes you hate yourself more? When no matter how hard you try, you just can't. not. hate. yourself. and it drives you crazy. When you wonder if anyone really loves you, and if they do, you wonder how. When you remember all the horrible things people have said to you and you realize they're true. When you remember all the kind things they've said and you take them down piece by piece to prove they're wrong. When you're ready to give up because life sucks and it's not getting better When you're about to stop trying even though you know you shouldn't. When all the happy moments seem to just be fake and fleeting, ready to be replaced by the darkness. When it feels like everything you've been through is too much, more than you can handle, and you just can't do any more. When you can't even forgive yourself and don't even ask others to consider forgiving you for even the slightest mistake. When you realize how many people have left your life without even saying goodbye, and wonder who's next. When you wonder if what they're saying is really harmless jokes or if it's just the truth. When the stress is piling up on you and you just don't know what to do. When that knife looks so tempting. When you wonder if anyone would even miss you or cry over you or care if you left. (hide spoiler)]

Barnette {mental health hiatus} wrote: "TW: implied suicidal contemplations

The more I learn about the world, the more I don't want to be in it. Everything is just an endless cycle of pain and hurt and not being able to do anything abou..."

You just summed up all of my feelings rn exactly. I see all the hurt that the world is going through, and there's nothing I can do about it. The climate gets worse every single day, and no one else seems to care, especially not the leaders who are going backwards on progress every day, and who were supposed to be standing up for and protecting our country and future

✧₊⁺༻Em༺ ✧₊⁺ wrote: "TW: depression? implied suicidal thoughts & sh thoughts?

[spoilers removed]"

i know those days, all of it
but trust me you are literally an amazing person and no matter how stupid life seems please remember that you're very, very loved and very, very amazing because you are <3

🥹thank you Sai

well it's true :)

❤️❤️ love you

love you too <3 :)

I want to vent but at the same time I feel like a burden and a problem and I shouldn’t…

You will never be a burden or a problem for anyone, if you ever need to talk in here <3

I’m *

Tysm <3

Ava ౨ৎ wrote: "I want to vent but at the same time I feel like a burden and a problem and I shouldn’t…"

We're here for you to vent to, I promise no one minds and we're happy to help. You're never a burden or problem by asking for help <3

Ava ౨ৎ wrote: "I want to vent but at the same time I feel like a burden and a problem and I shouldn’t…"

the only burdens and problems are the people who make you feel like that

Stupid group home! They are supposed to be helping me and I could run this place better.

Christine wrote: "Stupid group home! They are supposed to be helping me and I could run this place better."

What do you mean?

Hey everyone! Don't forget, if you need to talk, here's a safe place you can do that without judgment <3

TW: Self deletion

I don't usually do this so forgive me if there's a right way to do this I just have no clue. I don't mean to trauma dump or anything but I probably will and so in advance i'm so sorry. But basically I got ghosted by my ex three weeks ago after over a year of dating. I'm still so confused and mourning what we had. A week after my brother hurt himself bc his girl best friend hurt herself and she wanted to feel what she felt. And then a week after THAT one so last week he said he was going to self delete bc again the girl best friend said she would. Before all of this I'm still struggling with my mental health of depression, anxiety, and PTSD. So it's just piling up and i'm trying so so hard to seem okay, but I know I'm not. I've told other people but I feel like i'm just getting worse and it sucks. So yeah that's the story of me. Thank you for this and again I'm so sorry

☁︎Grace☁︎ wrote: "TW: Self deletion

I don't usually do this so forgive me if there's a right way to do this I just have no clue. I don't mean to trauma dump or anything but I probably will and so in advance i'm so..."

Don't apologize for venting or "trauma dumping", that's what this chat is for and we're here for you. And there's no "right way" to vent - just let it all out. I'm so sorry you're having to deal with that, I've been in similar situations and I understand.

I think you should talk to your brother about what he's doing. SHing and threatening to self-delete because his friend was going to doesn't help or work at all. It just leads to a cycle of fear and SH that won't end well for either side. I know this from experience. What your brother can do to help his friend is be a gentle support and give her reasons not to do the things she does/wants to do, because scaring her into stopping will make her feel worse, and if he is struggling with SH as well it will be harder for him to help her. If you can, tell your brother this, maybe in a note or text if that's easier, and hopefully that could lift a weight off your shoulders.

About your ex, I'm really sorry about that. Do you know why they ghosted you? Could you reach out and explain how you feel about what they did? If you know why they did that or if I knew more about your relationship I might have better advice, but I don't really right now, I'm sorry.

Your mental health struggles are valid. I'm glad you said you've told other people, have you told any adult figures in your life? Is it possible you could ask for therapy, or is there a school counselor you could reach out to? Therapy has really helped me personally, so I believe it's worth a try, but I know that not everyone can afford it or has access to quality therapy.

My PMs are open if you wanna talk about this more in private. I hope this helped a little bit. Stay safe ❤️

deleted user wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleaser, I'm not a nice enough person for that, but I don't want ..."

I have been thinking the same thing. For YEARS.

Earlier this year I was in a really bad mental state from February 24th to June/July. August 2nd was like the turning point for me to actually finally feel better. My parents are really toxic.

here is something I shared with someone on Goodreads on April 4th, 2025:

I often argue with Hafsah. I'll explain 2 scenarios that would demonstrate the toxicity in my house with my parents.

1. One day, Hafsah was vacuuming and my mom was telling hafsah how to vacuum properly but then my mom noticed Hafsah's bad tone and my mom hit hafsah really hard and I stepped in and I said stop to my mom but then she forced me to the back of a couch and then started to hit me a lot. After she hit me, she forced me and Hafsah outside in the rain. I had no socks, shoes, or jacket on. My brother Waleed was in Texas. My older sister lives in Chicago. Omar and my dad were at a home inspection. My mom left us outside for 20 minutes. And she checked on Hafsah and I twice and said hows the weather when she damn well knew that it was raining pretty heavily. After 4 minutes my mom called my dad put it on speaker and my mom said to me, "Explain what your mistake was and explain your job in this house" and I had to freaking degrade myself to avoid more punishment. After I went into the house, I dried myself off, and I do remember crying so much that day. My mom called Hafsah into the house and asked the same thing she asked me to Hafsah and my mom acted like she was the victim and started crying.

2. This next thing is about me and my dad while everyone was gone from the house except my grandmother. One day while my dad was making something he took out a curry looking thing and he said, throw this in the garbage, bird food bin, or the sink and I was like no why don't I call my mom who was in Pakistan at the time to confirm if my dad was right and he yelled at me to stay in the kitchen to finish making white rice. And I also cried.

My mom says that I'm the reason my older sister stopped visiting our house, but who else am I supposed to go to to talk about my parents' toxic as hell behaviors? I visit my older sister and her best friend, Pranathi, at least once a month which is good.

https://youtube.com/shorts/He9RtmAqf1...

I loved that so much! That was really nice of you to share!

Khadijah wrote: "I loved that so much! That was really nice of you to share!"

Thank you ❤️ and of course!

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ {single pringle version} wrote: "https://youtube.com/shorts/He9RtmAqf1..."

that's so nice!! wow seeing this literally made my day <3

Sai :) wrote: "Barnette ⋆˙⟡ {single pringle version} wrote: "https://youtube.com/shorts/He9RtmAqf1..."

that's so nice!! wow seeing this literally made my day <3"

I'm so glad 💕

Really big TW:

I don't want to die. But I want to feel death. I want to be at the edge and see my life flash before my eyes and I want people to be scared of losing me so I know they actually care. I know my friends care about me but most of them are in other parts of the world and I don't even know if my family cares. But I want to be teetering on the edge of that abyss and know what decision I would make in that moment and what my family would do. I want to either shock myself out of this depression or just realize that my life is important and that I will hurt other people by doing that. I need to force myself to realize that.

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ {single pringle version} wrote: "Really big TW:

I don't want to die. But I want to feel death. I want to be at the edge and see my life flash before my eyes and I want people to be scared of losing me so I know they actually care..."

I relate with that so much

TW: Breakup, heavy depression, suicidal thoughts

My partner and I are taking a break. We've been together for four years, and now we're going from each other's everything to just..... friends.
Neither of us want this. But we need it. And, GOD, does it hurt to do that. I'm..... So tired and sad, and I just..... the only thing keeping me here is the fact that we'll be back together next year.
Next..... Next year.
I have to wait.
I can wait.
Right?

~swimming_in_stars ♥|JAY, MOURNING|♥~ wrote: "TW: Breakup, heavy depression, suicidal thoughts

My partner and I are taking a break. We've been together for four years, and now we're going from each other's everything to just..... friends.
Nei..."

I'm sorry you have to deal with that. Are you and your partner just taking a break from being in a relationship, or are you temporarily cutting communication entirely?

If you both felt that was the best decision for both you and your partner, remember that, and take care of yourself until you two are in a safe place and potentially get back together again.

Sage wrote: "Barnette ⋆˙⟡ {single pringle version} wrote: "Really big TW:

I don't want to die. But I want to feel death. I want to be at the edge and see my life flash before my eyes and I want people to be sc..."

😭

Hey guys! js wanted to say that if you ever js need someone to talk to I'm completely open no matter what you're going through, who you are, age, religion, etc. Even if I don't know you or anything, my msg's are open <3

Sol wrote: "Hey guys! js wanted to say that if you ever js need someone to talk to I'm completely open no matter what you're going through, who you are, age, religion, etc. Even if I don't know you or anything..."

❤️

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ {single pringle version} wrote: "Really big TW:

I don't want to die. But I want to feel death. I want to be at the edge and see my life flash before my eyes and I want people to be scared of losing me so I know they actually care..."

i'm sorry, you don't deserve to go through that <3 trust me though, your family does love you, and you're absolutely amazing. i know it's really hard to believe that, same thing with me, but you can do this <3

Sai :) wrote: "Barnette ⋆˙⟡ {single pringle version} wrote: "Really big TW:

I don't want to die. But I want to feel death. I want to be at the edge and see my life flash before my eyes and I want people to be sc..."

Thank you <3 I really appreciate it

Sol *ੈ✩‧₊˚ wrote: "Hey guys! js wanted to say that if you ever js need someone to talk to I'm completely open no matter what you're going through, who you are, age, religion, etc. Even if I don't know you or anything..."

same, my pms are always open and I'll listen no matter what. I love all of you, even if I don't know you yet

same here, if you ever wanna talk just pm me