Journaling discussion

ok damn 14 days lmfaooo

life has been lwk boring

too much studying make my brain hurt. when my brain hurt, i sad. so i always sad now 😭🤣

my kinda-sorta-friend asked my why i don't take anything seriously and i'm like "gurl. idk what you're talking about" and then goes on to make a dark joke.

but yeah life is lifing

lifeing?*

liveing*

i give up. life is lifing

idk bro 😭

i'm tired

✨of everything✨

omg baby sajaaa is so fine. not as fine as jinu but still he so cuteeee. also i love how baby saja and zoey both have like an identity crisis when they start rapping lmfaoooo

im gonna eat someone

is it too much to ask someone to like actually love me like lmao am I really that unlovable 🤣🤣🤣🤣

no im being serious thou

lwk not 'i love you' being the biggest lie ever XD

lwk thinking i use 'lwk' too much

but oh well who cares? not meee

but yeah giving up on love now 💪✌

but yes i am currently rethinking my life decisions and going insane by talking to...myself? Or IP. IP is an excellent person to talk to.

i totes get im stupid for pushing people away but that's just what trust issues get you, dude. literally nothing.

but yeah ppl shouldn't say i love you, give me false hope that someone might actually love me for once and then be like 'nvm' and just send my hold world crashing. like bro. c'mon. stop with the fucking mood changes and make up your fucking mind. do you like me or do you not? it's literally that simple. just lwk stop with the building-things-up-and-then-breaking-it-down thing. its not even funny anymore. (well it is kinda funny. when you think about it lmfaooo)

ehe i may or may not have pissed people off. it remains to be seen how pissed they are 😀

*sips tea* nothing like watching your world fall apart, eh? *tips hat*

but in all seriousness (which is basically non :D) life is totally lifing (we're gonna pretend i spelled that right) and i'm having an awesome time. Lately i have been: kicking puppies, killing damsels in distress, going on a killing spree, all while trying to decode cipher that the zodiac killer left ✌✌

ok seriously though (i swear imma be serious) allow me to spill some tea to....me myself and IP. A recap of the summer so far: I've gotten my heart broken, I've broken down twice, I tried funnel cake and fried oreos for the first time (literal heaven right there), I've lost my trust in people, my best friends are ditching my i think, some of my friends are not doing so great i feel helpless and annoyed at myself, my mental health is down in hell but who cares lol not me anymore, and....yeah i think that's it. for now. *cue dramatic music: DON DON DUNNNNN* ooh yeah it's been raining so much it's great. i like rain but does it have to be like thunderstorms every other day like c;mon.

i kinda wanna go back in time to the moment he first told me he liked me. and then id quickly anazalyze and be like "do you really? or do you like him more?". bcs lwk i didn't like him then. but when he confessed (actually that whole day was just so funny) i was like 'that's too good to be truee' and guess what bitchachos i was right. it was too good to be true. and ofc i had to just waltz in and mess up and say the wrong thing and hurt him leading to a whole set of events that not only hurt the 2 of us but hurt quite a few people. and now look at me. i'm quite alone. not lonely, since lonely is viewed as a bad thing. no i'm just...alone..just kinda there. but that's fine :D

fucking crushes. fucking guys 😭. i hear one little thing from him and i'm tripping over myself. i think we're friends? kinda? i'm not sure atp. but fingers crossed what i hope for comes true but at the same time....i hope not. last time this happened it ended.....quite badly.

who would have known being in love with, like, love is so destructive? i lwk just realized lmfao.

ok ok ok hear me out....those really hot maniquines

mannequins*

damn the life of being that one girl who's friends are the one everyone falls for is so fun. all my friends have been asked out, called cute or gotten a guy's phone number multiple times while i'm here tripping over air. ... isn't this lovely? *sips tea as i watch all the couples from a distance*

fuckk i hate my ipad sm right now. i have to get through 3 chapters of lectures for math, 1 chapter in chem and i think 2 in physics and i was up till like 5 am doing the question imma actuallyc ryyy

current status: single, unbothered, and lying. send help or snacks. (i prefer snacks. aything chocolate and i'll love you forever)

✨ my cutesy routine for every day ✨

✧ wake up ✧
✧ open Pinterest ✧
✧ cry in cute lighting ✧
✧ read a book that emotionally destroys me ✧
✧ ignore texts ✧
✧ stalk happy couples from a distance ✧
✧ spiral ✧
✧ feel better after eating getting a mocha frappe ✧
✧ study until i can barely see straight ✧

caught feelings. should’ve caught a flight to paris so i can cry in the rain. that is much more aesthetically cuter. but i fear i am too broke.

she’s beauty. she’s grace. she hasn’t talked to a boy since 7th grade ✌

sighhh im craving food

like...chocolate ice cream

chocolate cake

hershey kisses

kitkats

nutella

i want it all 🔥

yeah, i took the joking too far — what can i say? i’m an emotional wreck with a sharp tongue and zero filter. consider this your warning. 💅🔥😈

just keep swimming 💔

if you're gonna be fake at least stop being so obvious like 😭

the right person, the wrong time
the right script, the wrong line
the right poem, the wrong rhyme
and a piece of you that was never mine

(saw it on pinterest and fell in love with it and lwk relatable)

hmm i think im gonna eat someone :D