Chronically ill chaos discussion

Do you mind if I move this into the mental folder? It’s hard to know exactly which would be best since it causes physical things but I think that’s where it would be best

Sure go ahead

I just wanted to say this for anyone struggling with an eating disorder:
It might feel hopeless. I know it does, I have been there and honestly, I still kind of am, but I remind myself how so many have recovered and are doing so well now, and that is a possibility. For example, Taylor swift had an ed during 1989 era, and she was able to recover from it, and look at how she’s doing now. She’s healthy, happy, and one of the most successful music artists in the world. And while I’m not saying you have to become famous, you are worth more than your weight, and it’s possible to do amazing things in the future, no matter how hopeless you feel <3

You’re absolutely right. I only wish I could take it in with my whole being, not just understand it in my head. If you read my book, you’ll see what I’ve been through - after all that, it’s hard to keep hold of hope, but you’ve given me a little lift. 🌹

And on another note, I too went through anorexia as a teenager. I got out the other side, but from there to love and self-acceptance - the road is still a long one. 🌈

Through the Flesh

I swear the second my eating starts getting back to being kind of normal someone always says something that throws me back. It’s literally the definition of 1 step forward 3 steps back.

exactly though. I have emetophobia (fear of throwing up) but it makes me not want to eat too. I was doing fine for almost a year and then guess who came back

I can't even eat without having a panic attack at this point. And when I have to be normal in front of my parents for dinner I always just freak out slightly but they don't notice..I get so so scared of being fat. Im not even thin honestly, and I have no problem with fat people..but at my 72 kilos and I'm only 5'0, where people see my "wonderful" curves I see my nauseating rolls. And I see the photos of me at homecoming where every other person looks so much thinner. I must lose weight. I wont be happy until I'm like 65 kilos at this point, but I can hardly keep a workout routine because of burnout and depression. UGHHHHH how does one eat and not worry about what it will do through a distorted lense..

I am so sorry for h guys 😢 just be confident tho! I literally just had like a huge spoonful of straight up Nutella and gummy bears (I’m not exactly thin lol) but yah eat what u like! And if people judge you on your ‘weight,’ then you don’t want to be around them. I personally have never had that worry (I wear a plastic orthopedic back brace that is actually the definition of torture and it works kinda like a corset, so it like forces me to suffocate and be skinny while wearing it) but even if I did, if people care so much about it, I’d say “yeah bro I like lol. Got a problem with it?” Ahaha

Sorry if this comment isn’t helping just trying to help and I’m so sorry. Make sure u eat tho! Pls! Ur not fat trust meee. Be confident!