VaeVae's Journal discussion

Days since last attempt: 0
Feelings today: broken
Fav thing about myself: nothing
Least fav thing about myself: everything
Urge to die today: 100/10
Anxiety: 100/10
Meals Eaten Today: 3
Something New: I cry more now...

Keep going, love.

OMG WHAT HAPPENED



vaevae:
VAY VAY!!!
OMG DONT!
I WAS JUST DOG SITTING!
ITS OKAY!
LIFE IS WORTH LIVING SWEETIE
PLS DONT HURT YOURSELF

Oh my god im so fucking scared right now. Vay!!!! Pls don’t hurt yourself 0 minutes ago
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bye emily 2 hours, 46 min ago
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195087655 vaevae said to you:
I'm going to find a way to do it...don't know how or when but I will
I'm s useless no one would care but a bunch of strangers online
that how unimportant I am?!
I'm going to drown myself in the bath tub 2 hours, 46 min ago
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195087655 vaevae said to you:
and I wanna die and there's NO changing my mind 2 hours, 48 min ago
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195087655 vaevae said to you:
I'm broken........and I cant feel pain anymore and I cant cry anymore cuz I won't let myself 2 hours, 48 min ago
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195087655 vaevae said to you:
I'm so scared and hurt and alone but I don't know how to fix that 2 hours, 50 min ago
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195087655 vaevae said to you:
I was called ugly today, I was ghosted, I was laughed at, I was tricked, I was babied, and parented, by teenage kids
no one understands I can't tell anyone what's wrong
cuz I don't know how too

IM FREAKING OUT SO BAD

Babes, are you still safe?

We’re here for you Vay…

vay we r all here for u okay <3

I hate this question too, but; are you okay and are you safe? Are you still here, Vae?

Thinking about you💜
So many people care about you sweetie

Where are you, hun?

We’ll be here when you come back🫂🫂🫂

guys?

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Days since last attempt: 3
Feelings today: happy
Fav thing about myself: my personality
Least fav thing about myself: my self esteem
Urge to die today: -2/10
Anxiety: 3/10
Meals Eaten Today: 1 (didn't have time for breakfast and it's too early for dinner rn)
Something New: I feel like a kid again...?

awwwwwwwwww im sooooo proud of u vayvayyy omg u dont understand how happy i feel to see this rn omg ilysmmm!!!

=D I'm just a little worried abt next week...whenever I'm happy I get soo happy that I start to cry for example I could look at a flower and go "omg I love that flower!can I have that flower!is that a pretty flower!what if the flower dies!I don't want the flower to die!flower don't die!*starts to cry*"
like that but worse and I don't know how to stop it from happening so I'm a little worried...

ahhh dwww abt thattt js yk maybe when that starts to happen just seriously js like close ur eyes and take deep breaths and just srsly try to calm downn

but omg ur doing so well im like actually like genuinely so proud of u omg this makes me soo happy well done ml!! <333

I'll try it

okk good, and rmemeber that grounding excercise?? if it ever helped u b4 and u think itll help try that aswl

ok!

Love you, Vae. So happy you're back.

Days since last attempt: 4
Feelings today: anxious
Fav thing about myself: personality
Least fav thing about myself: self esteem
Urge to die today: 2/10
Anxiety: 1000/10
Meals Eaten Today: 0
Something New: I grew a little...?

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I'm proud of you. Your scores don't have to be perfect, without flaws. You can have anxiety, you can hate yourself. Just keep trying, okay, love?

Eat something. Drink water.

You are an amazing person Vay
It’s okay to feel anxious
Your personality is my fav thing about you too 💜
Definitely eat something and drink water.


I had an idea to help! When I’m feeling anxious and stressed, I like meditating. Just listen to calming music and take deep breaths. This is my favorite YouTube channel for it:

https://m.youtube.com/@SleepTube


My favorite video:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nkkJgdi...