Mental Health Awareness Group discussion

hey gang I just wanted to create this just to yap hehe.
Emotions/Mood: lwky have a lot of anxiety just abt food + eating
Glasses/Bottles of Water Drank: quite a bit ig
Personal Streaks/Goals: I have no goals
Favorite Thing About Myself/Day: nothing
Least Favorite Thing About Myself/Day: my body lol
Something I'm Grateful For: hoodies and blankets

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "hey gang I just wanted to create this just to yap hehe.
Emotions/Mood: lwky have a lot of anxiety just abt food + eating
Glasses/Bottles of Water Drank: quite a bit ig
Personal S..."

nothing good has happened today lol it's just been soo meh yk I just think I want to improve like holding back eating when I don't need too like it's useless eating if I'm not hungry

aww thanks <333 idk what a healthy weight is lol I just hate mine

just had a panic attack <3

Ava wrote: "r u doing better now hon?"

dear God I wish :(

Ava wrote: "because if you can, thats exactly wjat you need right now"

i dont want to hug anyone + im supposed to be asleep

guuyuyyysss

does anyone have tips on how to stop eating sm or low cal foods

Ava wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "does anyone have tips on how to stop eating sm or low cal foods"

you can drink a lot of water before eating to fill you up
and you can eat things with more portein"

hmm okay ty

Ava wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "Ava wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "does anyone have tips on how to stop eating sm or low cal foods"

you can drink a lot of water before eating to fill you up
and you can eat things wi..."
why not?

how r ppl fr happy 😞

savannah💖 wrote: "how r ppl fr happy 😞"

real 😢

estelle. wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "how r ppl fr happy 😞"

real 😢"

lol fr how r ppl not just floating around, no planted, in a dark abyss where all you can think about how there is no hole at the top, a way to escape, and your stuck forever

savannah💖 wrote: "estelle. wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "how r ppl fr happy 😞"

real 😢"

lol fr how r ppl not just floating around, no planted, in a dark abyss where all you can think about how there is no hole at the t..."


this is beautiful

estelle. wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "estelle. wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "how r ppl fr happy 😞"

real 😢"

lol fr how r ppl not just floating around, no planted, in a dark abyss where all you can think about how there i..."

bahaha tyty *takes a bow* that doesn't even begin to describe how it fr feels

Emotions/Mood: pissed the fuck off everyone is so damn loud no one can shut up. specifically me
Glasses/Bottles of Water Drank: not even a full glass (working on it) but a can of soda
Personal Streaks/Goals: I have no goals
Favorite Thing About Myself/Day: nothing
Least Favorite Thing About Myself/Day: every fucking thing
vent: I seriously though I was getting happier (I struggle with depression) but recently I'm just in a hole. I don't remember what it was like two days ago.

haha this is honestly embarassing, like talking to a wall no one cares what i have to say but idc anymore. my stomach HURTS so bad from sucking it in. but i can't stop its pure habit. i can't LOOK at my own body and i dont want to feel it. i dont want to go into elaborate detail atm, but my parents should not have been parents. they don't know how to. they don't know how to support their fucking children, that they WILLINGLY chose to have, FOUR times.

...guys IM TALKING TO A MAAAALLLEEEEE

🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
I've been talking to him for a few days and I fear I'm in love

I know NOBODY cares... but I relapsed😁

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ [matching with my gf] wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
I've been talking to him for a few days and I fear I'm in love"

YAYYY GOOD LUCK WITH HIM"

AAAWWW THANK YOU I GOT A HOODIEEEEEE

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ [matching with my gf] wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "I know NOBODY cares... but I relapsed😁"

Hey, I care. What happened?"

I had a panic attack...I just wanted to feel SOMETHING or just something else, you know? I really really tried not to...I thought I could hold out but I guess I wasn't strong enough...and the scissors were right there. what a great way to start off the new year lmao

I understand, seriously. I have felt like that so many times. You're not a failure and you're not weak. Stuff like this happens. You'll heal, and you can set new goals. I'm trying to stay clean until Sunday, do you want to do the same goal with me? It's only 3 days. It's okay if you don't think you can do that, if not, maybe just try to get to tomorrow evening. I'm here for you 🫂

Barnette [another alt] wrote: "I understand, seriously. I have felt like that so many times. You're not a failure and you're not weak. Stuff like this happens. You'll heal, and you can set new goals. I'm trying to stay clean unt..."
yeah I'd like that a lot...staying clean until Sunday... I'm just scared my moms gonna find out...cause she gets so mad at me

yeah...thank you barnette <3

...gang i think i should go to a mental hospital..ive been giving it a lot of thought and i think i might talk to my therapist...

if you think it might help, don't be scared to ask them <3 🫂

yeah<3 but I'm just scared...idk what it's like there

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "Hey ml are you clean today? You've almost got to Sunday <3"

unfortunately yes lol I wanted to...but didn't...what about you ml? hru

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "Hey ml are you clean today? You've almost got to Sunday

unfortunately yes lol I wanted to...but didn't...what about you ml? hru"

..."

I'm very proud of you <3

I GOTTA RANT FOR A MIN

sooooooooooooo my parents are super fcking strict and they won't let me date, but ive been (secretly) talking to this guy...and i really like him and ik he likes me...and i have super fcking severe ass despression nothing makes me happy except him...ik it sounds pathetic 'i won't kill myself if you let me get a boyfriend' but thats litterally the only argument i have with my parentss...but even my therapist agrees with me! she thinks hes good for me...

but also i don't want to screw me and his realationship together...any advice??

pain in the body silences pain in the mind...

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "I GOTTA RANT FOR A MIN

sooooooooooooo my parents are super fcking strict and they won't let me date, but ive been (secretly) talking to this guy...and i really like him and ik he..."
yeah thank yaa <33 im thinking of aking my therapist to talk to my mom...ill let you know how it goes

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "pain in the body silences pain in the mind..."

Did you break your streak??"

no😁 but I fcking wanted to lol

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "pain in the body silences pain in the mind..."

Did you break your streak??"

no😁 but I fcking wanted to lol"

I u..."
make it to Wednesday 😣 do you want to do it with me ? <3

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "How are you feeling today?"

meh...I'm hanging out with my friend + going to volleyball so its good I guess...
does it count as sh if it doesn't bleed lol cause I dont think so

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "Yes ml it does count as SH. You still intended to hurt yourself I assume. I'm sorry 😭

Hope hanging with your friend and volleyball are fun though!!"

thank you! but like its high-key already healed...🙄 kinda

I wish I felt loved in my own home

Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "savannah💖 wrote: "Barnette ⋆˙⟡ (my girlfriend's version) wrote: "Yes ml it does count as SH. You still intended to hurt yourself I assume. I'm sorry 😭

Hope hanging with your friend and volleyball..."

yeah...u wanna do it with me?

idek who I am...🕴🫥

Overall Day Rating: 5...?/10
Emotions/Mood: idk I feel like I don't exist...high-key depresso LMAO
Stress/Panic Attacks: 1.5?
Outfit: I don't remember
Glasses/Bottles of Water Drank: 2
Least Favorite Thing About Myself/Day: body/eating/feeling invisible/I'm not a good friend
Something I'm Grateful For: heating
Something to Look Forward To: TMRW
Song of the Day: OMFG - lil peep

I DISGUST myself

I WISH I WISH I could throw everything my fatass eats but I fcking cant idk why I'm a terrible daughter I'm wasteful I hate that I exist I cant even look at myself why do I think people want to look at me I'm selfish

bb you are not disgusting and you are not selfish. I don't know you well but you are beautiful ml

Aspen~Ella wrote: "bb you are not disgusting and you are not selfish. I don't know you well but you are beautiful ml"

thank you...but I'm not... you are <3

no. babes you are absolutely beautiful. don't let anyone tell you otherwise

i told myself. bc its true. im fat. my face is too chubby and im getting a double chin. my legs are too big and so are my arms. my eyes are too big and so are my lips. i hate my forehead.

but it reflects off my interior too. me as a person isn't that great either.

I refuse to believe that. I don't care what you think. I know you are beautiful inside and out.

thank you <3 your really sweet
but I cant help this feeling of being so so so empty

I know. its really hard. Ive been there. I'm here if you ever need me