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Lily Belle , Mod
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May 21, 2026 08:01AM
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I’ve never really had a crush before.I don’t understand what people mean when they talk about butterflies or being unable to stop thinking about someone. I’ve dated before, but mostly because they liked me first. I never really looked at someone and felt it.
I don’t really see gender when it comes to love. I always say “guys” when I talk about dating, but honestly, I think I’d be okay with anyone who treated me gently and made me feel understood.
It’s strange, because I’m awkward and quiet and bad at showing things, but I still think about love a lot. like wondering what it would feel like to finally understand what everyone else seems to understand so naturally.
Sometimes I think I care more about who I’d become in love than the person themselves. Like maybe if someone truly loved me, I’d finally have a reason to try harder, to stop being so tired all the time, to become the version of myself I know I could be.
I wonder if one day I’ll grow into it. If I’ll ever meet someone and finally understand what a crush is supposed to feel like. If someone will ever love me in a way that i can feel too, and if I’ll know how to love them back.
you might... I don't know love truly I've had crushes and I dated this girl for 3 years we broke up before my birthday in march this year... and it was hard. she didn't really do well with communication and I didn't understand how to help so I split it off. honestly relationships rely on honesty and trying to understand isn't like books or movies at all getting close to someone and learning their qualities it takes time and motivation to be close to someone
I actually agree I would be so hesitant in my relationships-but the one relationship i was in we eventually broke up because she wanted more and I didn't, and was bad at communicating that i did actually want more, I just wasn't good at expressing it

