Mental Health Awareness Group discussion

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Hi everyone, and welcome to my journal! 😊 Anyone is welcome to comment here, and I will always include a trigger warning when necessary. I'll probably use this journal occasionally to vent, as well as to set goals and post check-ins.

So I fear that I made this a few days ago and started overthinking what I was going to write for my first message but I know that I should hold myself accountable because I said I was going to use this and I'm just going to go for it 😛

**Content Warning** Family conflict, anxiety, chronic pain

This is just a full out vent:

I feel like my family is falling apart.

My dad is always working, not because he wants to be, but because his job is so demanding. I only get to see him at like 11 p.m. every once in a while. I know he's just trying to take care of our family, but it still breaks me.

My mom has way too much to deal with. She's constantly in pain because of her back issues, and she struggles with severe anxiety. A lot of the time, she ends up taking her stress out on me and my sister. Then she'll immediately regret yelling at us and apologize. I don't really blame her for it, but it's such a frustrating, endless cycle.

My dad wants my mom to go to therapy. I agree that therapy could help her, but I also think she has to want to go herself. She's too worried about the cost (fuck the US healthcare system) to seriously consider it right now. My dad doesn't seem to understand that. Whenever my mom starts to spiral which is pretty much every day) he brings up therapy like a weapon. I know he genuinely wants to help her, but he always goes about it the wrong way. My mom immediately gets defensive, they start yelling at each other, then they both apologize, and before long they're repeating the exact same cycle.

Watching all of this happen over and over again is exhausting. I love both of my parents, and I know they're both trying their best in their own ways, but it feels like everyone is drowning.

I feel so tired all the time. My parents don't say it but I know they think I'm lazy. I try to help out as much as I can, but I just feel like I never have the energy anymore. I also can't sleep even though I'm exhausted. I can never sleep when I need to. And when I sleep in late, I still never feel rested. I'm so tired.

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Liv ~mon chérie~ fly high, telly wrote: "Hey Sam! I just looked at your bio and OMG BLUEY IS MY HAPPY PLACE HONESTLY"

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