The outsiders discussion

okay, this folder is for you to share anything. let's get to know eachother here. if you are going through a hard time with school, dating, or anything else put it in the venting/ranting topic :)
it's for you to discuss what is going on in your life. if you just want someone to listen to you post it here :) to be clear this folder is JUST for listening and venting/ranting. if you want advice go post it in the help/advice folder :)

Binder fell on my face today.
Ow.

Also, I was drawing on my laptop on my bed and I was in a slightly weird position with my tablet and I did a few drawings… Then I moved.

MY MUSCLESSSSS

I always have stuff to rant about. But right now I'm blank. Actually, you probably don't want to hear my rants.

Oh, right. Now I remember why I had Steam shut down for a while.

No, I'm not going to restart Steam, so STOP ASKING.

I have a lot of first world problems, don't I?

Haha, this folder is for you to express yourself however you see to it. Though no cussing please ;) just saying that now so I won't have to repeat myself

I twisted my ankle yesterday. Couldn't walk without limping and climb stairs without using the railing and the wall.
It still hurts. I've felt around the painful area and it doesn't feel like I fractured anything and just pulled a tendon, but maybe I'm just in denial.

It feels a bit better now, though, because I like to sit on my own legs and I can now, whereas last night I couldn't.

I am crazy, I talk to myself a lot...haha

Ankle still hurts. BLAAAA

Allie wrote: "Ankle still hurts. BLAAAA"

hope u get better soon

Kendall wrote: "Allie wrote: "Ankle still hurts. BLAAAA"

hope u get better soon"

Thanks!

Allie wrote: "Kendall wrote: "Allie wrote: "Ankle still hurts. BLAAAA"

hope u get better soon"

Thanks!"

Sure, anytime...

So I got up on stage, reading to perform my lines that I stayed up until one in the morning practicing, I got up on stage and FORGOT all my lines. I tried to improvise but failed miserably. i stuttered then stopoped. Everyone sympathetic and haughty gazes on me and I felt like I was going to throw up and I covered my hand over my mouth. I didn't cry (luckily) and I still managed to attend the rest of the class and the rest of the day with what dignity I still had left. I'm dreading next monday when I have to go to that class again. I'm very disappointed in me and abit embarassed but I've had so many embarassing moments that this time I'm like "been there, done that" but this time was alittle more embarassing than that.

What do I do? I'm embarassed, nervous, disappointed, angry, frustrated and depressed.

Should I skip that class and huddle in the library instead? (Although I can't because the teacher checks whose here and if I'm not, I'll be in huge trouble)

I don't know what I should do. Has anyone else got major stage fright? I feel like this only happens to me and I feel so alone. Not even my friends understand what I'm going through.

Crowds are just not my thing. Why do I have to be out in the spotlight? Why cant everyone just let me be an outsider?

And then after that, people in that class came up to me, talking in their honey sweet voices and fake smiles and I felt violent at that moment. I'll wont cuss or wish evil against anyone else, after all it was my fault, but I little genuine sympathy or even a hug? I don't know. Maybe they didn't want to catch an outsiders germs?

I'm sorry you guys, I should really stop talking :)

Alice♥Pardon me,but you've obviously mistaken me wrote: "So I got up on stage, reading to perform my lines that I stayed up until one in the morning practicing, I got up on stage and FORGOT all my lines. I tried to improvise but failed miserably. i stutt..."

*hugs* oh, it is okay. i know. stage fright. *shakes head* i think anyone can relate. :)
one time i got so scared i literally ran off stage because i couldn't face everyone staring at me.
maybe if you look away from the crowd or like think of something that gives you confidance. like a funny joke a friend says.
i forget who but someone said 'the only thing you have to fear is fear itself'.
i know that probably doesn't help much :)
remember you have something important to say though :)
hope i helped.

Cat wrote: "Alice♥Pardon me,but you've obviously mistaken me wrote: "So I got up on stage, reading to perform my lines that I stayed up until one in the morning practicing, I got up on stage and FORGOT all my ..."

Thanks Cat, reading your reply made me smile. :)

I've just got to go out there and face the music (and the teacher, see what she's going to say about my performance)

Thank you,
Alice