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Are you a cutter?

last night was bad my gf well was till last night cheated on me with my best friend and now shes rubbing it in my face and well last night i started cutting really bad it still hurts bad

john wrote: "last night was bad my gf well was till last night cheated on me with my best friend and now shes rubbing it in my face and well last night i started cutting really bad it still hurts bad"

John, I'm sorry that that happened to you! Your first time to cut? When I was a cutter it became and addiction, you have to remember that the scars are only going to affect you in the long run, and that A girl isnt worth the eberlasting trauma! I am here for you instead of cutting! You should know that living to see another day is always better than the few seconds of pain released cause you will hurt worse later! :)
Love your Friend Amber

its the 15 time ive cut and its bad bc my bestfriend only wanted her for her u know what so now i want to die and hurt him bad

john wrote: "its the 15 time ive cut and its bad bc my bestfriend only wanted her for her u know what so now i want to die and hurt him bad"

You need to remember that he is your BESTFRIEND! Don't let his stupidity hurt you more. Be the better person about it! Hold tight to what you know is right, which isnt cutting! Do you believe in Jesus?

i do now since last year i had doubts but god came and helped me now hes sowing me ppl are there and they do care

Praise him, and all his glory! :)
Do you think that he wants you to hurt yourself?

no i just got disacted from his fait but now ik that since i can talk about it i know i can turn right back to him

Good! I am here for you hun! Not as a MOD, but a friend! :)

thnk you guys for everything i neeed this day to be better and u guys didnt make it better u made it fantastic

i wil and u guys made me belive i could

john wrote: "thnk you guys for everything i neeed this day to be better and u guys didnt make it better u made it fantastic"

I feel, restful now that you are having a better day! :)
and.. don't forget you live a couple towns away from me!! ;) I'll come steal you when I get my drivers license :)

Hannah B wrote: "Of course they do. He loves you and people are there to listen to you. I felt once like he didn't care. I had temporary depression. I hated my life and I would think about suicide but finally I rea..."

That is a wonderful thing Hannah! Good questions!

i tried... i cut myself on my thigh to get some blood and sign a contract to myself that i will never fall in love again because i fell in love with a straight guy!!!!!! i did that but it was not legal so i did a lot of whoring afterwards,,, =P hahahaha

Then I also cut myself to consecrate a set of Tarot Cards I bought... Each was smeared with a drop of my blood... I just think it was cool to imprint them with it...

Then I think the last time I cut myself was last year, 9 months ago... i really wanted to die back then... long story which i would write down and share some time. I have no cutter so i tried using a sim card to slash my wrist hahaha it was a pitiful decision.. maybe i did not really want to do it at all.

Normally that will be the case! But if you ever feel like you can't go on I am here for you!

thnxs u guys il be on later byyyeeeee

john wrote: "thnxs u guys il be on later byyyeeeee"

I'll be gone at 11:30, but Hannah will hopefuly be here! :) Have a blessed day John! :) *Hugs you, and Kisses your forehead*

Hannah B wrote: "♥Amber wrote: "john wrote: "thnk you guys for everything i neeed this day to be better and u guys didnt make it better u made it fantastic"

I feel, restful now that you are having a better day! :)..."

:)

BYE PEOPLE!!!!! 11:30??? is it am or pm? amber, u r from TX right?? i am from the philippines.. so we have a 12 hour difference is that correct??? it is currently 11.05 pm here on my end

AM here! Good night John!

it's 10:13 here! :)

♥Amber wrote: "john wrote: "thnk you guys for everything i neeed this day to be better and u guys didnt make it better u made it fantastic"

I feel, restful now that you are having a better day! :)
and.. don't..."

ik right and were do u live

john wrote: "♥Amber wrote: "john wrote: "thnk you guys for everything i neeed this day to be better and u guys didnt make it better u made it fantastic"

I feel, restful now that you are having a better day! ..."

Granbury TX!
;p

no way sweeet

Yeah!!! :P I'm sooooo stealing you after May! :))

really now mabey we can go to church sometime or to the .................... movies? lol

john wrote: "really now mabey we can go to church sometime or to the .................... movies? lol"

After may when I get my drivers licence :) but that sounds really awesome, I go to Generations on 377! Idk if you know where that is!

idk were thats at but i can find out

Hannah B wrote: "I live in South Carolina so I'm not like super far away from you Amber."

Awesome!! You are right you arent~!~

john wrote: "idk were thats at but i can find out"

LOL! :)

when will u be back on amber

john wrote: "when will u be back on amber"

Tommorrow, around 8ish or so! :))

i am to byee amber ill miss ya and thanxs hannah

well hannah can i have some advice

i have 10 brothers and sisters and well since um 2 years ago after one of them took sylivia the drug hes been diffrent like he never got to the point of wanting to be so mad every sec idk what to do

i live with them all and hes gotten worse i mean worse

we have and its like he forgets and then after its done he remebers before it happened and he see the same docter i do thats taken care of

john wrote: "we have and its like he forgets and then after its done he remebers before it happened and he see the same docter i do thats taken care of"

wow is this drug a prescription drug or is it illegAL?

I found out a few weeks ago that my best friend used to cut... :(
She doesn't anymore thank god.

EJ, Zombie, Stronghammer wrote: "I found out a few weeks ago that my best friend used to cut... :(
She doesn't anymore thank god."

thank god...

Once I considered cutting, but I figured it's totally not worth it and even if I tried I'd probably fail at it because I just... yeah.

Sometimes, I'll intentionally dig my fingernails into my skin or snap rubber bands on my wrists. It never bleeds. It doesn't even really hurt me. I just do it when I'm bored, and I kind of like the tiny sting it gives me. Nothing major and nothing scarring. It entertains me a bit. Although my biggest habit is to pull on my ear, so. But none of that is really self-destructive.

I sed torun my fingers over ravor blades and run the across my wrists. I never did it beacause I felt bad. I just did it, and I stoppd

Andromeda Nicole wrote: "I sed torun my fingers over ravor blades and run the across my wrists. I never did it beacause I felt bad. I just did it, and I stoppd"

that is so true... sometimes we do not really want to do it... just trying...

Kat wrote: "Once I considered cutting, but I figured it's totally not worth it and even if I tried I'd probably fail at it because I just... yeah.

Sometimes, I'll intentionally dig my fingernails into my skin..."

well i like scratching and picking on my scabs... does it make you feel better you sound more normal =P

lol

im back guys sorry job held me back for awhile hi john how r u

I've thought about cutting I mean I thinking about it right now...I hold the razor
it pierces the skin
sorrow flows
nothing changes
another...
another...
and another....
silence and a cold stare is what you see from me

midnigtmystery wrote: "I've thought about cutting I mean I thinking about it right now...I hold the razor
it pierces the skin
sorrow flows
nothing changes
another...
another...
..."

sometimes i cut myself just to taste blood...

and i love tasting this certain bittersweet bodily fluid if you know what i mean =P

blood is my guess but i cant say the other

john wrote: "blood is my guess but i cant say the other"

John you may message me one on one! if you need! :)
I hope you feel better today! :)
Missed you, and you were in my prayers! :)