hannah

“Often, when I'm with her I have a tingling sensation of the present moment, even- or especially- when she reaches into her remarkable memory for tales of long-gone
times. She has always rejected the idea of eternity, and even the idea of living, like Wells and Gorky, for future generations, in favor of living in the here and now. "The most ferocious immanance," she called it... the hours of its operation mattered to her. She wished to know precisely when the water gushed and when it lay still. She watches the world and herself in the world (mind, body, feelings) with great intensity. "I always wanted to know myself before I die," she writes. "I worship time! I cherish it!" she told me now. "As a child, I felt it, the weight of time.”
― Kennedy Fraser, Ornament and Silence