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“She says she’s proud of me. I think she might say it only to reassure herself that she’s a good mother.”
― Sarah Jackson, A Bit Much

“I’m a coward. I run from knowing everything. I avoid thinking about the ocean or space—they’re too big. I can’t grasp death. The immensity, the finality, if you don’t believe there’s a place where someone is waiting for you. I don’t know what to do with something so immovable. To know you can see someone only by looking back.”
― Sarah Jackson, A Bit Much

“There’s always been a part of me that is vast and empty. Though I have a vivid inner life and find so much meaning in books, art, writing, and relationships, there’s something deep inside me that feels like an insatiable pit. No matter the circumstances, there’s never enough. Maybe that’s one way to describe my depression: a bottomless desire for which I will destroy everything in my path in a fruitless attempt to satisfy. Beauty in its various forms is what makes me feel most complete—a poem that obliterates me, a painting that makes me gasp, a song that fills me with inexplicable wonder. But once that passes, it’s there again: the absence, the void, the need, the gaping hole of nothingness.”
― Erika L. Sánchez, Crying in the Bathroom

“Women’s pain has always been oversimplified and disregarded. What is not understood is conveniently assigned to the ethereal.”
― Erika L. Sánchez, Crying in the Bathroom