Hubert

“قالت الآنسة ماربل :" إن المحادثات دائماً ما تكون خطيرة ، إذا كان عندك شيء تخفيه ”
― أجاثا كريستي

“Little Engine That Could - "I think I can. I think I can. I think I can. I know I can.”
― Watty Piper, The Little Engine That Could

“Jednom sam čučao nasred potoka i promatrao jednog malog pauka kako pokušava prebaciti svoju nit na drugu stranu. On je, činilo se, bio odlučio napraviti najveću mrežu na cijelom potoku i zato je izabrao mjesto gdje je potok bio najširi. Pričvrstio bi svoju nit, skočio u zrak i pao u vodu. Voda bi ga ponijela, on bi iz sve snage plivao, uspentrao bi se na obalu i vratio do iste one paprati. Onda bi ponovo pokušao. Kad se treći put vratio na paprat, do-puzao je do vrška jedne grane i legao; prednjih nogu prekriženih ispod brade, proučavao je vodu. Pretpostavljao sam da je bio blizu toga da odustane - ja sam bio, guzica mi se bila ukočila zbog zime od čučanja u hladnoj vodi. On je ležao tamo proučavajući i razmišljajući. Onda mu je nešto palo na pamet! Počeo je skakati gore dolje, gore dolje, i grana se počela njihati gore dolje. I dalje je tako skakao, skakao... i onda, iznenada, kad je grana bila jako visoko, odskočio je, raširio svoj kišobran - i uspio!
Bio je sav ponosan i skakao od oduševljenja, dok skoro nije pao u vodu. Na kraju je ipak napravio najveću mrežu koju sam ikada vidio.”
― Forrest Carter, Malo drvo

“The truth is you already know what it's like. You already know the difference between the size and speed of everything that flashes through you and the tiny inadequate bit of it all you can ever let anyone know. As though inside you is this enormous room full of what seems like everything in the whole universe at one time or another and yet the only parts that get out have to somehow squeeze out through one of those tiny keyholes you see under the knob in older doors. As if we are all trying to see each other through these tiny keyholes.

But it does have a knob, the door can open. But not in the way you think...The truth is you've already heard this. That this is what it's like. That it's what makes room for the universes inside you, all the endless inbent fractals of connection and symphonies of different voices, the infinities you can never show another soul. And you think it makes you a fraud, the tiny fraction anyone else ever sees? Of course you're a fraud, of course what people see is never you. And of course you know this, and of course you try to manage what part they see if you know it's only a part. Who wouldn't? It's called free will, Sherlock. But at the same time it's why it feels so good to break down and cry in front of others, or to laugh, or speak in tongues, or chant in Bengali--it's not English anymore, it's not getting squeezed through any hole.

So cry all you want, I won't tell anybody.”
― David Foster Wallace, Oblivion