Nessarichi

“I imagined needing to put in extra work all the time, as though you were writing backwards when everyone around you was writing normally. Then showing someone what you’d worked so hard to achieve with your unsteady hand, only for it to be taken for granted and them to say, “I knew you could do it if you tried.” Having to write backwards your whole life, with no one even noticing—maybe this was your experience of the world.”
― Rin Usami

“What did it mean to be nice and capable? Did it mean I couldn’t say no to things?”
― Park Seolyeon, A Magical Girl Retires

“What Akari felt is not only isolation but irritation and disappointment towards herself because she couldn’t achieve anything, no matter what she tried. And discomfort at the fact of having to keep living each day in spite of this. Yet, she could wholeheartedly put utmost effort when it comes to the act of oshi. Allowing her to feel that she was living freely, unlike her experience in other parts of her life. Rather than fulfilling an isolation, I think she used her fandom to encourage and energise herself.”
― Rin Usami

“My living, moving oshi would be lost as soon as the show was over, but I wanted to take in every drop of what he was giving us, from the first look to the last breath. I wanted to remember that sensation of sitting alone in my seat feeling my chest fill up, to keep it with me, and I wanted the photos and the videos and the merch that would point me back to it.”
― Rin Usami, Idol, Burning