Eden

“he asked if I liked girls. I wanted to say: my chief sexual preference is that I don’t like you.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times

“Some mornings I didn’t leave the bed because then I’d have to brush my teeth, followed by a series of actions that amounted to living my life as the person I was. I was unable to drum up positivity about either dental hygiene or the rest of my day, so I told myself I was disgusting and lazy and I’d be late and they’d fire me, and then I got up. If you were really sick you couldn’t just harness your self-loathing like that, so I knew I was fine.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times

“he did not want to be my boyfriend. That hurt my ego. I wanted other people to care more about me than I did about them.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times

“flat. I wished Julian were married. It would make me a powerful person who could ruin his life. It would also provide an acceptable reason he did not want us to get too close. The more plausible reading was that he was single and that while I could on occasion discharge the rocket science of making him want to fuck me, he did not want to be my boyfriend. That hurt my ego. I wanted other people to care more about me than I did about them.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times