Eden

“flat. I wished Julian were married. It would make me a powerful person who could ruin his life. It would also provide an acceptable reason he did not want us to get too close. The more plausible reading was that he was single and that while I could on occasion discharge the rocket science of making him want to fuck me, he did not want to be my boyfriend. That hurt my ego. I wanted other people to care more about me than I did about them.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times

“I wanted people to know we were together, but only the ones who wouldn't hurt us for it.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times

“you still put more time and energy into showing you don’t love me than anyone has ever put into showing me they do.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times

“The truth is, you like Julian because he enables this perception you have of yourself as a detached person. Plenty of people are willing to offer you intimacy. That terrifies you. You prefer feeling like no one will ever love you.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times