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“It must have been a nightmare to learn you had a grown child you were never told about. It could have just as easily happened to Marcus, you know."
"Hard to imagine."
"Not really. No matter how careful one is, there's always a risk. As the mother of six children, I ought to know."
Sebastian sent her a bleak glance. "I always knew I'd have to pay for my sins in some future cosmic reckoning. But in my arrogance, it didn't occur to me that a man never bears the cost of his sins alone. The people around him --- especially those who love him --- have to pay as well. That's the worst part of it."
It was the most vulnerable he'd ever allowed himself to be with her.
When Lillian replied, her voice was uncommonly gentle. "Don't be unduly hard on yourself. Ever since you married Evie, you've tried to be the man she deserves. In fact, you've inhabited the role of a good man for so long, I think you may be growing into it. We become our choices, eventually.”
― Lisa Kleypas, Devil in Disguise