John

“In the end, I will become the ghost I always feared. When the fire I kindled in my mind reaches my heart, I will start turning everyone I meet to ashes. So, I speak less and less, withdrawing more and more from the outside world. I navigate a realm that seems devoid of other human beings. I have become isolated in my mind, knowing that I will no longer encounter others, even in my thoughts. I love the solitude, so far below, so far away from life...”
― Rolf van der Wind

“We want to be seen and understood as we truly are, but I also long to remain veiled and unknown. Behind every aspect of our being lies the unspoken possibility of being different from how we present ourselves to others. This is true for me. Why does this distance exist between us? It’s a gap that can't be measured in kilometers or years; it is an emotional and spiritual divide that separates our hearts and minds. I have become someone who avoids personal interaction, and this makes me hesitant to see you again. I worry about the harsh things we might say to each other, which is why I am so cautious about contacting you as often as I should.”
― Rolf van der Wind

“I felt confused about my own life, as if I were living in the mind of a stranger. I wanted to understand her heart. I just wanted to be certain it was the right decision. Love was something I felt deeply but couldn't express, and now that I've said goodbye, I suddenly realize all the things I should have said.”
― Rolf van der Wind

“What fascinated me most were her eyes... with a single glance, she could convey the most intimate message. She had beautiful lips but almost nothing needed to be said with those eyes. Those eyes pierced mine. There are many blue eyes in the world, but her blue eyes meant heaven to me in a way that blue had never meant before.”
― Rolf van der Wind