nana

“It was as if I had become transparent, to the bottom of my heart, you might even call what I felt a sublime nihility.”
― Osamu Dazai, Schoolgirl

“I couldn’t tell what pleasure was anymore. At first you get high to feel good or check out. Then, once you’re using it regularly, it stops feeling good. Your brain can’t check out, it doesn’t get you there. But you don’t learn, you keep taking it just to escape the withdrawal. To forget the chilling despair you feel when you sober up.”
― Izumi Suzuki, Set My Heart on Fire

“People have told me, really more times than I can remember, ever since I was a small boy, how lucky I was, but I have always felt as I were suffering in Hell. It has seemed to me in fact that those who called me lucky were incomparably more fortunate than I.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“People depend on their misfortunes. We curse them, but we're actually wedded to them, proud of them even.”
― Yūko Tsushima, Of Dogs and Walls