Rachel

“Somehow, I feel almost blinded myself.
And I am forever left to wonder
Whether telling you how truly special
You were
Might have made a difference.”
― Terri Fields, After the Death of Anna Gonzales

“The game doesn't always go your way.
Forget fair.
Feel forgotten.
But damn it, Anna,

You don't stop playing.”
― Terri Fields, After the Death of Anna Gonzales

“The thing about hearts is that they always want to keep beating”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“Since September,
I sat one seat behind Anna in algebra.
Passed papers to her every day.
Studied for tons of tests together.

Though it often seemed impossible,
Eventually,
We always found the unknown for X.

But not this time.
This equation
Bounces against my brain.
And sneers at all attempted answers.

I know I'll re-examine the variables,
And reanalyze the unknowns, maybe forever.
But
It won't matter.

Because, Anna-
I know I'll never figure out Y.

Y you didn't want to live-
And Y I never noticed.”
― Terri Fields, After the Death of Anna Gonzales