“I feel as if I'm always on the verge of waking up.”
― The Book of Disquiet
― The Book of Disquiet
“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”
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“That day I carried the dream around like a full glass of water, moving gracefully so I would not lose any of it.”
― No One Belongs Here More Than You
― No One Belongs Here More Than You
“i wondered if i would spend the rest of my life inventing complicated ways to depress myself..”
― No One Belongs Here More Than You
― No One Belongs Here More Than You
“Friends: not one. Just a few acquaintances who imagine they feel something for me and who might be sorry if a train ran over me and the funeral was on a rainy day.”
― The Book of Disquiet
― The Book of Disquiet
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