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“Reading was my escape and my comfort, my consolation, my stimulant of choice: reading for the pure pleasure of it, for the beautiful stillness that surrounds you when you hear an author's words reverberating in your head.”
― Paul Auster, The Brooklyn Follies

“Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog

And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's

and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"

because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint

And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed

when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.


Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A

and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went

And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her

but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem

And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think

he could reach the kitchen.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“Solitary. But not in the sense of being alone. Not solitary in the way Thoreau was, for example, exiling himself in order to find out where he was; not solitary in the way Jonah was, praying for deliverance in the belly of the whale. Solitary in the sense of retreat. In the sense of not having to see himself, of not having to see himself being seen by anyone else.”
― Paul Auster, The Invention of Solitude

“Es mucho más fácil no saber las cosas algunas veces. Las cosas cambian. Los amigos se van. Y la vida no se detiene por nadie. Quería reírme. O quizás enojarme. O quizás sentir indiferencia por lo extraño que todos eran, especialmente yo. Creo que la idea es que cada persona tiene que vivir su propia vida y después decidir compartirla con otras personas. No puedes sentarte ahí y poner la vida de todos por encima de la tuya y creer que eso cuenta como amor. No puedes. Tienes que hacer cosas. Voy a hacer lo que quiera hacer. Voy a ser quien realmente soy. Y voy a saber quién es ese. Y todos podríamos sentarnos y preguntarnos y sentirnos mal unos por otros y culpar a muchas personas por lo que hicieron o por lo que no hicieron o por lo que no sabían. No lo sé. Supongo que siempre hay alguien a quien culpar. Es diferente. Quizás es bueno poner las cosas en perspectiva, pero algunas veces, creo que la única perspectiva es realmente estar ahí. Porque está bien sentir. Yo estaba realmente allí. Y eso era suficiente para hacerme sentir infinito. Me siento infinito.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower