Devan

“i refuse to go quietly.

if we are to end this,
you will allow me to mourn from the rooftop,
crumble with enough fury to shake the earth,
and compose myself with enough dignity
to impress us both.

we shall move on,
but not before i respect us enough
to give this the farewell it deserves.”
― Noor Shirazie, Into the Wildfire: Mourning Departures

“The God Thou servest is thine own appetite, wherein is fixed the love of Beelzebub. To Him I'll build an altar and a church, and offer lukewarm blood of new-born babes.”
― Christopher Marlowe, Dr. Faustus

“I wanted to explain myself to myself in an understandable way. I gave shape to my fears and made excuses. I varied my velocities, watched myselves sleep. Something's not right about what I'm doing but I'm still doing it-- living in the worst parts, ruining myself. My inner life is a sheet of black glass. If I fell through the floor I would keep falling.
The enormity of my desire disgusts me.”
― Richard Siken, War of the Foxes

“Nothing in this world is unlike anything else.
So many people will ask you to be

beautiful and urgent, to discover
what you cannot have and desire it.”
― Annelyse Gelman