Alex Haditaghi

“Just You

There are so many voices shouting in the night
So many sounds crashing into my life
But every word they say just falls right through
Because all I ever hear is you
Faces talking, laughter in the room
Lights are shining, everything in bloom
But none of it is cutting through
My world still ends and starts with you
I walk these streets where love once grew
Every step feels empty without you
The city breathes but I don’t move
I’m standing still, chasing you

I’m surrounded but I’m alone
In a crowd but far from home
Since the moment you slipped away
Nothing sounds the same

You could forget me for the rest of your life
I’d remember you till my last breath
You could run to the edge of the world
I’d go further just to feel you again
Time can blur a thousand faces
But your eyes stay clear and true
When everything fades into noise
It’s just you
Yeah it’s just you

There are beautiful things right in front of me
Gold and colors everywhere I see
But my eyes don’t care for any view
They’re only searching out for you
I could be followed by thousands of names
Applause and echoes calling my name
Still none of it feels real or true
If I’m not alone with you
I see people passing by
Living loves and living lies
I look at them but I’m see-through
Because all I see is you

Life keeps moving, I stay behind
Trying to outrun my mind
Since the day you walked away
Everything fell out of place

You could forget me for the rest of your life
I’d remember you till my last breath
You could disappear into new dreams
I’d still be holding onto what we had left
Years can wash away the pain
But they never washed you loose
In every crowded, empty room
It’s just you
Always just you

You could surround yourself with new faces
Fill your nights with different names
You could laugh like I never existed
Like our love was just a phase
You could silence all our conversations
Like they never meant a thing
But every word you ever whispered
Still lives inside of me
I try to listen to the world outside
But I’m deaf to every sound tonight
Since your love slipped through my hands
Nothing holds together like it can

I’m breathing but I’m barely alive
Just surviving, not getting by
Since the moment I lost you
I lost the rhythm too

You could walk away and leave me behind
I’d carry you wherever I go
You could choose to forget what we were
I’d hold every moment I know
You could build a life without me
Like I was never part of you
But my heart only ever learned
Just you
Only you

I look at them, I can’t see or hear
No voice ever reaches here
Crowded rooms feel cold and small
Since we let ourselves fall
If love is seasons then I know
Why the warmth will never show
You were the light, the bloom, the truth
My beginning, my end, my you

If I close my eyes, you’re still there
If I breathe, you’re in the air
Every prayer I never knew
Was always leading back to you

You could move on, start again
Build a world where I don’t exist
But my heart never learned how
To forget the way you kissed
Time can take almost everything
But it couldn’t take the truth
When the world becomes too loud
It’s just you
It’s always you

I look at people, but I don’t see anyone
I hear them talk, but I hear only you
Spring never came back after you
Just you
Just you
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For Katusha”
― Alex Haditaghi