“It feels like I’m drowning just off shore but no one can see me struggling to stay afloat. I’ve been sinking my whole life, occasionally managing to bob to the surface until the current of misery drags me back under. I don’t want to fight for air anymore. I want to get out. Swim to shore. Live on dry land and accept the fact I might have to dip my toe back into the water every once in a while. I want…I want to fight.”
― Broken
― Broken
“I didn't understand why I could not control myself despite my best intentions.”
― Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder
― Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder
“This is my perspective and has always been my perspective on life: I have a very grim, pessimistic view of it. I always have, since I was a little boy. It hasn’t gotten worse with age or anything. I do feel that it’s a grim, painful, nightmarish, meaningless experience, and that the only way that you can be happy is if you tell yourself some lies and deceive yourself.”
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“Believing something existed and then finding out it didn't was like reaching the top of the stairs and thinking there was one more step.”
― Made You Up
― Made You Up
“When you come out of the grips of a depression there is an incredible relief, but not one you feel allowed to celebrate. Instead, the feeling of victory is replaced with anxiety that it will happen again, and with shame and vulnerability when you see how your illness affected your family, your work, everything left untouched while you struggled to survive. We come back to life thinner, paler, weaker … but as survivors. Survivors who don’t get pats on the back from coworkers who congratulate them on making it. Survivors who wake to more work than before because their friends and family are exhausted from helping them fight a battle they may not even understand. I hope to one day see a sea of people all wearing silver ribbons as a sign that they understand the secret battle, and as a celebration of the victories made each day as we individually pull ourselves up out of our foxholes to see our scars heal, and to remember what the sun looks like.”
― Furiously Happy: A Funny Book About Horrible Things
― Furiously Happy: A Funny Book About Horrible Things
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