“ﺍﻟﻄﻤﻮﺡ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﻳﺎ، ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺑﺖ ﻻ ﺍﺣﺐ ﻧﻄﻘﻬﺎ ﻭ ﺣﺰﻓﺖ ﻣﻮﻗﻌﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺍﺳﻄﺮ ﻟﻐﺘﻲ ﻭ ﺍﺳﺘﺒﺪﻟﺘﻬﺎ ﺑﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﻫﺪﻑ .. ﺍﻧﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﻙ ﻳﻮﻣﺂ ﻷﺟﻞ ﻃﻤﻮﺣﺎﺗﻲ ﺑﻞ ﺃﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ .. ﻟﻄﺎﻟﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻒ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻒ ﺃﺷﺎﻫﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻠﻘﺔ ﺑﺄﻗﺼﻰ ﺳﺮﻋﺔ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻃﺮﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﻳﺎﻡ ﻭ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻴﻦ ﻭ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺇﻻ ﻇﻬﺮﻙ .. ﻟﻄﺎﻟﻤﺎ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ " ﺳﺘﺒﻠﻎ ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺪ ﻳﻮﻣﺂ ﻭ ﺳﺘﻌﻮﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ " ﻭ ﺃﺷﻐﻠﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺘﻌﻤﻴﺮ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻼﺣﻈﻴﻪ ﻭ ﺑﺘﺮﻣﻴﻢ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﺸﻘﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻧﻬﻴﺎﺭ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺷﻴﺪﺗﻪ .. ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺩﻋﻪ ﻳﻨﻬﺎﺭ ﻟﺘﻌﻮﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻲ ﻧﻘﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺃﻧﺎ .
ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺠﻞ ﺍﻷﻣﻮﺭ ﻭ ﺃﻋﻴﺶ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ﺑﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﻭ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺑﺒﻂﺀ .. ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻭﺩﺕ ﺑﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮﻳﻦ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻃﺮﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﺃﻭﺩﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻓﻴﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻃﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ .
ﻣﻬﻨﺪﺳﺔ .. ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ﻻ ﻳﺤﺼﻮﻥ .. ﻣﻌﺠﺒﻮﻥ .. ﻣﻨﻈﻤﺎﺕ ﻃﻮﻋﻴﺔ .. ﻭ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻘﺼﻮﺩﺓ ﺟﻌﻠﺖ ﺍﺣﺮﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﻤﻚ ﻳﺘﺮﺩﺩ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺷﻔﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻭ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺒﻘﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻃﻤﻮﺣﺎﺗﻚ .. ﺍﺫﻛﺮ ﺍﻧﻚ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺳﺘﺸﺘﺮﻳﻦ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻭ ﺳﺘﺴﺎﻓﺮﻳﻦ ﺍﻟﻲ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺩﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ .. ﺃﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﻤﻠﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ ؟ ! .. ﻟﺮﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﻤﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺿﻔﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﻓﻬﻲ ﻗﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﻣﺘﺠﺪﺩﺓ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺛﺎﺑﺘﻪ .. ﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﻳﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻧﻚ ﻧﺴﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻀﻌﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﺧﻄﺔ ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﻭ ﻧﺴﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻀﻌﻴﻨﻲ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﺛﻢ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﻣﻨﻚ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻷﺣﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ " ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﺗﻨﻲ ﺑﻄﻤﻮﺣﺎﺗﻚ .”
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ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺠﻞ ﺍﻷﻣﻮﺭ ﻭ ﺃﻋﻴﺶ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ﺑﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﻭ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺑﺒﻂﺀ .. ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻭﺩﺕ ﺑﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮﻳﻦ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻃﺮﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﺃﻭﺩﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻓﻴﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻃﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ .
ﻣﻬﻨﺪﺳﺔ .. ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ﻻ ﻳﺤﺼﻮﻥ .. ﻣﻌﺠﺒﻮﻥ .. ﻣﻨﻈﻤﺎﺕ ﻃﻮﻋﻴﺔ .. ﻭ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻘﺼﻮﺩﺓ ﺟﻌﻠﺖ ﺍﺣﺮﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﻤﻚ ﻳﺘﺮﺩﺩ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺷﻔﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻭ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺒﻘﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻃﻤﻮﺣﺎﺗﻚ .. ﺍﺫﻛﺮ ﺍﻧﻚ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺳﺘﺸﺘﺮﻳﻦ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻭ ﺳﺘﺴﺎﻓﺮﻳﻦ ﺍﻟﻲ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺩﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ .. ﺃﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﻤﻠﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ ؟ ! .. ﻟﺮﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﻤﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺿﻔﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﻓﻬﻲ ﻗﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﻣﺘﺠﺪﺩﺓ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺛﺎﺑﺘﻪ .. ﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﻳﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻧﻚ ﻧﺴﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻀﻌﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﺧﻄﺔ ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﻭ ﻧﺴﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻀﻌﻴﻨﻲ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﺛﻢ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﻣﻨﻚ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻷﺣﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ " ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﺗﻨﻲ ﺑﻄﻤﻮﺣﺎﺗﻚ .”
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“منذ أن رأيتك أول مرة في تولوز ال"public club" وقعت في ورطة كبيرة معك، و قد ازداد تورطي بك حين صادفتك قبل يومين و انت تنزلين سلم "EDC" درجة فدرجة، حين كانت خصلات شعرك تغطي خديك، في اي ورطة وقعت بالتحديد و في حب ماذا وقعت تحديدآ، عينيك الكبيرتين البرجوازيتين، ام شعرك الجميل الطويل المتدلي على كامل ظهرك، الشفاه الممتلئة التي يفلت من بينها صوت رقيق و هادئ، الشفاه التي تحفز المرء لأخذ قبلة منها، الضحكة البسيطة النادرة و الخجولة، اكتافك الضيقة الممتدة تحت عنقك، خصرك المشدود الذي يجرني نحوه بوحشية رجل بربري هجمي، قوامك القصير الذي يأخذ بعيني الى هاوية لا نهاية لها، البرتقالتين المكورتين المنتصبتين كعمودين على صدرك، بشرتك الناعمة الطاغية على ثلثي جمالك، ملابسك البسيطة التي فشلت في تغطية أي شيء من كل هذا، كنت أعرف أنك تريدين مني ان انجرف لكل هذا، ان اخطو دائمآ بإتجاهك متجاهلآ الاخريات، ان أتورط بك حد القاع، ان اقول كلمة ما، و لكنني في كل مرة نلتقي فيها لا اضيف كلمة واحدة الى الكلمات المتكررة التي مللت سماعها مني، و لا اخطو بإتجاهك سوى نصف خطوة و اتراجع خطوة كاملة، متظاهرآ بعدم الإنتباه لكل هذا، يا لحظي البائس، انني رجل تعيس لم يعد قادرآ على الغرق في أعماق حب فاتن الى هذه الدرجة، إن عواطفي المتحجرة غير قادرة على مد بستان مخضر و نابض بكل هذا الوضوح المخيف بقطرة ماء واحدة.”
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“إن قوانين الله هي التقدم، هي طريقة حياة، هذه القوانين التي تبني أكثر المجتمعات تقدمآ و تحضرآ، و لما كان مهلك الحضارات و مدمر المجتمعات هو الانفتاح، و لما كان الانفتاح شريكآ دائمآ للحضارة و التقدم، و لما كانت الرزيلة رفيقآ دائمآ للانفتاح، كان الله قد وضع قوانيه لصيانة و حفظ المجتمع من الانفتاح في ظل التقدم و التطور و الحضارة، ان قوانين الله و شريعته ليستا عودة الى الرجعية، لا يستوى عند عقل ان تكون رسالة الله لنا اننا خلقنا لنعمر الارض و من ثم يضع الله قوانين لنا ليرجعنا الى الوراء، شيئنا ام ابينا، شريعة الله هي الطريق الحقيقي الى التقدم و الرقي، و هي لم و لا و لن تتصادم مع متطلبات العصر الحديث، بل انها تقدره و تبني معه مجتمع الرفاهية و العدل و الحق و السلام و الشجاعة و التقدم.”
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“The twanging of life
Thirteenth part : The essence of the beauty is unity in variety
We are only able to contempt and treat people in a bad way, when we forget that the other person belongs to us and to the society as well as we too, when we only forget that in the form of doing the action, there is a strong relationship between the subject and the object so avarice, violence, egoism, sadness and looking at others as pawns of market's chess to get money arise from losing their unity, from forgetting their spirit of cooperation and collaboration and then starting perceiving others in terms of their individual differences.
A humanitarian action that isn't intended to be done can make a huge storm of humanity, a single word can give people the feeling of unity, just like every time when a person passes by you and you say for him "السلام عليكم" both of you start to feel like there is a candle within both of you turning into clemency, the more love, the more mercy and the more salaam you show on your face the more light is reflected form that candle, you should start thinking that, greeting the people is proclamations of peace, every time you say "السلام عليكم" to a stranger your heart admits over and over again that we are all united, what I am trying to say is, in your heart's deepest place where the onus of your ego are fallen to pieces and the enigma of your soul is infiltrated, you find the awareness isn't different in any way from what all others may find, the mutuality of Sudanese people is appeared as the sun in the morning but only when our own humanness is surpassed our own dishumanness by accepting that we are all one in the fact that we are all made of diversified differences.
We are all equal in the fact that our own society is made by different tribes, we are all the same in the fact that we will never have the same colour, life, thinking, dreams, feelings and luxury, we are united by the reality that Sudan is able to combine all colours, all cultures, all tribes and all of us in the fact that every one believes his tribe and culture are distinguished and individual, we are compatible in the reality that we are all recaptured to this country by the same history, the same conditions of living and the longest river in the world that all of them together give us a light to shine the darkness that covers the sky to allow for us to walk as one hand in the right direction, we don't share the colours but we share the blood, we aren't equal in existence of happiness but we drink River Nile's water that keeps us alive, we are different in existence of tribes but we share the same air that is blended by our breath, so I am you as much as I am me and you are me as much as I am you.
Finally swingeing internal ructions and overmuch narcissism of a society devastate the tissue of its unity, not the differences of that society, Lord Robin said that unity begins at home within family is the strength to survive and win the fight of life.”
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Thirteenth part : The essence of the beauty is unity in variety
We are only able to contempt and treat people in a bad way, when we forget that the other person belongs to us and to the society as well as we too, when we only forget that in the form of doing the action, there is a strong relationship between the subject and the object so avarice, violence, egoism, sadness and looking at others as pawns of market's chess to get money arise from losing their unity, from forgetting their spirit of cooperation and collaboration and then starting perceiving others in terms of their individual differences.
A humanitarian action that isn't intended to be done can make a huge storm of humanity, a single word can give people the feeling of unity, just like every time when a person passes by you and you say for him "السلام عليكم" both of you start to feel like there is a candle within both of you turning into clemency, the more love, the more mercy and the more salaam you show on your face the more light is reflected form that candle, you should start thinking that, greeting the people is proclamations of peace, every time you say "السلام عليكم" to a stranger your heart admits over and over again that we are all united, what I am trying to say is, in your heart's deepest place where the onus of your ego are fallen to pieces and the enigma of your soul is infiltrated, you find the awareness isn't different in any way from what all others may find, the mutuality of Sudanese people is appeared as the sun in the morning but only when our own humanness is surpassed our own dishumanness by accepting that we are all one in the fact that we are all made of diversified differences.
We are all equal in the fact that our own society is made by different tribes, we are all the same in the fact that we will never have the same colour, life, thinking, dreams, feelings and luxury, we are united by the reality that Sudan is able to combine all colours, all cultures, all tribes and all of us in the fact that every one believes his tribe and culture are distinguished and individual, we are compatible in the reality that we are all recaptured to this country by the same history, the same conditions of living and the longest river in the world that all of them together give us a light to shine the darkness that covers the sky to allow for us to walk as one hand in the right direction, we don't share the colours but we share the blood, we aren't equal in existence of happiness but we drink River Nile's water that keeps us alive, we are different in existence of tribes but we share the same air that is blended by our breath, so I am you as much as I am me and you are me as much as I am you.
Finally swingeing internal ructions and overmuch narcissism of a society devastate the tissue of its unity, not the differences of that society, Lord Robin said that unity begins at home within family is the strength to survive and win the fight of life.”
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“تعلمت أن الحياة لا تقف عند الاشخاص، فأكتسبت قوة التخلي و الابتعاد و القبول، حتى صار الاشخاص يدخلون حياتي و في قلوبهم كره لي و يغادرونها و في قلوبهم حب لي، او يدخلونها بحب و يغادرونها بكره، و في الحالتين لا أتأثر بشئ، لا اتمسك بأحد و لا اجبر احد على البقاء و لا استرجي احد ان يكون بجواري عند موتي، و اقبل قرار كل شخص اراد البقاء او المغادرة بصدر رحب واسع، لربما هذا هو السبب الذي ترك في دواخل كل الذين احبوني احساس يقول لهم، بأنني لا ارغب بهم بقدر رغبتهم بي، و برغم كل ذلك و علمي اليقين بعدد الاشخاص الذين خسرتهم الا أنني مؤمن جدآ، أن انفطار القلب قد يفني الزهور و لكنه لا يقتل بذورها، لأن اخر محطة يمكنني الوصول إليها في تعاملي مع الأخرين و علاقتهم بي هي، أنني لست وصيآ على أحد، كما انه لا يحق لي ان احكم على احد او ان اضع تصورآ فكريآ، سواء ايجابي او سلبي عنه.”
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