Cassidy

“They either come back or they don’t.
That’s what you tell yourself.
That’s what you learn.
As you go through mundane days
with so much of pain beating in your
chest that you feel it will explode.

You strike days off your calendar,
waiting, going for a run,
picking up a new hobby,
while trying to numb that part
of your brain that refuses to forget
the little details of your skin.

Soon, you start sleeping in the
middle of the bed, learn how to
get through the evenings alone,
go to cafes and cities alone,
you learn how to cook enough
dinner for yourself and just make
do without the kisses on your neck.

You learn…Adjust..Accept..
The tumor of pain already exploded
one lonely night when you played
his voice recording by mistake.. by mistake..
But you didn’t die.. Did you?

They either come back.. or they don’t..
You survive..”
― Ayushee Ghoshal, 4 AM Conversations

“But hers was a strange heart, sad in its very nature, and she could never weep and ease it as other women do, for her tears never brought her comfort.”
― Pearl S. Buck, The Good Earth

“People love each other for many reasons, not all of them good [...]. They love each other because it's easy. Or because they're used to it. Or because they've given up. Or because they're scared.”
― Nathan Hill, The Nix

“Men like you happen once. Women like me prefer to live our lives cautiously with your after taste, lessons and splinters of broken heart underneath our tongues.”
― Ayushee Ghoshal, 4 AM Conversations