Laura Stalnacker

“admitted I was powerless over food,
that my life had become uninhabitable.
Sure, there are folks who speak of lives
unmanageable, but my life was always that!
It took more to push me to the admission.
I had a Hell Year when I turned 50
and it took me another ten to reach the crevice,
to fall off the edge, to give up and go
where a counselor had directed me for years,
to the rooms of recovery. I knew she was right
but I wasn’t broken enough to go. Unmanageable,
I could life in. Uninhabitable I couldn’t.
I fought it for nigh on sixty years
but when I finally couldn’t keep on pretending,
continue making do, I found what I needed,
what I could finally accept, and soar out of there
to recovery.”
― Barbara B. Rollins