Chantelle

“I have decided that I am happier than I have ever been in my life. And yet,’ he assured them with great and solemn sincerity, ‘I would crawl over your dead, burnt bodies if it meant getting to absolutely anything deep-fried.”
― Mary Doria Russell, The Sparrow

“The world is guaranteed to change, as everything does, but the sickness inside you could last forever, becoming more of itself while you become less. But if you begin to accept your illness, or even to love it, you worry that you might want to keep it around. You think, when you feel bad, that you will never long for it, but in truth you do, since it provides such clear instruction for existing, brings with it the sharpened optics of life without futurity, the purity of the double vision of any life lived on the line.”
― Anne Boyer, The Undying: A Meditation on Modern Illness

“To be declared with certainty ill while feeling with certainty fine is to fall on the hardness of language without being given even an hour of soft uncertainty in which to steady oneself with preemptive worry, aka now you don’t have a solution to a problem, now you have a specific name for a life breaking in two. Illness that never bothered to announce itself to the senses radiates in screen life, as light is sound and is information encrypted, unencrypted, circulated, analyzed, rated, studied, and sold. In the servers, our health degrades or improves. Once we were sick in our bodies. Now we are sick in a body of light.”
― Anne Boyer, The Undying: A Meditation on Modern Illness

“The goal is to find satisfaction and autonomy within a set of overlapping systems of mutual support and assistance.”
― Tim Pratt, Doors of Sleep