Chantelle

“I have decided that I am happier than I have ever been in my life. And yet,’ he assured them with great and solemn sincerity, ‘I would crawl over your dead, burnt bodies if it meant getting to absolutely anything deep-fried.”
― Mary Doria Russell, The Sparrow

“usually hatred was an emotion arising out of the desire to be accepted by another person,”
― Natsuo Kirino, Out: A dark, unflinching thriller about ordinary women pushed beyond the edge.

“You exist in a half-world suspended between two superstructures, one self-expression and the other self-destruction. You are strong, but there is a flaw in your strength, and unless you learn to control it the flaw will prove stronger than your strength and defeat you. The flaw? Explosive emotional reaction out of all proportion to the occasion. Why?”
― Truman Capote, In Cold Blood

“To be declared with certainty ill while feeling with certainty fine is to fall on the hardness of language without being given even an hour of soft uncertainty in which to steady oneself with preemptive worry, aka now you don’t have a solution to a problem, now you have a specific name for a life breaking in two. Illness that never bothered to announce itself to the senses radiates in screen life, as light is sound and is information encrypted, unencrypted, circulated, analyzed, rated, studied, and sold. In the servers, our health degrades or improves. Once we were sick in our bodies. Now we are sick in a body of light.”
― Anne Boyer, The Undying: A Meditation on Modern Illness