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“waste not want not. i am not being wasted. why do i want?”

“now my body is something else, something i don’t understand, something i can’t quite grasp. do i have any part of me that still marks me as female? they have to be able to find it in something, so they can assure themselves that there’s a woman under all this. like there’s a woman trapped in this flesh instead of a boy being this flesh.”

“if they want me to be a monster one step closer to God, that’s fine. in what world was their God ever a benevolent one?”

“my name is benjamin woodside. i’m gay and trans as hell, i am a boy, my pronouns are he/ him, and i am a goddamn person.”

“silently, i pray for the dead. i don’t know if it works, i don’t know if it means anything, but it stops the sick feeling in my chest, so it must count for something.”

"seraph was right" OH!

"you could have cracked open his chest and read gospels in his entrails."

“corpses dangle from the wires, yellow-pink organs hanging from their stomachs to obscure their nakedness, like adam and eve ashamed of their bodies”

“i would not go on anymore weaving my cloths by day and unraveling them again at night, making nothing.”

“if it were a man, i wondered if i would pity him. but it was not a man.”