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“The worst was yet to come, he knew. Already he could feel a world of trouble walting for him behind the next door, but the worst that could have happened was also already behind him; the thing not done, which could have been — which he would have had to live with for the rest of his life.”

“…was there any point in being alive without helping one another? Was it possible to carry on along through all the years, the decades, through an entire life, without once being brave enough to go against what was there and yet call yourself a Christian, and face yourself in the mirror?”

“So many things had a way of looking finer, when they were not so close.”

“Before long, he caught a hold of himself and concluded that nothing ever did happen again; to each was given days and chances which wouldn't come back around. And wasn't it sweet to be where you were and let it remind you of the past for once, despite the upset, instead of always looking on into the mechanics of the days and the trouble ahead, which might never come.”

“Always it was the same, Furlong thought; always they carried mechanically on without pause, to the next job at hand. What would life be like, he wondered, if they were given time to think and reflect over things? Might their lives be different or much the same — or would they just lose the run of themselves?”

“Tension can build up and live and fester, creep into in the smallest corners of daily life. This a move back toward regularity, to predictability. We all want certainty.”

"They stay together because it's expected, because it's what they know. They try to make it work, to endure it, and end up living under some kind of spiritual anesthetic. They go on, but they are numb. And the more I think about, the more I think there's nothing worse than to live your life this way. Detached, but abiding. It's immoral."

“Why do people stay together?"

"Because they love each other. They're committed to each other. They depend on each other. There's comfort there, security.”

“I can barely conceive of a type of beauty in which there is no melancholy.”

“Beauty isn't fleeting. Beauty is eternal.
But...'m not. I'm fleeting.“

"What if it never comes? The storm. The rain. We act like it has to come, like it's inevitable because it has always come before, but what if a storm doesn't come this time and things just keep going on and on like this forever? What then?”

“Whats impossible becomes not only achievaple but then is also quickly forgotten when the next impossibility becomes the new pursuit.”

“Doesn’t life have to be determined by each individual, and be involved to be legitimate? Doesn’t there have to be an element of challenge and progression?”

“The privilege of being human is that our brains are big enough to decide the fate of other creatures.”

“The only constant quality of humanness is that we adapt. Always."

“I'm not here only to help you feel secure in your life.”

“The thought of ever going somewhere new is scary. But isn't it good to scare yourself from time to time? It's so easy to get stuck in your own narrow rut. We convince ourselves they're paths to something else, contentment, but really they're just ruts going on forever."

“Being alone, it's a tricky thing. I's good for us, in doses, but not for a prolonged period. And not when you're not used to it."

“Anybody can remember details if you ask them to, but it doesn't mean it actually happened that way.”

“Despair is never satisfied on its own. Despair does not want to be alone. Despair warts company.“

“I endured the passage of lonely days indifferently. Hen changed that. She gave me a purpose. A reason to exist.”

“…whenever I think about the past, I feel a heightened sense of oblivion.“

“You shape your existence through decisions, perceptions, and behavior.“

“But why is the unknown a burden? It doesn't have to be. It can just as easily be the opposite — a kind of awakening to feel something.”

“You can hold beliefs and not always believe in them.”

“Maybe the orbit we inhabit is preordained. I'm okay with it even if I don't really believe in that kind of thing. You can hold beliefs and not always believe in them.”

“Are some things meant to be, meant to happen?”

“Life finds a way of balancing out. This is what we desire as humans — security, certainty, affirmation.”

“That's what time does. It ushers a return to equilibrium. Unease becomes ease. A shock, no matter how potent, always wears off with time.”