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"Well, have you? Did you find yourself?" "I think so. I'm not sure I like what I found."

It’s strange, don’t you think, the way we attach to people. The way our best intentions are cast aside, and the seed gets deeper into the soil of us than we planned and their place in our lives grows roots.

There are all sorts of loves in this world, I know that now. I don’t know it completely – it’s not a full moon of knowing just yet, maybe at best I’m at the waxing crescent of understanding what I can about love. They say it conquers all, but does it? Can it even? All is so vast.

“The fact that it is abstract makes me want to rip them from the walls, why do these paintings and the painter and the viewer get to look at an abstract portrayal of a world already abstracted for their convenience and comfort?”

“I thought time stretched out forever, I thought I had the rest of my life to make this decision, but I realize I am on a clock, and it runs differently for me. I am female. There was never much time and I’ve wasted so much already.”

“We almost always got caught and grounded again, which seemed terribly unfair to us at the time. We were just exploring. What is it like to feel sexy? What does sexy even mean? Totally valid questions for teenage girls to be investigating.” 🩷

“Beauty has always been one of the only ways women have been able to access power, and I can’t fault any of them for wanting more of it.”

“may the stars shine upon the end of your road.”

“It isn’t a sadness, but a joy, that we don’t do the same things for the length of our lives.” 🥹

William laughs at a memory of Lucy, then Lucy thinks of how David wouldn’t have laughed at anything she did. “What a hideous thing marriage was at times those years with William: a familiarity so dense it filled up the room. . . The slight flicker of an eyebrow slightly raised, no one but the other would know what it meant; but you could not be free living like that, not ever. Intimacy became a ghastly thing.”