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already love love love this so much

“death takes what you have allowed it to. murder is just a way shaking death’s hand and telling him ‘what is mine, is yours’”

“we’re like everyone else, i guess. we promise that something is forever, when it is really only as long as it takes for us to tire of it”

“i think of death these days as a companion i long to meet”

“this is the fire you must walk through”

white girl depression ily

“never does the world lean a bit for me, cast a vote, and cause an eye to open… see the man… see the way his eyes are frozen in the image of my face in a scream… i sit awaiting his arrival, kept awake by the notion that i shall grow accustomed to the dark far easier than he to the light.
laura”

this book is giving me a tummy ache!!! i am so devastated

“i just remembered that today’s my birthday.”

i can’t take it anymore

“i wanted to get out and walk eastward toward the park in the soft twilight… yet high over the city our line of yellow windows must have contributed their share of human secrecy to the casual watcher in the darkening streets, and i saw him too, looking up and wondering. i was within and without, simultaneously enchanted and repelled by the inexhaustible variety of life” (37).

i always want an excuse to reread this book and now i finally have to for my lit crit class!!! this writing is everything to me

yes yes yes i hope death is like succumbing to the cool embrace of powdery snow

i feel like my heart is being torn apart and stitched back together and torn back apart again OUCH

reading way too many books right now due to not finishing my fun reading before the semester. this one is for my critical issues in literary studies course

reading in spanish!! so hype

finished the show and now i am obsessed. connor storrie and hudson williams are everything to me.

hey…. a girl needs a palate cleanse

little women section finished!

“and the love, respect, and confidence of my children was the sweetest reward i could receive for my efforts to be the woman i would have them copy” (113).

so far my fav chapter is “being neighborly” <3

IF I LOVED YOU LESS, I MIGHT BE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT MORE!

p. 453

all young people would have their little whims

“it might be distressing for the moment, but you seem to have behaved extremely well; and it is over, and may never - can never, as a first meeting - occur again, and therefore you need not think about it” (193).

love you emma

“after this speech he was gone as soon as possible. emma could not think it too soon; for with all his good and agreeable qualities there was a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt to incline her to laugh. she ran away to indulge the inclination, leaving the tender and the sublime of pleasure to harriet’s share” (96).

so cutie girlhood

“yes, good man! thought emma, but what has all that to do with taking likenesses? you know nothing of drawing. don’t pretend to be in raptures about mine. keep your raptures for harriet’s face” (55).

emma is so sassy hellloooo

losing my mind at the transitions between present/past speech and the use of quotation marks!!! so so brilliant and goes back to my last point about the idea of restructuring the narrative. it’s like creative nonfiction… when the narrator is speaking in the past she is at liberty to determine the specific dialogue to her memory as long as it stays mostly true

random thoughts at this point in the book:
- it took me way too long to realize their names are of + their commander’s name
- love the idea of a narrative being reconstructed
- reminds me a lot of what is happening with ice today
- love love love how moira’s queerness is portrayed and the description of her lapse in intimacy in friendship with the narrator that was healed over time :) so relatable

“i avoid looking down at my body, not so much because it’s shameful or immodest but because i don’t want to see it. i don’t want to look at something that determines me so completely.”

read atwood’s ‘an angel’ tonight to write a final essay on and was very fascinated. i’ve been wanting to read for a while but couldn’t decide on what, so that inspired me to finally pick this up. woohoo.

highkey obsessed with the concept of spiraling over winter break. i miss richard papen. will have to reread the secret history soon (it’s a yearly thing…)