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“Hope cannot be relied on. But sometimes we still need it to survive” (199).

Just say she never gets to hear me say that I always knew she was something special and that's why I was so horrible to her. Because people with that much spirit frighten the hell out of me. They make me want to be a better person when I know it's not possible." (390)

Just say Jessa never giggles again. Or sings karaoke or pesters me with a trillion inane questions. Just say she never snuggles up in bed with the other girls, whispering about the boys they have crushes on. Just say she never grows up to be my age and just say she never falls in love or gets to know what type of people her parents were. Just say she never gets to be someone's mother and someone's life-longfriend390

"Then when it was over, she gathered him into her arms. And told him the terrible irony of her life.
That she had wanted to be dead all those years while her brother was alive. That had been her sin.
And this was her penance.
Wanting to live when everyone else seemed dead." (328-329)

"...That she would never see the moments in my life that were full of neglect and fear and revulsion, moments I can never go back to because I know they will slow me down for the rest of my life if I let myself remember them for one moment." (309).

"If I had to wish for something, just one thing, it would be that Hannah would never see Tate the way I did. Never see Tate's beautiful lush hair turning brittle, her skin sallow, her teeth ruined by anything she could get her hands on that would make her forget. That Hannah would never count how many men there were and how vile humans can be to one another..." (308)

"'Sometimes I forget just how bad he was, so all I can remember is that he's dead because of me..." (304).

"'I loved him, you know,' he says quietly. The admission doesn't surprise me as much as the fact that he's speaking about it. 'That would probably shock people. But I did. I look exactly like him. Same build, same face. I know every part of my personality that I got from my father. He was a prick, except even pricks don't deserve to be smashed over the head with a cricket bat" (303).

"I remember love. It's what I have to keep on reminding myself. It's funny how you can forget everything except people loving you. Maybe that's why humans find it so hard getting over love affairs. It's not the pain they're getting over, it's the love" (261-262).

“It’s not that I miss my mother. It’s just that I miss the idea of what one would be” (222)